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tattoo commission i did for softdo3 on instagram “a honeybee with a sprig of lavender and baby’s breath”

dry shampoo and face wipes are your friend. if you can brush your teeth you’ll feel maybe 2% less disgusting. wash your hands.

smelling nice is gr9, rubbing moisturiser in is Exhausting. perfume, scented candles and linen sprays are way quicker.

try to change your clothes at least every other day. wear sweats or pjs as often as you physically can.

you don’t need to put on underwear if you’re not leaving the house (that goes double for bras and binders)

drink any water that hasn’t been sitting out on your desk for a week. dust doesn’t taste good. stay hydrated. I fill one of those 2 litre bottles in the morning and keep it with me so I don’t have to get up and walk to the sink.

re: cleaning, try and keep one room vaguely clean. if everywhere else is a shit hole that’s fine, but you can go sit in your one tidy space and chill for a bit. it’s fine if that’s the bathroom or just the corner of your bedroom where there’s no crap on the floor. find a tiny space that isn’t horrifying and sit in it.

music helps.

eat a thing. +5 points if it has a fresh fruit or vegetable in it. take out is acceptable if it comes with veggies.

if your creativity curled up and died a long time ago try and find something that at least reminds you what it was like to feel inspired. watch a film, look at some art (probably not your own), read a thing. if that makes you feel worse, just?? don’t think about it??

grounding yourself is actually really helpful. open the window and breathe for 2 minutes. lay down on the floor and feel your whole body (unless you don’t want to in which case: lay down and don’t feel anything except the floor) 

human interaction is Good. text a family member you don’t hate if you have one. message a friend. reply to someone’s personal post with ‘SAME’. make your own personal post asking the void for validation. stare out the window at people and remind yourself that life exists outside of the black space inside your head. whatever works.

These are the victims of the MSD school shooting. Take a few minutes out of your day to read about them. They deserve to be remembered. 

Alyssa Alhadeff: 

Alyssa was 15 years old.

She played soccer and was on the track team.

Alyssa was said to have been introverted and very close to her family and friends.

She was a straight A student.

Alyssa attended a jewish sleep away camp during the summer.

Scott Beigel: 

Scott was a geography teacher at the school.

He is pictured above with the cross country team he coached.

He was killed after unlocking the door to let students into his classroom to hide from the shooter. 

Scott was also a counsellor at a summer camp in Pennsylvania.

Jaime Guttenberg:

Jaime was 17 years old.

She loved dancing and was in a local competitive dance program.

She was described as being kind-hearted and having a contagious smile.

Her facebook page has been memorialized as tributes pour out.

Martin Duque: 

Martin was a 14 year old freshman.

His brother described him as very funny, outgoing, caring and very sweet.

His family is devastated at the loss of Martin, he was very loved.

A gofundme page was set up by his brother, to help cover the funeral costs. The link is: https://www.gofundme.com/32z7etk

Nicholas Dworet:

Nicholas was 17 years old.

He was given a swimming scholarship to the University of Indianapolis.

He also played for the school water polo team.

Nick aspired to be in the 2020 olympics.

He was described as being very charismatic and a very likeable guy.

Aaron Feis:

Aaron was a football coach at the school.

Aaron was shot and killed, shielding students from bullets.

He was also reported to have been a security guard.

He was loved by students at the school.

Chris Hixon:

Chris was the school’s athletics director.

He was described as the kind of person who would do anything for anyone.

He had a son with special needs who followed him everywhere.

Luke Hoyer:

Luke was 15 years old.

He loved playing basketball.

He is described as being very laid back, never causing any trouble.

His family is devastated, saying that “it doesn’t feel real”.

He was very happy-go-lucky. Never getting upset.

Cara Loughran: 

Cara was 14 years old.

She was a great student.

She loved the beach.

Her family says that her death is “too horrible to be processed”.

Gina Montalto:

Gina was 14 years old. 

She was a member of her school’s marching band.

Her mother described her as being smart, caring, and brightening any room she entered. 

Joaquin Oliver:

Joaquin was 17 years old.

He was born in Venezuela, officially becoming an American citizen on January 17th.  

He was described as being extroverted and always trying to make new friends.

Alex Schachter:

Alex was 14 years old. 

He was a member of his school’s marching band. 

He was described as being a great kid, full of love and life. 

Carmen Schentrup:

Carmen was 16 years old.

She was a national merit scholar semifinalist. 

A family member described her as being the smartest 16 year old they had ever met. 

Alaina Petty:

Alaina was 14 years old.

She was part of her school’s JROTC program.

She devoted countless hours to volunteering.

Alaina was described as vibrant, determined, and loved by all.

Meadow Pollack:

Meadow was 18 years old.

She planned to attend Lynn University next year.

It makes me so fucking angry that our government is so money greedy and heartless that making the world safer and saving goddamn children doesn’t mean as much as the money they get from the NRA.