amvp

when you want to search your shit but all that comes up is that bitch columbine from genshin impact or whatever

and on top of everything in my life the woman from my father’s work who promised to hire me as a babysitter for her daughter with great terms and pay “at the end of the month” and that was in june still hasn’t contacted me and the other coffee shop hasn’t replied either but i hope they will this week i feel so sad and dumb cause i’ve already told my friends and was so excited cause i love kids and now nothing happened

just saw a tiktok “and so instead of taking my life i gave it to someone who wanted it” and it made me so sad cuz neither me nor anybody else wants my life lol but at least i have my little sister

i hate myself so much sometimes i think things that scare me and I don’t know why I’m like this i try to be like nice but I’m such a hypocrite i try to be nice to people’s faces but I can’t stop thinking awful things about them and being mean to them in my head especially about my relatives

when u start learning german and suddenly u feel like eric writing random german words in his diary 😭