Hello
Well then, I decided to get back into Tumblr. Hi there, I go by Amber, nice to meet you. I was born in the Netherlands in the 90s.
During my time as a university student I was on Tumblr for a while. Mostly because that was were my friends and me looked at pictures and gifs of things that interested us at the time. And those things were mostly Tom Hiddleston and Benedict Cumberbatch (in no particular order). BBC Sherlock hadn't messed up its final season yet, the MCU was where the hype was at, we probably were slowly losing interest in Supernatural, Sons of Anarchy properly traumatised us, watching anime was cool, and my friends were teaching me how to look at sexy men.
But things change. You get a degree, your heart gets mangled, friends drift apart, you have to find a job, and you stop looking at the website with the pictures, and the gifs, and the like-minded people.
So here I am, with my bachelor in English, my half finished masters in English, my hardwon mental stability, my respectible job, my partner, my best friend, my life that's going fine, my disposable income to use for travel, theatre, concerts, merch, conventions, whatever I want. My nerdiness, my love for fantasy, my tendency to binge watch my favourite media over and over, my desire to create, my long long list of unfinished fanfic, my ability to get attached to fictional characters to the point that their pain hurts me, my memories of the maladaptive daydream I grew out of, my undiagnosed neurodivergence, and my strongly ingrained feeling that spiralling like I used to is just no longer acceptable.
I'm not complaining. I have a pretty nice life.
But sometimes I miss the old me. Sometimes I just want to spin out, dive down the rabbit hole, let myself spiral. And then I was reminded of Tumblr. Because Tumblr, your tags go deep. And also, most of the things I'm into, there's people here that are also into them. Now, I do need to figure out how this all works, because back I the day we were mostly lurkers and didn't post much. But I do feel that I want to go for the full experience this time. So bear with me while I try to figure it all out.
So yeah, this is where I spiral (healthily, I promise). Which is to say this blog is going to be very unapologetically eclectic. And if that's something you enjoy too, feel free to stick around.
