Jun 7
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#keep getting texts from cvs telling me billy’s prescriptions are ready to be picked up…#it still doesn’t feel real like. i’m still waking up at five am to take her food out of the fridge.#i keep expecting her to be on the couch next to me.#every time i leave the house i want to tell her i love her and i’ll be back later.#i just wish i knew. beforehand. like i wasn’t prepared.#i don’t think i could have ever prepared but like. i would have spoiled her so much more in the days before.#she should have had as much cantaloupe as she wanted.#like even thursday evening she was fine. she watched hacks with me. we cuddled after.#goddddddd i’m never going to be happy again.#ace.txt#cw: animal death
