Why does everyone make me feel worthless? My "friends" only speak to me when no one better is available.  My father tells me every time my family goes somewhere to do them a favor and stay home.  My grandparents think I'm lazy and don't do anything all day, although I do everything I can to please everyone.  Just yesterday I was crying in the car with my mom and brother because I felt so bad as my "friends" (except one) treated me like shit and it's probably because I'm not as "perfect" as them.  Apparently nobody thinks that I also have feelings and that sometimes I don't feel well either.  I'm just so tired of this.

Getting Piercings so you feel alive>>>>

I would really like to know how people would react to my death.

So tomorrow is my birthday and i don't even know why but i don't really look forward to it, it's just like a normal day i need to pass. I kinda feel bad for it tho.

Flicking hair tie against your wrist so you don't actually do it >>>>

I love that everyone else does something with their friends during the holidays or goes on some great trips with their family while I'm laying in my bed the whole holidays thinking if I should do it. It wouldn't interest anyone anyway, just as little as anyone would be interested in how I'm doing or what I'm doing right now. Everyone only texts or talks to me when they want something.

Do you ever sit back and realize your not anybody's favorite Person or first choice, you're just kinda there.

Maybe it's just me, but I wonder what it's like to have someone fall for you. I mean REALLY in love with you, not just because they think you're attractive. But be consumed with every little piece of you. The way you talk, the way you laugh, the way you just exist. So if you got this, be thankful.

I quit talking about my feelings because i came to realization that it does mean nothing. If you try talking to someone about them they act like they care but then won't ever try to talk to you about how you feel again.

Can we talk about how fucking exhausting it is to constantly try and distract yourself from your own mind? Not being able to have any real time to relax yourself because you're so terrified of your own head, because it's so mentally and physically exhausting.