You won't be alone, you've got love on your side ♡

A memorial poem for my babygirl Ginny, crossing the rainbow bridge softly and sweetly today. In the presence of love. Mum and Dean. FaceTime with me. It’s okay ❤️

This is how I grieve. My babygirl isn’t in pain anymore. They came to the house. As comfy as can be. She’ll never, ever be lonely. Angel and Kaspie need her now more than ever🥺 she’s watching over me.

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Thinking of moments

She truly was a fighter

Simple as that,

Ginny my girl, she always had my back

Parents and hospital trips, living at home

I lost my mind and will to life, not happy at all

But she saved me, she truly did

I learned lessons from her

Like the gentleness of nudges

And how to never to hold those grudges

— not even the ones I want to keep

No matter the pain

Girl had the words to say, she was always so deep

And as I’m at a loss

And outside there’s rain

I know babygirl

Knows she’s loved just the same

Mom and dad and Meeke and friends

Her best friend Charlie, the spunky black lab

Were they dating? Who knows??

… friendship is glad ❤️

She was a cutie — actually, pretty rad

Her last walk with Charlie

And fam and friends to be .. with

Not for 10 mile hikes, like the prior days

But still in the company of love, just all the same

She used to pull me, I couldn’t keep up

Excitement abound, 17 years now

She walked me and I followed behind

And now in my heart, with walks she’ll be my guide

I’ll never forget the cuddles on beds

When she could jump up and nudge her head

And as things got harder, I used to grow sad

The time grew near, to cherish moments we had

Short of breath, and 7 teeth and a goofy tongue

So many tumors, too many to count

Trips to the vet changed the tone to sad

But I remember that last trip we had

She hung on as long as absolutely possible

I held her closer everytime I returned home

That girl changed my life & did the impossible

Now I know and feel that true love is REAL AND POSSIBLE

I can can call you a soulmate, and our life was fate

All dogs go to heaven is true I know

Her pet family awaits, the cats she’s loved

Her last car ride over the rainbow bridge

Time to be a puppy again 💗

Rest in love and peace babygirl Ginny

(Peace and love) the motto of me and dad

Know mom will be eternally and lovingly sad

Walk us home, puppy dog ❤️✨🌈

We’ll always need you 🥰💕 please wait for us 😘

For one, I realized that I was within myself with my eyes closed. Being within myself is a feeling I don't feel often as I know my eyes are constantly searching for cues outside myself to "feel good." And it was amazing that I was feeling sooooo good with my eyes closed. For once again in my life did I feel that meditation is something I can do!! Not that your eyes have to be closed for it to be considered meditation...but I usually feel uncomfortable when I'm trying to meditate on the cushion.

Secondly, I felt SOOOO good pouring my love and compassion over my precious Meeke. I had been away from her for over 5 years now, as I moved on to live my life, and being back home with her is a precious gift I am realizing more and more every day. I wanted to take this time to show her that I care about her with undeniable, unconditional love. So I continued to say "Meeke, I love you and this purrrrrr of yours is pure love and brings me happiness." I had a zillion other warm thoughts that just flowed right out of me and into her. It was pure bliss.

But then...her tail started flicking. Plop, bop, blop...right in my face. She almost seemed angry. But that's the thing with my precious girl, Meeks... she has a cranky attitude. I joke that she's in "behavioral therapy" in my room while the other cats roam the house. She loves it in my room and she's calmed down...while also following me around constantly. She'll never leave and hiss at any of the other babies that try to come in. So this tail flicking was not out of the ordinary. But, it was weird considering she was getting tons of warm love at the time.

So, I'm left wondering this...should I stop giving her love because she keeps waking me up with her tail? Or, should I remain focused and keep on loving her until I know it's something she's uncomfortable with. She may have been feeling discontented. OR, maybe she was feeling good and the love she felt she was trying to communicate back to me?

I'll have to keep trying. I don't want to lose focus on loving her as a meditation...especially because it felt so perfect. But, her tail flicking made me lose focus again and again. My eyes would open and the vibe would shift. I'm not sure what all this means right now...but the beauty is in the insight it brings me. I want her to feel loved, she's helped me through so much. I'm in therapy in the outside world, and she may be in it with me inside my sanctuary of a room. So, her and I are in this together.

And THAT is absolutely magical.

With love,

With tunnel vision….

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