Update Post
As I’m sure people are aware of, I haven’t exactly been posting much here recently. And there’s a reason for that.
First off, the reason I even made this account was because I was bored, had nothing to do (besides farting around on other sites on the internet), and I wasn’t motivated to play video games in any way, shape, or form. A fair amount of time has passed since then; graduation perhaps being the biggest achievement that’s happened since then.
I’ve also been battling depression, which has been a major anchor in progressing with my life. Since I’ve come on Tumblr, I’ve started some antidepressants. They’ve definitely helped my mood, as I’m now seriously considering looking for a part time job, I’ve regained my drive to play video games, and, of course, I’m in a general better mood and don’t think about death/suicide as much. But there are still some significant problems that I need to take care of; problems that an antidepressant won’t help me find a conclusion to. Getting back to playing games has cured the boredom that caused me to come here in the first place, and those problems (that I don’t feel like getting into) are something that I need to solve and that Tumblr will only distract me from thinking about.
The second thing is that there are times where Tumblr does not help me at all and can send me into a depressive episode, even, largely due to how some posts are worded. There’s also because of other, more minor things, like seeing post after post after post about a subject that I just don’t give a shit about, but that really just angers me, instead of fucking up my thoughts. It’s still an unpleasant annoyance all the same.
The third thing, which is related to the first thing, is that, like I said, I graduated high school a couple of months ago, and so now I need to think about getting a part time job, and focusing on what I want to major in college/what I want to do for the rest of my life. And, again, I don’t need a distraction like Tumblr.
So, basically, if it’s not clear enough already, I’m leaving Tumblr. I’m not gonna delete my blog, in case I decide to come back for whatever weird, unknown reason, and so people can still look at my posts and send me asks if they want (since I plan to keep the Tumblr app on my phone, meaning I’ll get a notification whenever somebody sends me an ask), but I doubt I’ll be posting anymore. I need to focus on my life some more, and Tumblr is only a distraction that will not help with that.
As for my side blog, amaliveblog, I’ll probably still be doing shit there, just not as much (and who even knows if I’ll do anything after I’m actually all done with Fire Emblem Awakening). Another reason why I won’t be deleting my main blog.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I don’t exactly hate Tumblr. I still enjoy the funny and amazing stuff I see, it’s just that the bad outweighs the good at this current point in my life. If for some reason you feel like talking to me, like I said, my ask box will still be open, and I think pretty much everybody who would want to talk to me anyway have other ways of doing so.
So, so long, Tumblr. My ride was fun, but it’s time for me to move on.
