It’s just not fair, the way he can bend you with your tender flesh is in his diabolical hands. Your desire for him remains a steady constant–but maybe your goals have changed.

As you look at yourself in the mirror of your new rosewood vanity, you make a new promise to yourself (for what that's worth, considering how you have gone from wanting to escape to accepting your role as Donaka’s new pet) that even if you are flung into this new lifestyle of stupidly overpriced luxury, you will not let the things rule you. You will not become like your mother or your step-mother or your half-siblings, caught up in the next paltry triumph of who outdressed who or who has the latest and greatest designer bullshit.

Perhaps with some cheek, you resolve that you are going to have your cake, and eat it too. If it makes Donaka happy to show off his wealth on the canvas of your body…fine. Let him. Because when that man is pleased with you, you get your way in other things that are important, like cancer treatment for little girls who are dear to you.

Mei showed you a video of her sister that morning, smiling happily and waving at the phone. The doctors say the treatment is going as well as it possibly could, and there is hope for her. You hadn’t forgotten about little Jing, but seeing her certainly put things back in perspective for you after you spent the night feeling sorry for yourself.

You have to admit, not all of your goals are so altruistic. There is an idea that exists on the outskirts of your mind; almost more of an outline of a thought than something concrete, it is so ridiculous. But deep down, in the darkest dungeon of your heart, this thing has taken root and you have decided that someday, you are going to get that impossible man to admit that he loves you. Maybe then…all this will have been worth it. It is probably the closest thing to revenge you could ever manage to extract from him.

You really have lost your goddamn mind.

Later that afternoon you get to meet the stylist you didn’t even know you had. Apparently after some direction from Donaka on your preferences, she'd picked out all those beautiful items in your closet, and Ava Chan has come to the house armed with a rack of dresses and two assistants to whip you into shape for wherever the hell Donaka is taking you.

Mei sees them in, and you think you can see the curiosity shining in her eyes. “Can you stay?” you ask, not sure if this would be fun or boring for her.

Eagerly she nods, but then remembers Mrs. Yeung. “I'll get into trouble…”

She’s not wrong, and you think on it a moment. “Not if…you go to the kitchen for tea and snacks for our guests,” you say with a lift of eyebrows. “I’ll let her know.”

Mei hides a laugh behind her hand, knowing Mrs. Yeung will seethe over this new scheme for undermining her authority. You call the internal line to reach the chief housekeeper, a thing that usually only Donaka would do. Knowing full well the master is not at home, Yeung answers with a surly, “Wai?”

“Mrs. Yeung, I'm having Mei serve tea, and I will need her for the rest of the afternoon.”

Yeung answers with a few Cantonese curses she knows you won't understand under her breath. “What on earth could you need that useless girl for? No. She must finish mopping all the floors today.”

“We’ll do it tomorrow, Mrs. Yeung. Do jie!”

You hang up the phone before your former boss can offer further argument, though you hear the tinny strains of more wrathful words on the other end of the line. Mei’s eyes sparkle, and the two of you laugh like co-conspirators. “I think she just called me like…10 bad names,” you admit, giggling like a naughty child who just got away with all the cookies.

After Mei skips out to see about that tea Ava Chan shakes her head with amused disbelief. “Did I just witness a palace coup?”

“Totally bloodless,” you assure her with a cheeky smile.

At least…you hope so.

“So…what are we doing?” you ask, nervous and excited for what she has in store.

Ava claps her hands, rubbing them with glee. “Let me show you what I’ve brought.”

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When you attempt to ferret out the location of your mystery destination in casual conversation Ava shakes her head emphatically. “I was specifically instructed not to tell you,” she imparts with regret, and you can’t help but wonder how exactly Donaka delivered this direction; you can practically hear the poor girl gulp with dread at the idea of slipping up.

“That’s fine,” you soothe her, backing off immediately. “I’m not trying to get anyone into trouble.”

She’s clearly relieved to hear this; perhaps her other well-heeled clients would have thrown more of a tantrum over not getting their way.

None of them have ever met the force that is Donaka Mark.

After this everyone relaxes a bit more around you, and the tension in the room shifts to something decidedly more congenial. Mei arrives with tea and sundries, and the fun begins.

While you try on dresses Mei eats most of the snacks, and Donaka’s severe bedchamber takes on the atmosphere of a middle-school sleepover withchatter while you try on your new clothes. The room erupts into laughter as your new girl gang attempts to teach you bad words in Cantonese (so that you’ll be better prepared for your next showdown with Mrs. Yeung, of course.)

Ava brought selections from Versace, Oscar de la Renta, Gucci, Giambattista Valli, and other brands you’ve never heard of. They’re expertly crafted garments in blacks and shimmering steel gray silks and satins, with bead details and damask weaving and metallic lace...how are you supposed to choose?

Yet there’s also a part of you that can’t help but wonder if this is another test set before you by Donaka. You are sure that even among these gorgeous garments, there is surely a wrong answer among them for that man.

Despite the more showy pieces that tickle your crow brain, you keep coming back to a simple black silk midi by Dolce & Gabbana with lace trim. It’s fairly tame by high-fashion standards, all except for a rather daring slit up the thigh. You keep thinking about those fabulous pearls that will be fastened around your neck. They’re the real show. Everything else is just background, including you, you’re afraid. You finally decide on that one, and then it’s on to hair and makeup.

Maybe you are happiest when you are wearing dust from the road and your trusty hiking boots…but as you look at the end result of Ava’s directions in the mirror, you have to admit that this is something…interesting too. You hardly recognize yourself, and despite your earlier reservations you’re infected with the energy of the moment from the excitement of your helpers and Mei. By the time they leave, you hope you can call your new acquaintances friends.

By the end of the primping whirlwind, choosing a dress and trying on a pair of sky-high Louboutin sandals, you are all talking and laughing. Ava has you standing in front of the mirror for the final inspection, plucking at the dress to make it drape just so. You have to hand it to her: she is very good at what she does.

As Isabel is misting you with one last spritz of hair spray a voice from the doorway makes you all jump out of your skins: “I was hoping you’d pick that one.”

The girls immediately scramble to gather up their things at the sight of the master of the house; you’ve all been caught out having a very good time. You feel surprisingly calm, however, and the two of you lock gazes through the flurry of Ava and her assistants cleaning up the room.

The heat in that man’s eyes could warm you through a blizzard in Hokkaido.

He stands with hands in the pockets of his dark suit, a rock amidst rushing water, waiting through the flurry for the two of you to be alone. “Thank you, ladies,” Donaka offers with a menacing politeness as they file out with their heads bowed.

“Do jie nin, Mark sin saang,” says Ava quietly, the last one to go.

He really does have a way of making you feel as though he’s caught you at something…

Or maybe you’re in trouble.

After the door shuts with a soft snick he approaches you with a gimlet stare. “My assistant received an irate phone call from Mrs. Yeung this afternoon. Apparently my household is going to pieces, and she cannot possibly go on without hiring two new maids thanks to my meddling mistress stealing her employees.”

You still can’t tell if he’s truly angry or fucking with you.

“Meddling mistress, huh? I don’t think that’s quite what she called me over the phone.”

Standing toe to toe with you, he tilts your head up with a single finger beneath your chin, inspecting the end result of all Ava’s tricks. Finally, the corner of his mouth ticks in a smirk, and a knot in your heart releases in relief.

“Be careful with your new power, bunny. Use it wisely.”

It’s the closest he’s come to saying you’re in charge of the house while he’s gone.

“I was polite about it,” you assure him, struggling not to squirm under his heated gaze. Tonight you have to be cool as a cucumber–you’ll face no greater test than withstanding the scrutiny of the man before you.

“Thoughtful of you.” His smile widens, and the warmth in your heart blooms outward through your body like a sunrise. “You look beautiful, y/n.”

“Thank you.”

His hand descends to encircle your neck, holding your fragile flesh ever so lightly. No matter your expression, you know he can feel your racing pulse fluttering against his fingertips like a trapped butterfly. No matter how good his mood, there is a tiny part of you that wonders if someday he might squeeze, just to see what happens.

Maybe you are falling in love with this man…but you’re not sure if you will ever totally trust him.

“Shall we add the final touches?”

Why does it sound ominous, when he says it that way? Maybe you’re just overly sensitive to everything, these days. But you still nod, and watch him disappear into the closet to access the hidden safe.

TBC...

Like the gremlin you are, you can't help but savor their second thoughts about this whole mess, and you let them squirm about it. “Oh come on, you said it was your turn to pick,” you tease with no real malice. “It was my vote to drown him in the pool.”

“Yeah right,” answers your friend with a playful glare. “You were salivating for that man right along with us!”

“You’re the one who said he was fuckable!” you cackle, pointing. And boy howdy, was your friend right about that.

This admission makes Johnny frown a little. Jack is inscrutable as stone, and you do wonder if there's something to what Tex said about these men actually being in law enforcement.

“Just…be careful, ok?”

“Of course. Not my first rodeo, babes.”

“We know…”

“We just love you.”

“I love you too. I’ll be back later. Bye boys!”

Is Tex rubbing off on you, that you feel you have to taunt the [alleged] cops? You definitely don’t grasp the true gravity of your situation, fluttering along in vacation mode, convinced nothing truly bad can happen to you. You've committed to the bit, and you're determined to play it out now, even if you suspect it’s going to hurt your heart later. 

You slip out the door with a finger wave, skipping off to meet Tex downstairs. 

You just kind of assumed you were going to take a taxi to whatever destination Tex had in mind. But he is leaning against a black vintage muscle car with his arms crossed, the outlaw of your dreams dressed all in black. He lets out a wolf whistle as you approach, appraising the cut of your flowy tropical dress over the top of his dark shades. 

“Oh my god,” you say under your breath, and he smirks like he heard you. “Tex, where did you get this?” 

“I borrowed it.” 

You steady yourself with palms on his solid chest as you lean in for a kiss, and his hands sneak around your waist with an approving rumble. “You didn’t steal this car, did you?” you whisper, voice low so no one can hear. 

The idea of it makes him chuckle darkly, hands following the curve of your spine, perilously close to your ass as he pulls you full against him. Uff, this man is built solid as a tree. You’re almost too distracted to register his simple denial of, “No.” 

Not sure you really believe him, you search his face. You can hear the doormen behind you talking and whistling low amongst themselves, you’re pretty sure about the car.  He lets you stew in your uncertainty, clearly amused as he looks down at you. Finally you say, “I believe you, only because if you did steal it you’re so vain you’d brag about it.” 

This wins you a bark of laughter and a smack on the derriere. “Get in your ass in this car, pretty mama. I’m taking you for a ride.”

You have no idea how prophetic this seemingly innocuous declaration will prove. 

Maybe it’s stupid, how quickly you unwind, all your knee-jerk fears of earlier forgotten, while roaring down the seaside highway in this beast of a car with the windows down, holding Tex’s hand between shifting the gears. 

In a change of pace the two of you don’t talk [fight] much, blissfully content to watch the palm trees race by with the warm breeze on your faces, the glittering waters beyond gilded in rose gold by the setting sun. 

This place truly is a paradise.   

“Having fun?” he asks while kissing your hand with a smoldering look, his rough twang underscored with the barest note of earnestness that squeezes your heart. You haven’t known this man long at all, but you’re beginning to learn the subtle cues he keeps hidden beneath the boisterous good ol’ boy facade he wears for the world. 

He’s got a soft spot under all that armor; maybe it’s how he so adroitly recognized the same tender underbelly on you. The thought makes you squeeze his fingers in yours; every minute that goes by in this man’s company makes you dread more and more the moment when you’ll have to let go.

You do know it won’t last. Even if you stay, it never lasts, and the ache of this only intensifies the thrill, like scratching an itch with a razor-sharp blade. 

 “Yes.” 

This wins you a roguish smile that quickens your heart like the ridiculous creature you are. 

“Hard to keep my eyes on the road,” he admits, shifting to rest his hand in the soft crevice of your inner thigh. 

“Tex!” you giggle, and he chuckles in kind, pinching you lightly to make you squirm in your seat. 

“You are the worst,” you sigh wistfully, squeezing his hand between your legs. 

You think you’ll remember the sound of his happy laughter for the rest of your life, and you know that no matter what happens…you will be forever changed by this man, and the wild bliss he’s called up from the razed earth of your heart these past few days 

His shapely mouth curls in a half-smile for this, and he at least pretends to pay attention to the road while his thumb draws maddening circles upon your thigh.

Your trip ends outside the touristy parts of town, where the buildings are smaller and older and a little rundown. You like it immediately, and when he parks in front of a brightly painted little place on the beach constructed out of cinder blocks and old wood, the patio seemingly held together by twining bougainvillea, baling wire, and palm fronds, you believe that you are indeed in for a genuine taste of this beautiful country.

The patio wraps around the back with a breathtaking view of the beach, and the waitress gives you a little table with a front row view by the railing. “You like?” asks Tex with a half smile, clearly enjoying your wide-eyed wonder. 

“Very much,” you tell him, taking his hand. He tangles you up in his long legs under the table, and the two of you stay that way for the duration of the meal. Over margaritas, tequila shots, cochinita pibil and moharra frita you feel something shift in Tex as you’re talking. Some small barrier has fallen between you, and you feel like he’s not completely bullshitting you with every word he says. Maybe you’re not as guarded as you usually are either, when he asks you about your family and your life and the places you’ve been. It’s...nice, and it makes the sting of certain impermanence hurt all the more. 

A varied crowd of people fills the seaside restaurant. There are some tourists, but mostly it’s locals filling the chairs and the stools along the long bar that wraps around the back of the building. “How did you hear about this place?” you ask Tex, chasing the last bit of fruity goodness in the bottom of your margarita glass with a straw. 

“Got a rec from one of my…business associates,” he tells you. This makes some sense to you, as the night goes on and you don’t think you’re imagining that some of the clientele seem to have a certain edge to them. And a few at the bar seem to be paying a particular attention to you, or Tex, or at least the general direction of your table. Despite the uneasy feeling in the pit of your stomach, you tell yourself you’re just being paranoid, and when the waitress swings by you don’t object to Tex ordering another round of margaritas. 

“Gotta hit the head,” he tells you, leaning over to kiss your cheek before ambling around the building towards [you assume] the location of the facilities. You pass the alone time by looking out over the ocean. The sun has set by now, but the moon has risen, and you can see the glitter of the ever-moving water along with the distant sound of the surf. The patio is lit up by strings of festive fairy lights, you’ve got a great buzz from the tequila and a belly full of good food, and for a fleeting moment you are perfectly content. 

Then a shadow falls over your table, and you look up to see two of those tough looking men from the bar have come to loom over you.      

“Where’s your novio?” one with a scar over his eye demands, his voice like tires driving over broken glass. 

“He…went to the bathroom,” you stammer, your Spanish evaporating in the face of this tense situation. 

The two heavies look at each other knowingly, one hissing with disbelief through his teeth, the other reaching out to grasp you by the back of the neck. “Hey!” you protest, but quickly shut your mouth as the other flashes a chrome-plated handgun stuck in his waistband under his shirt. 

“You wanna see him again? Shut up, puta.”

Deep down, you know you should resist. You should make a big fucking scene, scream and shout and tip over tables. Make yourself memorable, at least, in case someone with a connection to your embassy might be watching. You should not go quietly, sandwiched between these scary men with eyes as sharp as the volcanic stone their ancestors once used to carve out the hearts of their enemies. 

But something freezes inside of you. Something gets stuck between fight or flight, and you just watch, hoping deep down that Tex will come to your rescue at the last minute. 

You walk out the restaurant, and across the car park, and you don’t see or hear a peep out of him as Big Tough #1 shoves you into the back seat of a Mercedes G-Wagon, and sits beside you with the gun pressed into your ribs. 

Tex, you son of a bitch.  

 🌴🌴🌴

Deafening gunfire echoes through the cavernous warehouse, and you struggle in your chair, desperate to get free. One of the henchmen takes a bullet to the chest, collapsing at your feet. Something wet and hot splashes the side of your face, and you can’t bring yourself to admit what you know: it’s totally blood.

Puke or cry, puke or cry? The dilemmas facing a modern woman these days… 

Drawing a gold-plated Desert Eagle from his waistband while reciting a string of rapid-fire expletives, the leader of the trio takes cover behind you, pressing the barrel of the gun to your temple. 

“Your stupid boyfriend has become a real pain in my ass,” hisses the Jefe in your ear, poking you viciously with the gun for good measure. 

“Welcome to the fucking club,” you snarl back, as pissed at him as you are at Tex. Fucking men. 

“Don Juan!” bellows a voice from behind a crate. 

Why does your stupid heart still sing at the sound of that shifty motherfucker’s voice? You should hate Tex’s guts, but there is still a small part of you that hopes against hope he didn’t abandon you at the restaurant, and there is still some sliver of hope that he actually cares about you…enough to get you out of this mess, at least.

“You lousy cheating hijo de puta! Did you really think you could sell me fakes and get away with it?” your captor answers, poking you with the barrel of the gun with each word. Goddamn, dude, ease up. 

“Well…” 

“Wrong answer, cabrón!”

“Ow!!” you scream as Juan wrenches your head back with a grip in your hair. 

“Hey now, easy on the goods, partner!” 

“You want her back alive? You better get me my money back with interest, for a start.” 

“Uhhh…”

“TEX!” you snarl, so fucking fed-up with his shit. You can’t help but think back on that amazing night you spent together, interrupted by his midnight sojourn, and him returning in that sharp suit. You don’t know what kind of grift he pulled on this guy, but you are so fucking pissed that you’re in the middle of it now. “GIVE HIM his FUCKING MONEY BACK!” 

Juan laughs softly behind you. “Your lady is smarter than you, señor. I’d take her advice.” 

“Yeah. About that…I–” 

The roar of an engine and the explosion of a car crashing through the side of the warehouse interrupts Tex mid-sentence. Chaos rains down and gunfire fills the air as more of Juan’s goons fire at the vintage muscle car drifting through the stacks of crates and shipping containers. Somehow–while steering and shifting–the driver picks them all off one by one. The shock of the spectacle might be what saves you all–Don Juan does not run from his cover of using your paltry form as a human shield. He watches in disbelief as the Mustang circles your chair in a burnout that positions the driver at the perfect angle to put a bullet between your captor’s eyes. 

Suddenly the warehouse is quiet as a cemetery at midnight–because everyone is dead. 

More blood has spattered onto your face–you do not care, unable to tear your eyes from the dark and terrible form that emerges from the driver’s side of the car. He is tall, clad in a beautifully tailored black suit, his crisp white shirt specked with blood, a matte 9mm clasped in his large hand at his side. You lose time as he turns to look at you with eyes like dark pits that hold all the sorrow of the world, falling into those fathomless orbs. 

You cannot look away. 

He looks like Tex…but not.

“You alright?” he grumbles, almost begrudgingly, as though speaking is something he’d rather not do and words are in limited supply for him. 

“I think so?” you squeak, though deep down your limbs have begun to shake and you don’t think you can stop. 

You gasp as he produces a knife from seemingly thin air, but relax as you realize he’s using it to cut your bonds. He crouches beside you, looking you over as though he didn’t believe you when you said you were fine. You’re not sure he likes what he sees, from the tired way he sighs. “You poor thing. Didn’t have a clue, did you?” 

You try not to cry as he pulls a white linen handkerchief from inside his smart jacket and wipes the blood off of your face. 

“Thanks.” 

“Whew!” Tex finally emerges from behind his cover of haphazard crates, his boot heels clicking on the concrete. “That was some driving, budd–” In the blink of an eye this newcomer has Tex up against the side of the Mustang in a choke hold, cutting off his air supply with his forearm on his neck. 

“You,” snarls your savior, none too happy to see his doppelganger.

“Hegh—John–C’mon–” Tex taps at the iron bar of an arm against his windpipe, but John only presses harder for a few seconds more. 

“You. Stole Viggo’s blue diamonds. And sold them to Juan fucking Aragón–while pretending to be me? You. Fucking. Asshole!”

“They were fake diamonds!” Tex protests.

“I don’t fucking care!”

“Aww, c’mon. What are brothers for?”

“You're not my brother.”

“I’m your twin!”

“You can’t talk your way out of this one. I have to bring you back.”

“I can’t go back.”

“You don’t get a choice.”

“John…c’mon.”

“Dead or alive. Your choice.”

You involuntarily make a pitiful little sound behind them. As though he forgot you were even there, this terrible killer turns his attention to you again. “Who's she?”

“Just some girl. Don't hurt her.”

Gee, thanks.

“I’m not going to hurt her.” He fixes narrowed eyes on Tex. “But you're not getting out of this.”

Tex looks past his brother to you with forlorn puppy eyes, and fuck if you don’t melt a little, like the fucking idiot you are. “Can I at least say goodbye?”

“Fine,” John growls. “But make it quick.” He releases his brother, and Tex makes a show of brushing himself off, looking at John with a raised eyebrow.

All it earns him is a snarl before the assassin turns his back on both of you.

Tex sidles your way with that come-hither smirk curling his oh-so-kissable lips. This manchild thinks all this was funny. 

He doesn’t even see it coming when you wind up and slap him across the face. “Ouch! Easy darlin’!”

You can’t stop yourself from shoving your finger in his face, even if you have to stand on tiptoe to do it. “You asshole! You left me–”

With the speed of a pouncing leopard this man snatches you up in his arms–and slants his mouth over yours. You struggle for about 2.5 seconds before you hate to admit–you give in to it, all your good sense going up in smoke with those clever lips and that devilish tongue lighting up your world one more time. He kisses you like he means to devour you from the mouth down, like he would like to permanently imprint the taste of you on his tongue. He is definitely holding you up by the time he’s done with you, and you forget how to speak when he draws back to look down into your eyes. 

“I didn’t leave you, honey. I just…had to time it right, or I knew I wasn’t going to get you back.”

You can't help but think it was his brother who saved all your bacon. Yet when this menace of a man sweeps your hair behind your ear, you can’t stop yourself from leaning into him.

“Sorry I got you mixed up in all this.” 

You whimper out of frustration, knowing you shouldn’t believe him, but wanting to. Your attempt to pound on his chest with your fist is thwarted by his arms locked tight around you. 

“Tex…is he going to hurt you?” you can’t help but ask, looking at his lethal twin who is clearly losing his patience, leaning against his baddass car. 

“Nah. We’ll work it out. Always do.” Tex winks at you with that trickster’s sparkle in his eye, and you strangely sympathize with the mafia assassin having to deal with this wild man who somehow worms his way into your heart, despite all the trouble he causes. 

Tex chucks you under the chin when he sees it quivering with the urge to cry. “Here’s–” 

“If you say ‘Here’s looking at you, kid,’ I will knee you in the junk, Humpy Bogart.” 

He laughs at that, a full-on head-back guffaw. “Baby…I’m going to miss you.” 

“Yeah?” 

“Yeah. Sorry we’re wrapping early. I had some elaborate plans for your juicy little pu–”

“Tex!” you giggle, squirming as he nuzzles your neck with a wicked chuckle, his big hand grabbing your ass low, his long fingers brushing your center. He captures your lips again in a long wet kiss that curls your toes in your shoes and your fingers in his shirt. 

“Time’s up, Romeo,” growls the other brother in black, and Tex sighs. There are sirens in the distance, but getting closer. Lots of them. 

“Gotta go, darlin’.” 

“Wait…how am I getting back?” 

“Eh. They’ll give you a ride.” 

“Who are they? Hey, wait!” 

But Tex veritably lopes on those long legs, hopping in the passenger side of the Mustang in three strides. The assassin named John doesn’t even look at you before getting behind the wheel and starting the car with a roar. As the warehouse is filled with the wails of the police sirens the outlaws are burning rubber in the opposite direction, making a new hole in the other side of the building. 

One of the official cars tries to follow them, but you doubt it will get far. That man can drive. 

You are practically blinded by the flashing lights all around you, huddling in your little dress with your arms crossed, praying they don’t mistake you for a bandida and shoot you. There’s a lot of yelling of “¡Manos arriba!” and pointed guns. 

Shit, it’s all old hat to you now. 

You do as you’re told, lifting your hands above your head. 

A team of Federales fan out into the warehouse, looking for targets. All they find are bodies. 

One of them cuffs you, and you stand there feeling sorry for yourself while they tear the warehouse apart looking for clues or evidence or the Easter Bunny. They bring out some drug-sniffing dogs who are very interested in the crates Tex was hiding behind. 

Great.

The thing that shocks you out of your heartbroken stupor is Jack and Johnny striding up in commando gear, looking ridiculously fine in their bullet proof vests, big guns holstered on their hips. “Where did Tex go?” they ask. 

“Fuck if I know. Are you DEA?” you ask back, more relieved than you would like to admit that they’re here and maybe sorta on your side. But then again…maybe not. 

“I’m Special Agent Utah, FBI,” Johnny answers, flashing a badge. 

“Detective Traven, LAPD,” Jack echoes, unclipping the badge on his belt for you to see. “We’re gonna have to ask you some questions.” 

“Yeah. I figured.” 

“Did you know he’s a hitman?” Jack asks in a deep, no-nonsense LEO voice, very different from the easy going guy who was canoodling with your friend just this afternoon.

“What?” John was obvious, but Tex? Ok, maybe you sensed something dangerous about him, but…?

“He’s a contract killer. We’ve been tracking him for years.” 

Bewildered, you shake your head, the last bit of wind blown out of your sails this night. 

“No. He just…sold some bogus diamonds to this cartel guy, apparently.” 

“Any idea where he stashed the money?” 

You snort. “Nope.” 

“You’re not lying to us, I hope.” 

You just sigh, suddenly so very tired. “No.” 

“You’re in a tricky situation here, ma’am,” says Johnny, like he wasn’t joking with you by your first name with your friends in the pool just this morning. “Juan Aragón was the head of the serpent, but some of his underlings might still want revenge. You’ll be wanting to fly home tonight–but we can only make that happen if you're telling us everything you know.”

“I am!” Oh god. “What about my friends?” 

“We’ve already got them at the airport with a detail,” Traven answers, and you sigh with relief. 

So much for a carefree vacation…

Boy, do you know how to pick them. 

Or maybe, you think, this time…he picked you. 

And deep down…in the deepest dungeon of your heart…in a place you’ll never reveal to anyone else…it’s possible…you’re glad he did.  

🌺🌺🌺

A year goes by in a fog for you. You swing between hating yourself for being such a fucking idiot to missing that dark-eyed bandit with every cell of your stupid little being. 

The FBI and LAPD question you a few more times, but eventually they’re satisfied that you really were just a random vacation hookup, and had no true connections to Tex Johnson’s criminal activities.

This truce might have been helped along by the fact that your friends are still dating Agent Utah and Officer Traven. Who honey-potted who?

You’re so happy for them. Jack will surely be popping the question any time now, and Johnny is just as smitten. Not all vacation flings have to end in total disaster…

But sometimes, late at night when you’re alone in bed and consumed by the fever of a nebulous wet dream–you wish you'd jumped in that Mustang while waving your middle finger goodbye to your stable, boring life.

You try dating. 

It’s a joke.

No one gives you that bone-deep thrill like one wink from that outlaw cowboy could. No one else can match your wit or your temper; they just run for the hills like the cowards they are.

No one else calls up that red-hot desire that threatens to burn you alive from the inside out. 

Maybe you are a hot fucking mess, but as time goes on you start to fear more and more that Tex really was your perfect pairing, like gasoline and a careless match.

It doesn’t matter.

You know you’ll never see him again. 

The knowledge of this sinks into your bones, heavy as lead. You accept it, even if you don't know how to get past the dark cloud that constantly hovers over you. 

After a very long day you sit down on your couch with a glass of wine to go through your mail. It’s mostly bills, offers for credit cards you don’t want, and some magazines. You almost miss a bright little postcard of the Golden Buddha of Wat Khao Rang, a temple in Phuket, Thailand, tucked into an ad circular by the postman. 

Your heart leaps into your throat while racing a mile a minute. Your hand starts shaking as you get up the courage to flip that piece of cardstock in your fingers. 

Somehow…you just know, and you're not sure if it's a good thing or not. 

Finally you turn it over, finding a short message in a barely legible left-handed scrawl:

Do you still think about me?

◻️Yes  ◻️No

A ridiculous smile spreads over your cheeks, and you collapse back into your pillows, holding the card over your heart that’s suddenly turned into a butterfly house. 

Later that evening, you find yourself browsing flights to Bangkok on your laptop.

If insanity is doing the same thing repeatedly while hoping for different results…

Fuck it. 

☁✈

The END…

…or is it?👀🤭

You apply yourself to your lessons, not just because Donaka has paid a lot of money for this man to basically commute to Hong Kong four days of the week from Beijing, but because you know there's nothing more maddening than a student who doesn't pay attention when you're teaching something you're passionate about.

You like Tiger too. 

He is kind, and patient, and he shyly admits to you that one day he hopes to go to America to be in movies. So after your sessions over tea, you make a point to help him improve his English. You feel like it’s the only thing you can really offer him. 

Slowly, it all starts to click, and you find yourself carrying the forms even into your everyday movements, the way you move around the room, the way you reach for things on a shelf…

The philosophy is harder.

You’ve barely seen Donaka since you started your lessons with Tiger, and you have no idea where he’s been. He leaves early in the morning and doesn’t come home until late, if at all. You cannot shake the thought that maybe Donaka sought to manipulate you somehow with instilling this go with the flow mindset. 

Did he think it would make you more complacent? Did he think it would make you forget that you haven’t been allowed off the grounds since he took you out in the Bugatti? It’s begun to feel like a lifetime ago, and no matter how much you meditate in your new little space in the library with your books and your orchids…the captivity mixed with loneliness grinds in you. 

It occurs to you that perhaps you’re his dirty little secret and he doesn’t want to be seen in public with you. You’re not his wife by any means. Are you even his girlfriend? Eventually the horrifying thought occurs to you that maybe you’re not even the only woman in his life. 

On a rare occasion when he’s actually home in the evening you invite yourself into his viewing room, sitting beside him on the black leather couch. “Hi.” 

He sort of growls in answer, his eyes still glued to the screen, but he lifts an arm for you to snuggle into him. You take that as some sort of sign. 

But the silence between you stretches on, and in the end you’re the first to break. 

“Can we yum cha again soon? I’ve really missed you.” 

“Sweetheart, you realize I work during the week?” he says to you in what you think is the most patronizing tone he can muster. 

So much for delegation.

“What about this weekend then? Can we go somewhere?” You admit you’ve thought more than once about that motorcycle in the garage with all the supercars. “Oooo, what about the Big Buddha? Or the Dragon’s Back? Or Wong Tai Sin Temple? Or…” You find yourself excitedly rattling off things from your bucket list, only for it to shrivel upon your tongue from the withering look he pays you. 

“Do I look like a tour guide to you?”    

This is when you realize you gravely misjudged his mood this evening. 

Or maybe, this whole situation as a whole? You’d thought things were getting better, and you realize you’d begun to feel safe around him, thanks to his little presents and his gestures that seemed meant to cater to your happiness. But the truth, you stupid girl, is you’re still just a prisoner, and you may as well be like one of the antique vases or Elder statues he likes so much to collect–pretty to look at, but with much less value. 

Did you actually think you mean something to him? 

You hate how much this hurts, even if you should have been preparing yourself for it all along. You feel the sting of tears forming in your eyes and the aching roots of your teeth. 

Fine. You guess you’ve finally got your answer.   

You shift on the couch to get up, needing to be anywhere but in the same room as him to nurse your heartbreak. 

“Where do you think you’re going?” He reaches for you, and you do something very stupid. In your defense, it was also just reflex, something very basic Tiger taught you, which is actually on Donaka, right? And you're sure it never would have worked, had he been even slightly expecting it. You deflect the force of his reaching hand with a turn of your wrist, moving just out of reach of his long arms with one smooth step. 

Yet you freeze when you realize what you’ve done, and to whom. 

The sharp flash of challenge in his eyes could cut you to ribbons, and you brace yourself. Your every instinct urges you to run, but this time you know this is serious, and if you do…there’s no telling what he might do. 

“Look who’s been paying attention to her lessons,” he snarls, standing to tower over you. “My money well spent.” 

He’s been watching you train with Tiger, of course, on his laptop at work when he needed to be doing other things. You’re a good student, and the two of you get along, and deep down Donaka knows he’s a little jealous for the easy way you smile for your teacher. 

And he certainly never fathomed you might dare use your new knowledge of tai chi on him. 

Even if you tremble, you close your eyes and stand your ground, waiting. You feel his long fingers close around your throat, not squeezing, but just resting there with all the promise of what those huge hands could do to you. 

Once upon a time you might have begged him to let you go. 

Now you realize it’s worse than that. You want him to pay attention to you any way you can get now, and if not on something resembling your own terms, you'll settle for the battlefield. When did you turn so suicidal?

His next question is deceptively soft, his thumb sliding over your fluttering pulse. “Have I been neglecting you, bunny?” 

A question loaded with fifteen in the clip and one in the chamber. But what the hell? If he tries to kill you at least it will be something to do. 

“Yes.” 

You do not expect his delighted laughter; as ever, this man keeps you off balance, and you don’t think any amount of lessons in tai chi or anything else will ever truly prepare you. 

“Alright. I’ll try to make it up to you.” There’s mockery in his tone, but you dare to open your eyes anyway. You’re surprised to see he’s watching you like you’ve done something interesting; something he didn’t expect either. Maybe it gives you just enough courage to open your mouth again. 

“Am I so demanding?” 

He snorts in answer to this, bending down to slant his mouth over yours. His fingers slide from your throat to the base of your hair, pulling just this side of too hard as he bends you over with his ardor, his teeth nipping at your lower lip. 

You have no idea, of course, but he’s been in a mood because he’s been auditioning fighters for his next big offshore expo, and no one has truly caught his interest. No one has felt right, and he’s afraid that something that once brought him such fierce joy has become boring to him. 

It alarmed him, looking back, how quickly he'd confessed his favorite thing to do as of late is you. You’re changing him, and he sees it now. He thought it would be best to return to his nobler pursuit: the search for the perfect warrior. It has yet to truly recapture his passion the way it once did.

He wants something new, something exciting. 

Maybe it was right in front of him all along. 

🐉🐉🐉       

A few days later, Donaka let you know in no uncertain terms what he expected that evening. When I come home I want you waiting naked on our bed. Understood?

He would choose that night to come home an hour late, and you are chilled to the bone by the time he walks through the door with an alarmingly smug smirk curling his lips, heartbreakingly handsome in one of his tailored dark suits. Charcoal sharkskin over jet black silk, and a silvery tie…it’s too flashy just for the office. Where did he go today?  

You’re not sure if you invent it, that you think his eyes seem to soften as he sweeps his gaze over you. 

“Aw. She can follow direction when it suits her.” 

“I’m freezing,” you grouse, still annoyed. A trill of excitement makes its way down your spine as you watch him loosen his tie as he approaches, standing at the foot of the bed before you. 

“Is this going on your eyes, or in your mouth, bunny?” 

You glare, but say no more. “That’s my good girl,” he purrs. “I’ve brought you a surprise.” 

You bite your lip, looking him up and down, thinking that maybe this tall dark dream of a man in this wicked mood is surprise enough. It’s been over a week since he last touched you, you’re pretty sure you’re ovulating, and you’re about ready to climb the walls. 

He chuckles darkly as he affixes his tie as a blindfold over your eyes, the silk sliding over your skin. His fingers are deceptively gentle as he affixes the knot behind your head, careful not to hurt you.  

“What? No smart remarks?” His fingertips trace the lines of your body possessively, the curve of your neck to the sweep of your collarbone, down to circle your taut nipple. You squirm and press your thighs, but keep your hands planted on the bedspread, the way you suspect he wants you to. 

Finally you answer with the truth: “I missed you.” His touch hitches upon you, even if only for a moment, before he strokes down your arm with the backs of his fingers. 

“I missed you too. Lie back.” 

You do as you’re told, and it’s interesting how you can sense his movement above you, even while deprived of sight. He rifles in his jacket pocket, and you hear something click clack clack. When something startlingly cool and smooth brushes over the skin of your belly you about levitate out of your skin. 

“What–” 

“Shhh.” 

The things pool and slide over your skin, heavy and cool, though quickly warming to your body. There are a lot of them, seemingly on a string. Multiple strings? Your back arches as they graze over your nipples, your loins clenching and pulsing with this exquisite torture. 

“Oh my god, Donaka…” you sigh. “Are those…pearls?” 

“Would you like that, y/n?” 

You whine in answer as he affixes a clasp behind your neck. 

“Hmm?” he teases, and you hear the smile in his words. 

“Maybe?” You try to sit up, but he prevents you with a finger on your breastbone. 

“Be still. This is a sight I want to remember.”

You’re too keyed up to catch the ominous undertones of that statement, practically vibrating in your state of arousal. If it’s real…you cannot fathom what that many strands must have cost. 

Who knew that your recent lessons in breath control would aid you in this situation? You lay there like a pearl-draped pin-up with your pulse thundering in your ears, and only once you’re certain he’s going to leave you there like that all night does he touch you, your skin quivering under his fingertips as he skims down the lengths of your thighs, then back up again, seemingly determined to drive you mad.

“Donaka…” you sigh. “Can I take this off?” 

Your hands lift towards your blindfold until you receive an unequivocal, “No.” 

Your growl of frustration wins you a villainous chuckle. “So impatient.” Suddenly his thumb dips between your legs, testing the readiness of your weeping hole. “And so wet.” You move your hips, desperate for friction on your needy clit, but he holds you at bay with his large hand over your mound. “Ah ah,” he scolds. 

“Donaka…” He’s reduced you to pitiful whining, and you’re sure he’s just eating it up. 

“So, my darling isn’t impressed with rare handbags, but she does like expensive jewels…” 

“That’s not fair.” 

“No?” He strums at your slit again with his thumb, and you tilt your hips desperately, needing his touch. “I’d say the proof is in the–” 

“If you say pussy I will scream.” 

This wins you hearty laughter that warms your soul, even if he sounds like a Bond villain. “C’mon, bunny. Let me have my fun.”

“I think you’re having all the fun,” you grouse, winning you a pinch on the inside of your thigh that makes you squeal.    

“So you don’t like them then?” he taunts you, referring to the bounty of the sea strung round your neck. 

You hate to say it but…you love them. They’re heavy and luxurious and you’ve never owned anything so fine. 

“Can I see?” you ask with a shyness that betrays your approval. 

“It’s not enough that I think you look beautiful?” he taunts you. 

“Are you…taking me somewhere I can wear them?” you dare ask. 

“There it is, my clever girl.” 

You're sure your relief is written plain as day for him to see, your body relaxing on top of the counterpane. “Where?”

“You’ll see.”

“When?”

“You’ll see.” He nips at your thigh, and even though it hurts you giggle with delight, the promise of some modicum of freedom in the future.

“Oh, now someone's happy.”

“Yes.”

“Well, that was worth an hour of my time at Harry Winston today.”

You know what that means, if only because your step mother used to lament that your father couldn’t afford to shop there for her.

“Oh my god. Donaka…you didn't have to do that.”

“This again. Just admit that you like them.” 

“They’re not the point.” 

“Yes they are,” he insists hotly. “Or at least, part of it.”  Suddenly he is manhandling you off the bed. You yip with surprise, though he doesn’t let you fall, holding you steady with a strong arm about your bare waist. His long body is firm and unyielding behind yours, his obvious hard-on pressing into your back; the smooth fabric of the suit against your bare skin is an interesting contrast. 

His voice rumbles low in your ear with warning as he tells you, “No more pretending you don’t enjoy luxury. You and I both know you’re no saint.” He tears off the blindfold, catching some of your hair with it, making you wince. The pain is forgotten, however, when you see he’s positioned you in front of the full length mirror. 

You almost don't recognize yourself like this, draped in lustrous black Tahitian pearls like a  goddess of the sea, the ominous shadow of your dark consort towering behind you. You stare for a long time in silence, not just at yourself, but the whole picture. Enough time goes by that eventually he gives a sardonic chuckle; you feel the mockery of it in your bones. “I knew there was a streak of vanity in you,” he says low in your ear, kissing your cheek.

Is he right? Are you just as pathetic and crass as your gold-digging mother or your social-climbing step mother?

You don't think so, because you are as fascinated by him as the pearls or yourself or this opulent house you live in with him. It’s everything that bewitches you–but he is the grand epicenter of it all. 

“Say thank you, bunny,” he prompts you, nipping at your jawline. “I’m feeling unappreciated.” 

After he left you alone for so long with no explanation, your annoyance flares in you like a flash in a pan. “Then maybe you should come home more often,” you fire back, winning a snarl of a smile. 

“As if you haven’t had plenty to keep you occupied, with your books and Mei and your new friend Tiger.” It’s so subtle that at first you think you imagined it; but no. That was jealousy in his tone. “And furthermore…” Your treacherous cunt throbs for the possessive hand upon your waist, trailing higher to caress a peaked nipple. “I think I want to hear you admit how much you enjoy living here in my beautiful house, my staff catering to your every whim.”

The truth is you still help the staff keep up with this massive house. You even cooked dinner with Mrs. Wong the other night. Or rather, she yelled at you, while teaching you how to make Donaka’s favourite wonton soup. You going to take care that man? You better learn. I not be around forever. 

He hadn’t even come home to eat it, the ingrate. 

“I enjoy it a lot more when you’re actually here.” 

“Oh? I thought you wanted to leave so badly?”

“With you!”

He only growls in answer to this, sucking sharply at your neck, both hands trailing up to cup your breasts. He pinches your nipples in punishment, making you squirm. He will not let you slip away though, his arm squeezing you like a band of iron. You can never best him like this, with force against force. You have to re-direct, and maybe your new lessons are useful after all. 

“Fine,” you surrender, reaching back to encircle his neck in your arms, leaning back against his solid form. 

“Fine?” 

“You want me to admit it? I am greedy. I do like the house and the cars and the things. But only when you're in the picture, Donaka. When you leave I hate it all.” He meets your eyes in the mirror then with the black eyes of a shark cruising the reef for a kill, and you don’t know where you get the courage to demand further, “Where were you?” 

“That’s my business.” 

“Do you have another mistress?” 

He snorts at you like you’ve said something incredibly stupid, and you practically sag with relief in his arms, believing his tell before he even says a word. 

“No.” 

“Then where did you go?”

He pays you a long, considering look in the mirror, weighing you with that unnerving stare that you know misses so little. “If you're good tomorrow night, and don't embarrass me, maybe I’ll show you.”

You practically quiver with excitement at hearing this, and you know you're damned. You think you would follow this man anywhere, just to unlock one more small part of his mystery. 

“Did I embarrass you at lunch?”

“No, but you look at everything with such wide-eyed fucking wonder. It’s adorable between us, but my crowd will eat you alive.” 

Really, all they’ll do is talk behind your back. 

You know this game from listening to your half-sisters gnash their teeth over their perceived victories and slights at school, who was the best dressed, who said what about whom, and you suppose it only amplifies later in life with the uber rich who have nothing better to do than spend money and gossip about each other. 

The elation you were feeling starts to evaporate as you mull over this, and he sees it written across your face. “Re-thinking leaving the house, bunny?” 

Maybe. 

Resting Bitch Face definitely isn’t your forte, and hobnobbing isn’t your idea of a good time either. 

“Are these people your friends?” 

Again, he huffs like you’ve said something cute, squeezing you in his arms. “They’re either clients, prospective clients, or rivals, sweetheart. That’s the truth of my world.”

“What about enemies?” 

“Mmm, those are the most fun.” He starts kissing your neck again, and as you go weak in the knees you wonder where the hell he’s taking you.  

“Donaka?” you sigh, melting under his mouth and his insistent hands. 

“What, bunny?” 

“Are we friends?” 

He seems amused by this, a new wicked sparkle entering his jet black eyes. “Depends, y/n. What is a friend?” 

Well, that is the million dollar question, isn’t it? So simple, yet complex. And you have to admit that thinking about it isn’t exactly coming easily, while his hand is on your breast and his other seeks your molten center. You can’t stop yourself from arching back against him, practically hanging from his neck while you pant, “Someone…you like to spend time with? Someone you like to talk to?” 

“Hmm…” He seems to think about this while orchestrating your undoing, circling your clit with his middle finger, and you’re heartened that he doesn’t immediately fob you off with the answer he thinks you want. “Then I suppose you’re my best friend, y/n. Who I very much like to fuck.” 

He slants his mouth over yours then, allowing no more opportunity for talking as he devours you whole, but your silly little heart soars.  

You’re nearly at the apex of your pleasure when suddenly his fingers between your legs go still– the jarring disappointment tears a whine from your lips that only seems to delight him. You sense that he is looking at you in the mirror again, and it takes effort to force your eyes open to meet his gaze. His pupils are blown wide and black as polished onyx; your darling really does like to watch.

“Do you promise to be a good girl for me tomorrow?” he asks low in your ear.

Perhaps there is some petulance in your tone when you answer, “Believe it or not, I can behave in public.”

“Hmm. Remains to be seen, bunny. You know I have a certain image to uphold?”

“I don't think…I can pull off aloof and scary the way you do.”

He gives no correction to this, only a dark chuckle. “I don't need you to be scary, bunny. Just poised. Can you do that for me?”

You look upon the waterfall of jewels cascading from your neck, and you don't know why you were so slow to grasp what’s really going on, but it finally dawns on you. He wants you to be a silent mannequin, an object from which to display the coveted display of his wealth. You really are following in your step- mother’s footsteps. “You mean you want me to be pretty, and quiet.”

He hears the acute disappointment in your tone, your earlier elation deflating like a balloon. Why does that affect him like it never has with any other mistress? You are maddening, and he has half a mind to sink his teeth in your shoulder to punish you for it. His eyes bore into yours, twin black holes that threaten to swallow you whole.

“You don't have to be quiet. But if you embarrass me with one of your cheeky quips to the wrong person you can be damn sure you'll regret it later. Understood?”

“Yes.” 

“Yes, what?” 

“Yes, sir.” 

“Mmm.” He strums at your clit again in reward, and once more your body is tensed in anticipation, your eyes sliding closed. “Ah ah, look at me, bunny. I want you to watch. I want you to look at yourself.”

 “I can't…” you protest, arching back against him as he finds that perfect spot once more, your knees trembling beneath you. 

 “Then you're not going to cum tonight.”

 You believe him too, and it feels like some Herculean feat to force open your pleasure-heavy lids. Trapped in a lustful daze, you are annoyed by his seemingly impossible demands. And yet the electricity in meeting his gaze while he pleasures you is something unexpectedly heady; the hunger in his eyes could swallow the world, and it’s all for you. There's something powerfully intoxicating in that; he reads the exact moment this shifts in you, a slow tear of a smile pulling at his lips.

 “That’s right, bunny. You're beautiful, and these expensive trappings become you. I’m enjoying it. You should too.” 

“You don’t have…to buy me expensive things…to please me…you know.”

 Even while he has you literally on the edge between paradise and sanity, you can’t help but argue with him. Maybe he does have cause to be alarmed to bring you into public.

 “This is my world. If you want to be a part of it with me, then get used to it. No more protests. You already admitted you like them. Are you afraid it makes you a bad person?” You hear the amusement in his voice, and you hate yourself a little more. Yet underneath it all, there's an edge of something else. Nothing is ever as it seems with this man. 

“Yes,” you pant, so strung out yet knowing that if you want your ends, you have to play his game. 

You can tell he’s enjoying himself, even as he’s exasperated with you. His eyes shine, dark and lustrous as the pearls around your neck. But no precious stone could ever hold such depth of knowledge and forbidden temptation therein. You never felt so much solidarity with Eve facing down the serpent as in that moment. 

“Maybe you're not a good person, y/n. Have you considered that?”

“Why does everything have to be such a mind fuck with you?” 

His grin is nothing less than a baring of teeth, and he walks you forward to bend you over the bed, making sure you can still see yourself in the mirror. 

“What's wrong, y/n, is this juicy little pussy jealous?” 

You have to admit, even if you won't say it aloud, that you're relieved when you hear the descent of his fly, and soon feel the soft kiss of his broad tip at your entrance. You betray your eagerness as you cant your hips towards him, craving the stretch of his cock filling you. You don't even care that he laughs at you, delighting in your need. Your moan as he buries himself inside you is beyond incriminating.

“Greedy girl.” He swats your backside with his big hand, you suspect just for the sound of it, the pearls clacking around your neck as they pool on the silk sheets beneath you.

You watch him in the mirror, unable to tear your eyes from his magnificent form, and you think he's on to something with his penchant for voyeurism. 

“Avarice for my cock. Lust. Vanity. It's not looking good for you,” he teases darkly, barely brushing your clit with his fingertips.

“That doesn't make me a bad person,” you snarl beneath him, frustrated and bewildered by all this. A gift can never just be a gift from this man. An outing cannot just be for fun. There are always layers upon layers, and you are dizzy from it all. 

“Oh, add wrath to the list too. It’s nothing personal. No one is truly good. Not really. Some people are just a little less terrible than others, and if you ask me, anyone who insists they are good are just fat, fucking, hypocrites.” 

“What an uplifting view of humanity.” Are you really having this debate right now? 

“I'm a realist. I watch all the naughty things people do when they think no one’s looking for a living,” he insists, holding your hips as he drives himself inside you to the hilt. You shudder as he leans over your body, his lips to your ear again. “And I'm trying to set you free to enjoy this adventure with me without over analyzing every little moment of it. Do you have to fight me at every turn?”

It’s impressive, how quick he is to pivot in his methods of manipulating you. You told him once that you didn't really care for ostentatious wealth, despite your obvious fascination with him. Expensive things are not quite enough to tempt you, but to have his company? You must accept them all. This will become clear later, as you're looking back with bewilderment on the night’s events, but your brain is not functioning well enough to totally piece it together now. There’s just a fuzzy outline, a suggestion of what he’s doing to you, and you don’t know what to say back to him that won’t sound stupid or childish. 

You hate it that tears of frustration fill your eyes, and you hide your face by glaring down at the bed.

“I don't want to fight you,” you whimper with your face in the sheets, finally worn down by this man’s exhaustive games. All you really want is him, but he talks circles around you until you’re unsure of everything. 

All I want is you.

It’s stupid, but true, If you say it aloud you fear he’ll take everything. Because he is not a good man. You know that in your bones; and maybe you always have, but you want him anyway. What does that make you?

He goes still above you, caressing the curve of your spine, and you shudder like a nervous filly beneath the warmth of his hand. He's gentle with you now, almost as though to soothe you through the shock of your disillusionment. “It’s alright, y/n,” he purrs. “I've seen you all along.”

You're afraid he's telling the truth about that. Maybe he’s always known the weave and weft of you, and how it all ties together in the binding of your heart and soul. You are no great mystery, and he was certainly right when he said you’re no saint. 

What does it say about you, that a man like him wants you so much? You don't know, and you're definitely not going to suss it out now. You are tired, and half crazy with lust and unsure if the rest of what you feel is actually love, or just a stubborn craving for his approval. 

You feel him undressing behind you, divesting his jacket, unbuttoning his shirt leisurely while still warming his cock inside you. You wait with a new sense of patience, feeling strangely disconnected from yourself, almost meditative as you kowtow with your head bowed.

With a hand tangled in your hair he pulls you upright on your knees, his arm about your waist supporting you. The press of his bare torso engulfing you from behind is a splendid thing; you can't help but sigh for the solid wall of warmth behind you, and for the umpteenth time you know you are utterly lost to this man. 

He stares you down in the mirror, those black holes for eyes boring into your very soul. He lets you get away with closing your lids this time, allowing you to retreat into yourself as his possessive touch slides up your torso, beneath the pearls to press over your thundering heart, then higher to your throat, your pulse beating like a trapped butterfly against his fingertips. “Don’t cry, bunny,” he consoles you, his tone deceptively gentle as he kisses a tear away, savoring the taste of your mourning for the death of something you’d clung so dearly to. “How many times do I have to tell you that I’ve got you?” 

Despite how many times this man has already taken what he wants from you, somehow this is the moment it really, truly sinks in. You will remember the turning point of this night until the day you die, as though something inside you stretched and finally snapped like a rotten rubber band. He reads this shift in you as surely as writing on a sign, the tilt of your head on his shoulder and the submission of your body in his arms, as though your very bones have finally wilted in surrender to him. 

He doesn't make you say anything more, revelling in his victory as his lips claim yours, and his arms wrap around your body possessively, holding you hard as he pistons his cock inside you. With an all too knowing curl of long fingers between your legs he sets you free, and you cum on his dick with a moan that is tellingly close to a sob. He swallows it all with his mouth over yours, shuddering as he spends inside you with a triumphant growl.

When you collapse at the foot of the bed, too wrung out body and soul for anything more, you feel the whisper of dextrous fingers at your neck relieving you of your precious neckwear. He goes off to the closet, presumably stashing them for safe keeping. Then you are surprised when he spoons his long body behind yours, indulging in a post-coital cat nap with his freshly-conquered prize caged in his arms. 

When you wake later the room is dark, and Donaka is gone. You can’t decide if you are disappointed or relieved, and you are still confused about it by the time you shower and crawl back under the sheets. 

TBC...