Allayed Cosplay

“All the things she said,

all the things she said

Running through my head,

running through my head,

This is not enough.”

-t.A.T.u

Ilya Rozanov cosplay test, rule 63 🏒

[🚬Fake cigarette🚬]

Went to a super fun HR event last night! I painted the Raiders logo because I don’t have a cricut 🙃 (please clap).

“Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better?

But because I knew you,

I have been changed for good.”

-Elphaba and Glinda, ‘Wicked: For Good’

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Team Jonathan?

Team Steve?

🙌 TEAM NANCY 🙌

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Is it December 25th yet??

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“I can be that witch again.”

-Agatha Harkness

When I did this shoot last year, I was mentally preparing myself for my autism diagnosis test that would take place the same week.

I got the official diagnosis a little later that I have Level 1 Autism Spectrum Disorder and Attention Attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder (AuDHD).

This wasn’t the biggest surprise—there were clues that had been adding up for a few years that I was probably autistic—but still, getting a professional diagnosis was a huge relief. It was like stepping back from being too close to a huge painting and seeing that things finally made sense when I had a proper viewpoint.

I chose my Helaena Targaryen cosplay for this post because she’s autistic-coded, and I immediately felt a strong kinship with her character when I watched the show.

Long before my diagnosis, cosplay and conventions have been a place where I’ve felt accepted and supported by my peers—fellow nerds, that is, whether they be neurodivergent or neurotypical. Even when I go solo to a con, like RICC most recently, it feels like I’m home. This is partly due, I think, because of all of the wonderful, weird, and unexpected encounters and collaborations that can come from interacting with other fans and cosplayers.

Unfortunately, I have resting serious face, so if you ever see me at a con and I look very serious/sad/mad, I’m actually having the time of my life 99% of the time. The other 1% is when I’m under caffeinated and plotting my route to the nearest Dunks. I also rarely wear my glasses at cons, so if you see me frowning, I promise I’m just squinting and trying to make sure I’m not waving at the wrong Superman.

I’m very fortunate to have fantastic family and friends that have supported me the whole way. I wish all neurodivergent people could have that kind of support; I know not all do.

Anyway, nothing has really changed day-to-day, and I didn’t create this to try and garner any sympathy—just wanted to say hi to any other neurodivergent cosplayers out there!

Writing can be scary…some might say, it can even be downright h a u n t i n g.

Had a lot of fun figuring out a “ghostwriter” costume for Halloween! 👻✍️Ghostwriting has been a part of what I’ve done irl in the past for work, so it was fun to combine that with my costume idea. When I’m ghostwriting in real life I look more like Adam Sandler than a Victorian governess haunting the moors. 😅

“Would look just like you,

With a temper like you,

run around like you,

Jumpin’ in the pool like you

Sing to all her pets in the way I did

Be sensitive like you.”

-Sienna, The Marías

“So, what’s the verdict?”

“I am an 🍂autumn.🍂”

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🎵”I broke into a million pieces, and I can’t go back

But now I’m seeing all the beauty in the broken glass

The scars are part of me, darkness and harmony

My voice without the lies, this is what it sounds like!” 🎵

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Cosplayer challenge: Buy the merch or make it for half the price. 🫠

I went Saturday to FanExpo Boston and wore Gambit for the first time to a con! It was a lot of fun, but my feet are so done with me. XD

(Sorry about the shoes in the first photo, I had to break out my comfy shoes at the very end of the con and forgot to get a photo of my cosplay before I left for the con. 🫠)

Galadriel Lindon gown: @theshatteredsilhouette