Soulmates // Severus Snape O.S.
Summary: Childhood friends, unaware they’re soulmates.
Warnings: Brief descriptions of abuse, mention of death, soulmate au, italics means memories, possible angst
When witches and wizards turn 18, their soulmate's name show up on their dominant wrist. For the muggle's, they can't lie to their soulmate. This is what defines who or what we are. When people find out who their soulmate is, they tend to drop at their feet and beg to be in their life for both muggles and the ones with magic. I however never got a good look at the name that showed up on my right wrist, only a quick glance at it. When it shows up, it tends to burn and since I wasn't good with pain at that time, I had fallen to the floor with tears rolling down my cheeks and screaming with pain as I held my wrist. What happened next I remember as clear as day...
I walked down into the kitchen to see my boyfriend sitting in the kitchen with a beer in his hand. He's 21 years old with black hair and electric blue eyes, my name was tattooed onto his left wrist - his dominant hand. I was his soulmate and hopefully he was mine. He was a really well built man, he was the star quidditch player before he was kicked out for beating one of the students in Gryffindor half to death, if I remember correctly it was a boy named James Potter. Today was my 18th birthday and I was scared for when the named showed up because I was there when Richard got his and if he winced in pain then I knew I would cry like a baby.
I walked over to Richard and hugged him from behind with a smile on my face which quickly disappeared when he pushed me away mumbling for me to, and I quote, 'get the hell off'. I nodded when I realized what type of mood he was in. I walked over to the fridge and pulled out the eggs.
"Richard, do you want some eggs?" I asked in a meek voice, afraid of making him mad.
"How many times do I have to tell you woman?! It's Dick. NOT Richard. Make me my damn eggs and leave," he was drunk and I knew it too. He rarely ever raised his voice at me and when he did, it doesn't end well for me. I cracked open two eggs and started to make scrambled eggs for him when my wrist started to burn. I dropped to the floor as pain shot up my arm causing my hand to hit the handle of the pan on the stove, the eggs flying everywhere. I screamed and tears started to fall down my cheeks as I sat on the floor holding my hand. It felt like someone stabbed into my arm with a dagger that was just pulled out of a fire pit or someone was branding my wrist like an animal. I looked up when I saw Richard kneeling in front of me. The pain slowly receded, leaving me panting with tears running down my cheeks. I quickly went to look if it was Richard's name and saw the beginning: 'Sev...' I couldn't see the rest because Richard growled and pulled me up.
"Ri-Dick? What are you doing?" I asked cautiously. He slowly lifted his head to look at me, he had anger in his eyes and turned before slamming my wrist on something hot. I screamed and tried to move my wrist from the hot stove as burning skin hit my nose, making me sick to my stomach. Tears ran down my cheeks as I continued trying to pull my arm out of his hand.
"You're mine. Not his. MINE!" he yelled and punched my cheek with so much strength that made me fly across the floor.
"I'm yours! I'm yours," I had cried the rest of night, wondering who's name was on my wrist that had made him do that. The only evidence was the 'Sev...' that I had seen before he burned it.
It's been 12 years since then. A scar covers my soul mates name and Richard had been killed in a robbery that had happened while I went to work at a cafe down the road, he had been to drunk to do anything. Now I'm 30 years old and I work at Hogwarts as the Powers Against the Dark Arts teacher. Since I'm ambidextrous I can use my left hand while my right hand stays hidden inside of my long sleeves. I never use my right hand unless I absolutely need to, which rarely happens. I keep it hidden so no one asks about what happened. No one questions why I don't use my right arm except for my best friend, Professor Snape. We've known each other since school and he was pretty close to Richard so when he died, we were the only ones there for each other and that made us closer. I help him with protecting Harry Potter. Sure he didn't like James Potter but he did happen to like Harry's mom so he tries to protect Harry. Something else I should tell you about, before Richard died I was pregnant. He died a week before she was born. I named her Skyla Jade Harrison and she is now in the Slytherin house and best friends with Draco Malfoy. This is the story of how I found my Soulmate.
I walked down the halls of Hogwarts towards Professor Snape's class. I don't have any classes right now because a different teacher was put there. Dumbledore wanted me to take a break or something so I'm not allowed to teach. Dumbledore is my adoptive father so I guess it makes sense why he treats me better than everyone else. My train of thought was disrupted when I heard two voices coming from around the corner towards Snape's room. I sighed and shook my head as I realized who it was.
"Harry Potter and Ronald Weasley, I expected better from you two," I said as I turned the corner to look straight at the two boys.
"S-sorry Ms. Harrison. We slept in and nobody woke us up s-so we ran a l-little late," Ron stuttered as he looked at me. I smiled and shook my head.
"Don't worry about it. Let's just go. Don't speak unless I say you can, understood?" I speak with a soft but authoritative voice which caused them to nod. I walked up to them and grabbed Harry's shoulder as I walked into the room with a smile on my face. Snape stopped what he was saying as he looked at us, a slight smile slid onto his face when he saw me but then disappeared as he saw the two boys in front of me.
"Hello Ms. Harrison," he spoke and I nodded with acknowledgement, a slight blush on my face - the room was dark enough to hide the red tint on my cheeks. "Potter, Weasley. Why are you late?" He spoke with a coldness in his voice. The boys looked up at me with slight fear in their eyes, thinking I'd rat them out.
"I had pulled them to the side to speak to them before class began. It's all my fault. My apologies," I said as I tightened my hand that was on Harry's shoulder when he had started to speak. I glanced down at him with a look that told him to shut up.
"Very well. Get to your seats," Snape said and the boys scrambled to their seats. I smiled at Snape and he nodded his head before going back to teaching his class as I took a seat in the back of the room. As Snape was teaching, he kept glancing at me and each time I was looking around the room. I hadn't noticed until I had caught him in the act. Finally classes were over, meaning I get to hang out with Snape. I smiled happily and walked up to his desk that he was sitting at and staring at some papers.
"Snaaaaaaaape," I said in a slightly high pitch tone, wanting to get his attention. When he didn't look at me, I groaned and spoke in an even higher tone, "Snaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaape." I giggled when I saw him twitch slightly, as if he was going to look at me before he looked up and around the room like I wasn't right next to him.
"I swear I just heard a dying cat just now - hmm," he said and shrugged his shoulders before looking back down at the paper. I stared at him in slight shock as I realized that he just made a joke. I quickly snapped out of it before moving his papers and sitting on his desk right in front of him, my right leg crossed over my left and put the papers to the side while smirking at him. Now what is he gonna do? "That's strange. I didn't know papers could move by themselves," he said with a smirk on his face. I faked a gasp and hit his shoulder.
"How rude. Here I am, your best friend, and you act like you can’t even see me. That's just cruel," I said and he chuckled slightly. He may seem like a mean guy to others but he has a sweet and caring side, just seems like it's only when I'm around.
"Like that's not a normal thing," he said as he rolled his eyes and leaned back in his chair. I shook my head and watched his right hand as he went to grab the papers he had been reading when something on his wrist caught my eye. My hand shot out quicker than the eye can see and grabbed his wrist as I looked him in the eyes. "Nicole?" he spoke with shock evident in his voice. He's never seen me react that fast nor have I ever grabbed his wrist since the night Richard died. I pulled his arm towards me and moved his sleeve further out of the way as Snape tried to pull his arm back, a look of shock and a little bit of worry swirling in his eyes. The name I saw on his wrist made my own eyes widen.
"My name...is on your wrist?" I asked as I looked at him in shock, tears threatening to spill. I jumped off his desk and started to walk away when he grabbed my left wrist.
"Nicki...let me explain, please," he said and I shook my head as I looked back at him.
"You only kept me around because of that. Why didn't you tell me?! Did you want to use me like Richard?!" I cried but froze in my spot when I heard a sweet and quiet voice speak from the doorway.
"Mommy..?" it was Skyla and she was in tears. I roughly took my wrist back from Snape and walked away from him, towards my daughter. I grabbed her hand and smiled at her before looking back at Snape.
"We all have secrets but I wish you had at least told me that," I walked out of the door after finishing the sentence. He continued to stare at the door and eventually walked out a few minutes after I left. I looked down at Skyla who had tears running down her cheeks. "What's wrong sweetie?" I asked and she sniffled before replying.
"I like Draco and he was snogging Pansy," she cried even harder as my eyes widened. I'm going to have to talk to that boy.
"Go clean up and then head to the hall to eat. Stay away from Draco unless he's apologizing," I said and she nodded before running to the closest bathroom. I walked into the hall where all of the students were eating along with the teachers. As I walked in, I felt two pairs of eyes on me and I knew who they were. Dumbledore and Snape. I walked over to the Slytherin table and stopped right by Draco who sat in between Pansy and some other guy. I tapped Pansy's shoulder and waved my hand left to right, telling her to move over and she complied. I smirked and sat down on the seat in a way that my back rested against the table and my legs were still in the walkway area. I turned my head and looked at Draco after looking at Dumbledore and Snape's shocked faces.
"Mrs. Harrison?" Draco asked in shock, I normally come in steal a piece of bread from the Slytherin table then leave; I'm not one for eating with hundreds of people surrounding me.
"Draco," I said in a sickly sweet tone with a matching smile. He looked like he was about to pee his pants. "Now listen and tell me the truth," he nodded slowly, "What do you think of Skyla?"
"S-s-she's a nice g-girl... Why?"
"What do you feel towards her? Friends, more then friends?" I spoke quieter so Pansy couldn't hear me. As I said the second part, his face turned bright red, telling me everything I need to know, "If you care so much then why did you break her heart?" His eyes widened in shock.
"What? I didn't..I didn't do-"
"Don't give me that. If you didn't do anything, then she had no reason to be crying her eyes out. Tell me the truth. What is going on between you and Pansy?" I said and his face turned into one of realization.
"That silly girl. There's nothing going on between me and Pansy. Pansy forced herself onto me," he said with a shake of his head.
"Well you better apologize, or else you’ll never speak to her again," I said and got up. I turned around to Pansy. "Stay away from Draco, we don't allow PDA and he doesn't like you. Thanks," I said and walked away after grabbing a piece of bread. I walked out of the room and sighed before realizing something. I don't even remember Snape's first name. I've called him by his last name for so long that I've forgotten. I smirked before heading back towards his classroom. When I arrived, I was almost done with my piece of bread. I walked in while shoved the last bite in my mouth before heading towards his desk. I sat in his chair and started going through his papers, looking for his name. What? It'd be embarrassing to tell him that I've forgotten his first name. He'd never let me live it down. I opened one of the drawers and pulled out the top paper. I quickly skimmed it but stopped when I read his name. 'Severus Snape. Huh. Interesting name, don’t know how I could’ve forgotten that.' I thought to myself but stopped as I reread his first name. I continued staring at it.
I quickly went to look if it was Richard's name and saw the beginning: 'Sev...' I couldn't see the rest because Richard growled and pulled me up.
I can't believe I didn't realize this sooner. Severus. I could slap myself for not realizing this sooner. I sighed and went to put the paper away before seeing a picture in the same drawer that had been under the paper. I tilted my head slightly in confusion as I picked it up. I smiled slightly when I saw the photo. It was a picture of me, Snape, and Richard. I quickly stood up, closed the drawer, and walked behind a stack of stuff when I heard people walking past the room, not wanting to be caught snooping. As I sat there, I stared at the picture and frowned as I took in the details. Snape had turned 18 the day this picture was taken and he said that his soulmate's name hadn't shown up and we just figured it was because he was a half-blood but now after seeing my name on his wrist and then looking at this photo, I could tell that my name was already there. I was in between them with Richard on my right and Snape on my left. I held up two piece signs and was giving a closed eye smile at the camera while Richard had his arm loosely wrapped around my shoulder and he was looking at a girl that I recognized as Lily, Harry's mom. You could see the lust in his eyes and the smirk on his face. He was leaning away from me and Snape. Snape was crouched down slightly and giving a smile towards the camera with his left hand in a peace sign and his right hidden behind his back but his eyes wasn't towards the camera, they were looking at me. The emotions in his eyes were hard to describe. I could see practically see the happiness, sadness, hurt, and...love. At the time I was dating Richard while Richard was cheating on me with almost every girl in Hogwarts. I continued to stare at the picture as tears started to flow down my cheeks. I hurt Snape and I was cheated on by the man I had loved. Tears rolled down my cheeks, off my chin, and hit the picture as I sobbed quietly.
I walked back into my classroom to see it exactly how I had left it. I started to head over to my desk when I noticed something on the floor. I knelt down and picked some of it up. Crumbs. Bread crumbs. I chuckled softly and shook my head as I realized that Nicole had eaten in here. I walked over to my desk and picked up a piece of paper, looking over it before signing it. I went to pick up another one but stopped when I heard someone sniffling behind a stack of boxes I had in a corner of my room. I got up quietly and slowly walked over when I heard someone hiccup and sniffle again before they choked out a sob. As I rounded the corner I froze, my eyes widening. Nicole sat in a corner, she was bent over to where her forehead touched the floor. As I stepped closer I could see tear after tear running down her cheeks and hitting the floor. The sight broke my heart. I blinked before clearing my throat slightly, trying to get her attention. That's when I heard her mumbling to herself. Slowly the mumbling became yelling.
"He cheated... He cheated... H-he cheated on... HE CHEATED ON ME!" she yelled and shook her head quickly before hitting it off of the floor. "Why? Why me? Am I that bad of a girlfriend? I HATE HIM! I HATE MEN!" she yelled and my heart shattered. She went to hit her head off the floor again but I sat beside her and grabbed her head quickly, bringing it to my chest as she screamed for me to let go.
"I can't do that Nicki," I said and she tensed up, her screaming stopped but her tears and heavy breathing did not. That's when I saw the paper she was holding in her hands. "Nicki..." I said and she sniffled before breaking down again. She dropped the paper and threw both of her arms around my chest and buried her head into my cloak, sobbing. I picked up the paper and looked at it just to throw it to the side as I saw the tear markings on the picture. I wrapped my arms around her and hugged her tightly. She continued to cry as I picked her up bridal style and headed towards my separate dorm. On the way there Nicole had fallen asleep in my arms. I smiled at her and walked into my room. I walked over to the bed and laid her down and headed to sleep on the couch but her grip on my cloak tightened and her eyes cracked open.
"Stay with me..." she begged and I nodded before removing my top cloak and get in next the her. I paid on my side so I was facing away from her as my cheeks heated up slightly. I tensed as I felt her come closer to me and she cuddled into my back. My face turned bright red and she giggled from behind me before her breathing slowed, showing she was asleep. I slowly relax and feel asleep with the love of my life next to me.
I woke up and kept my eyes shut, not wanting to really wake up. If I don't open my eyes, I'm not technically awake..right? Eh who knows. I cuddled closer to my pillow when it suddenly chuckled. Wait...pillows don't chuckle. My eyes popped open to see Snape laying under me, my head was on his chest and our legs were tangled together. I look up to see him already looking down at me. I smiled slightly as my face became bright red. I sat up and stood.
"Sorry about that," I said and went to walk away when he stopped me.
"Don't apologize. It was nice to see you show some type of emotion besides a fake smile," he said and I looked at him over my shoulder. He chuckled and pulled me back onto the bed, pulling me closer to his chest. "I'm sorry you think that I was just hanging around you because your name was on my wrist. In fact, the reason I did keep you around was because you were my only friend and my first crush. Hell, I haven't met anyone better," he said and my face turned bright red as he continued talking. "I still like you to this day. You're my real soulmate. No one else can replace you. Not even Nicole Smith. Never felt the same affection that I have for you for her. You are the one," he said and I felt him tense up. "I understand that you don't want to love me. I mean, who would. It's doubtful that my name's on your wrist anyway," I sighed and sat up. He stared at the back of my head as I slowly took off my top shirts, leaving on my tank-top. I turned around while looking down at the bad.
"I don't know who is on my wrist," I said and looked at him through my bangs to see his eyes widen. I slowly moved my arm towards him and showed him the scar that rested there. "Richard burned it off when I first got it..." I said and tears started to flow down my cheeks as he held my arm in his hand and rubbed his fingers against it.
"Did you at least get to see the first few letters," he spoke quietly as his eyes traveled to my own. His eyes were soft and caring, unlike Richard's ever were.
"Sev. That's all I saw," I said and looked at him, my tears coming to a stop as his eyes widen when he realized what I figured out while snooping around his room. "I'm pretty sure it's you. I mean, I haven't found anyone else who's name starts with Sev," I paused before continuing, "Besides, I seem to have fallen for you." I finished while looking down. Not even a few seconds later, I feel his hand cupping my chin and see him looking me in the eyes. I open my mouth to say something but stop as his lips hit mine.
That was the start of a beautiful relationship. Nowadays I'm known as Nicole Snape. We also have two kids together. Johanna Snape and her twin brother, John Snape. Along with their older half-sister, Skyla Harrison.
