tree you are the longest living one we know the largest of all plants and still you grow tree within your branches there's such history so much of what we're searching for to know

Also another thing that's been on my mind is how the older I get (not that im not still very young) the more I get in touch with the very real physical experience of having a body that is an animal. For all the pretentious heady things that I tend to engage with all day it's literally so important to know feel and accept that you're an animal still. Your body is still that of an animal. There is no escaping this and that's good. For many years I wished to purely exist as a mind disconnected from the physical realm but now that I take good care of my body wrt regular food intake exercise and rest it's like yessss im a beast my body is that of a large animal. This is no furry shit (which I will never understand tbh. I know it's like 99% an autism thing and very related to alienation from your body and the like and I experience all that but still I don't get it at all) but rather an actual integration of my mind into my body or vice versa. It's a crazy feeling when the connection between the way you treat your body and the way your mind works shows itself so directly lol

It's rly crazy that there is no good online space for lit discussion. Reddit is full of either 16 year old dostoyevsky chuds or middle aged stephen king fans (spineless liberal flavor), messageboards are either dead or fascist, Twitter is not for serious people, neither is Instagram, booktok is absolutely brain melting levels of consumerism, etc. I guess that leaves substack but you know. Do I even have to say it. Anyway this post was inspired by encountering a painfully inane take re tess of the d'urbervilles