AliOnTheCouch

Maybe I can bring all side of me here?

Misfit

God fearing

Kinkster

Swiftly

Writer

Singer

I have two kids that I raised on my own for basically the first few years of their lives. Then their dad was around more and we raised them together.

Then we added a mom to their lives so the love could be richer for them.

The adults had issues and I ended up leaving the household.

They moved the kids away from me to where I can’t afford to be with them.

And now they don’t see me as their mom anymore.

So what do I do with these emotions?

I wasn’t the best mom. I did what I could and I never hurt them. I was depressed for most of their lives because of what their dad put me through. Of course, they don’t know what he did to me. They don’t need to. He is good to them and that’s what they need to know.

But what do I do with my emotions on days like today?

I made the choices I did so they could have their best life but they think I abandoned them.

I’m a mom. But at the same time, I’m not.

I had a family - now I don’t.