Fox at heart

that's not the sort of theft he's worried about, Nicky

I had my final exams so I projected my mental state onto neil heh

He can acknowledge objectively that what he went through was abuse and trauma but he refused to feel it, refuses to acknowledge it on an emotional level, refuses to dwell on the pain. Keeps moving forward because thats all he knows, because exy is all he has, because he almost lost it once and now he clings to it with all that he has

He had to leave Jean behind, was eaten alive by guilt about it, and the only time he reached out to him was to lean on him emotionally. He lets Andrew and Neil redirect and calm him with affection that mixes with violence. He's a deeply selfish man who can only seek comfort when he's at the absolute bottom. He's desperate for so much he won't ask for

Kevin who gave Jean to the perfect team to help heal him as a person instead of as a player, but who is still shocked when he finds out Jean can cook and enjoys it. Kevin who gave himself to another violent, volitile team (consider how often Jean believes the Trojans will hurt him, and now consider how often Kevin does get hurt by the foxes), who makes such a point of being unlikeable. Driving away the connections that he doesnt know how to make. Kevin who's real smiles are rare enough to note.

neil: does family count?

matt: yes