I'm sick n tired of being sick n tired of myself!!

I have struggle with weight my entire life, even as a child my cousins, step-brother and kids in my neighborhood would say mean things, call me fat, say I needed to go a crack diet. It hurt so maybe that's why I'm an emotional eater but who am I kidding.... IM ADDICTED TO FOOD!!!! Well my love for food has come to the point that I'm Extremely Obesity and my primary doctor suggested I have the Gastric Sleeve Surgery. After a year of thinking about it I finally went to a seminar and wanted to have it done the next day. My big brother (who I adore) told my mom that I should do a blog or vlog about this journey so here it is. I'm going to finally open up to the world (more so myself) about my weight issues in hopes that I can help other even if just one, but if no one watches these post I will be able to look back and see how far I came. "We all have genius-level talent, we just have to find out what [we're] genius at and apply ourselves in a way that supports that genius. First recognize that genius, then believe in it. You avoid all the outside noise. People put their fears and their insecurities on you so you can't reach your full potential. Don't let all the outside things get in the way." ― Jay-Z "A goal is not always meant to be reached, it often serves simply as something to aim at." ― Bruce Lee The X-wing fighter has sunk, and only the tip of its nose shows above the lake's surface. LUKE: Oh, no. We'll never get it out now. Yoda stamps his foot in irritation. YODA: So certain are you. Always with you it cannot be done. Hear you nothing that I say? Luke looks uncertainly out at the ship. LUKE: Master, moving stones around is one thing. This is totally different. YODA: No! No different! Only different in your mind. You must unlearn what you have learned. LUKE: (focusing, quietly) All right, I'll give it a try. YODA: No! Try not. Do. Or do not!! There is no try.... ***MY GOAL WEIGHT 130lbs. ( )***