Picture Perfect

can you imagine being a serial killer and being found out by a 12 year old with a laptop like L was solving cases since he was a kid can you imagine being pushed into a squad car and the guy whos putting you away is sitting 10 feet away like this 

You left. That’s all. You just left.

1. You don’t owe them anything. I start with this because it is the most important lesson you can ever learn. You do not have to be scared to fall in and out of love. To change your mind on a whim. They are not entitled to permanency from you for anything. 2. You deserve the same kind of outs you keep giving everyone else. If you know your own madness can be too much, they need to know that their sickness can overwhelm you too. You can walk away from anything that is damaging you at any point without giving more then a few short words as explanation. Or no explanation at all. 3. They are not entitled to you in anyway. Saying I love you does not mean you signed a contract to give them sex whenever they want. The opposite is also true. Just because you gave them sex doesn’t mean they are entitled to your love. They don’t get everything just because they ONCE did.They have no right to demand shit from you. 4. You can drop everything and walk away at any point in time. Say goodbye and slam the door. Bar it and lock it over and over if it makes you feel safer. You do not have to keep them in your life because they claim to ‘need’ you. Or want you. Or “have’ to have you. You are not responsible for keeping their heart beating. 5. You are not a therapist. Or a doctor. Or a healer. It is not your job to come in and wave a magic wand. To come in and fix all of their problems. To unpack and carry all of their baggage and damages and scars.  You’ve got enough of your own god damn problems without taking on all of theirs. 6. Their temper tantrums are not your problem. Their past abandonment are not things you need to be responsible for.  Do not let them use your own past and good heart to manipulate you. They will keep you trapped forever if you let them.They have other people to bandage their wounds. They have best friends to cry to. They can fuck off. Because you need to go to your best friend and let them calm your shaking.

spite

Happiness was just a word until I met you. Now, it has a face and a name.

Your heart will break into a thousand pieces. When that happens, follow it everywhere. Not just in one direction. You contain infinity in you.

I’m not your other half Darling, you’re whole without me we both know that the world has always been yours to take that the sun is outshone by your soul but I think we recognized each other or our souls did anyway that somehow we knew that we could heal each other that somehow when we collided some things started making sense because that’s the only way to explain the way we center each other, an anchor in the storm the way we kiss the other’s scars and somehow the pains the fades the way that even in the dark there was a light of understanding because perhaps what we are is the people who find the truth in each other’s soul and until the last star in the universe vanishes from the sky I’ll keep loving you

I always knew you’d destroy me but damn I loved you anyway.

I talk to myself when I miss you. I can’t tell if I’m insane or just a writer.