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Hi, anon!

No need to apologise! I haven't talked about it before.

I watched a couple of episodes of it and sadly couldn’t get into it. It didn’t manage to hold my attention and i found it a bit too long winded. I see people rave about it all the time though!

Hi, anon!

Nope lol, he'll never date a woman.

If you've paid a bit of attention to how Connor presents himself, how he views himself and what he's willing to do to achieve his dreams and goals in life, i think that will be abundantly clear.

Connor has said he felt like an outsider growing up, he didn’t fit in. He used to not like himself, but now he embraces his queerness (in every aspect of the word) and don't want to be "normal" anymore. He doesn’t seek validation from others, or try to fit a mold, meet societal expectations, and won't apologise for who he is. He's bold, he's queer, he's provocative and alternative. He's grown a lot from the self-acceptance and embracing his uniqueness. His insta bio used to say in russian "I'm not for everyone". He also has a "fear has no face" tattoo in russian. I think that says a lot about who he is, or at least wants to be.

All this tells me that he won't compromise himself, his identity, his beliefs in turn for being palatable for the masses. I don't think he's willing to become a blank slate for people to project upon, gain public approval or amass a large female fanbase who wants to sleep with him.

Do i think he's willing to enter into a PR relationship with a man to either help hide his relationship with Hudson or to get attention and engagement and grow his career? Yes, i do. Do i think he'll agree to do anything that will put him back in a closet he was never really in? No, i don't think he will. I also don't see a situation where the fans and the public will buy a relationship with a woman, or a situation where a relationship with a woman will be necessary.

black ice everywhere

by Antisceptic (Ao3)

Words: 74k

Chapters: 18/18

Summary

The more desperate you are, the easier it is to slip up, and then you lose more control, and you become even more desperate. It's a vicious cycle. The issue is, Hollander seems kind. And here’s the problem with kind people: when backed into a corner, they tend to hurt themselves instead of others.

illegal gambling / underground fight club AU