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I’m starting to think I’m never going to be good enough. For anyone or anything. I’m not good enough for my friends, i need to be better and i need to never get angry. I’m not good enough at home, I’m a a bad role model. I’m not good enough at work, i need to be more efficient or they’ll fire me. I’m not good enough for school, I need higher grades. I’m not good enough with people, i need to be more open and social. I always need to be more this and more that, and I’m so tired of it. I’m trying all the time and just when i think I’m doing better, someone comes in and tells me I’m not. And then i get thrown back to the start. Not good enough never going to be.

You lost her. And now she lights up the night-time sky for her new lover cause he recognized her as the moon. And you envy him. She could’ve been your moon, but you were too busy chasing the dimly lit stars.

I miss you, but not in the way that I need you or that I won’t be able to go on without you. There are so many attachments when telling someone that you miss them. There are so many different meaning to that phrase, or to that confession. So many different ways to how a person can perceive those words. I want to tell you that I miss you but I don’t want it to seem as if I am hopeless without you. Sometimes I wander off to places that remind me of you. I can see you standing beside me admiring the scenery in which we lost ourselves in. I can see us creating memories with the wind, with the sunset, with the feel of day turning into night. Don’t think that I am not myself without you, or that I need you here at every moment to remember that it’s going to be okay. Just know that I miss you, and if I could I would take your voice over the silence any day.