michis

I just watched 8x16 and honestly, more than feeling angry about the writers' decisions, I feel disorientated and confused. I don't know what to expect for next season if they just killed one of the OGs. The amount of important things that developed off screen (Ex. how Eddie find it out, the airport scene, Buck's grief towards his father figure) the emotionless Buck, the Cameron baby plotline to smash any theory about Bobby being alive, the fact that he died after fighting suicidial tendencies for his whole life (Bobby didn. I was expecting something more emotional, I wanted to see how his death impacted the rest of the 118. I saw tears from them but it barely moved me (Chimney had the only acceptable crashout from all of them and I know that this is not the actors/actresses' fault, but I needed to mention it), and so many other details about the people the audience do care about (Why do writers think we care about damn Gerard? We don't).

I'm really trying to find any sense to this... Everything feels so out of place, and I think that's worse than actually hating the show: Feeling like you don't know it anymore.

For my well being, I'm gonna stop expecting for Bobby to be alive somewhere. Most part of the fandom is really upset and disappointed about this plot, and it's making the show losing loyal viewers that already had to deal with the lack of consistency of some characters' narrative and interactions and the lack of realism (something that as fans just intentionally ignore most of the time because the show was still good for other reasons). Besides, let's not forget about the fact that most people still watch 911 because of Buddie.

Now, I hardly see Buddie go canon at this point. For me, it would feel like putting a band aid on a bullet hole to try to stop the bleeding. Will I be happy when it happen? I'm sad to think that maybe not at all, because Buddie canon was something I was looking forward with so much joy, but I don't think I'll be able to enjoy it as I thought I would because my 118 team is never going to be the same anymore. Buddie was suppose to mean something for them as well, especially for Bobby ffs, how are we suppose to ignore that? Bobby was such an important figure for both Buck and Eddie, of course what he would think or react about it matter for the plot, at least for me.