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Exodus 20:3 KJV [3] Thou shalt have no other gods before me. "Psalm 113:5 KJV [5] Who is like unto the Lord our God, who dwelleth on high..." yet I have found myself exalting so much above You. I've put loved ones above you, friends, technology, and most of all myself. Where I failed to believe that You are my true and living God, forgive me. Who truly is like the Lord, which abideth in heaven and has created us with His own hands, and breathe His breath of life into us? Who? When I was blind who helped me see? It was definitely not my optometrist. When I was lost...soooooo lost, that my eyes could not see any light through the darkness who came and found me? Who dried my eyes when all I could do is cry and regret...and cry some more? The tissues never formed feet and rendered themselves to me. It's amazing that I have found myself exalting others and more so myself above You Father...yet no one could have saved me...none even volunteered. Who am I that You are mindful of me? Yet no matter what and who I put in front of You, You were never too far when disappointments came...when I incurred deep shattering. I shall have no other gods before You. For You are my God and there is nothing better than having Your character in me. There is NO other god before You!!!

Psalm 139:4 KJV [4] For there is not a word in my tongue, but , lo, O Lord , thou knowest it altogether. Dear God, You already know what I'm going to write to you but I do not, and I am grateful for the opportunity that you give me to know what you have put in my heart. Because you are all knowing, you know that this letter is actually for myself and whoever is willing to see you pass these words. First I would like to say that I am sorry for being so human and using it as an excuse to do what I want, whenever I want. I feel like accepting my humanity to the point of implementing it as my go to excuse for my behavior, has cut me down from the light and glory you created me with. Please forgive me. God you have given me something before anyone thought that I would even exist on this earth and that's perfect love. 1 John 4:18 KJV [18] There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love. Every bit of fear that has lingered in my being, vanquish it so that I may become whole. So that I can become woman which was taken from man and not human who is rooted to the earth. When you first thought to make me fear was never a part of the plan and I no longer am willing to accept it in my life. You're my best friend. Never thought we would be this cool. When I've been broken and even shattered you never judged me or condemned me, you never said "Well that's what you get!" You actually walked hand in hand with me, facing dark nights and cold winters with me. You actually took all the pain and left me with the lessons to learn from. You're the friend that didn't sweep up broken or shattered me and threw me away. You're the friend that took the pieces and made a new me. There's no way that I could ever repay you for all that you have done for me. Thank you will never be enough. I can only think to completely and wholly submit myself back to you, to do your will and your will only. I'm tired of being on the fence. I've become tired of my lukewarm attitude. I'm tired of playing with you as if you don't even exist when I know otherwise. All this pride, I want no more. I've always thought if you ever asked me what I wanted from you what could I ask for. I thought maybe faith like Abraham, patience like Job, or courage like David, or maybe wisdom like Solomon, or enough money to take me through my lifespan, or accolades which many will know me by, or a house. God, I just want humility. I realized that it was easy for me to claim "human" status because I had too much pride. Why would you want to forgive me when I was presumptuously doing the wrong thing? I could never see up if I believe that I'm already there. I can only do so when I'm low where I can actually look up. Thank you for the realization so now use me. Hebrews 13:5 KJV [5] ...I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. Thank you for always sticking around even when I have pushed you away time and time again. I didn't think I could ever comprehend the love you've bestowed onto us all but I do now, and I ask that you just use me to show others. Thank you for being so precious to you. I love you Lovingly, Me! @its-ok-life-goes-on

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I know many people say 30 is the big number, but it’s the big 2-8 for myself. While others mark milestones in age, I mark mine in growth—self-growth; mentally, physically, emotionally, and most of all spiritually. Tell me ten years ago that I would be where I am, I would think the way that I think now, I would laugh wholeheartedly in your face. But I am here!!! Those on the outside which is most, if not all of you, could probably say I have been through nothing, there are worse situations than my own, or there are people who have experienced way more than I have in my short life. But my here, is simply Mine. No one knew how much I was actually fighting for my life. It was not drugs that gripped me, or alcohol, it was not even sex. It was the devil himself, tugging at my worth, toying with my mind. He went so far to show me how much I meant nothing to others by me being physically mistreated, mentally stabbed over and over, emotionally ripped to shreds. But I always thought there was a God, who loved me enough to have me endure. So the devil tried to spiritually brainwash me. But the God I know, is the only God there is, and “…He said that He will never leave me, nor forsake me, so that I can boldly say, He is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.” [Hebrews 13: 5-6]. You may think 28 is not such a big milestone for anyone, but it is my most enormous one. I have watched myself break and tried to put myself back together. But because the glue I had was of no good use, I watched myself shatter again and again. It was like these years have been an out of body experience because I kept watching myself break and crack, make mistake after mistake, stupid decision after stupid decision, until I had enough of my own hopeless remedies for healing. It was not until four months before my big 28 that I had had enough and dragged and carried all the broken, shattered pieces of myself back to My Creator. And why not, it is He who created me, so who else would be able to fix me??? Who??? And as rapidly as He was fixing me, I was able to see and learn what He was teaching me. “Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold all things are become new.” [2 Corinthians 5:17]. It was in those prior months where He thought me how to let go of everything; of all pain, feeling of mistreatment, all anger, all horror, all false ideas, all my sins, ALL of ME. He took 27 ¾ years of everything I have been through, everything I felt, every instance where I could do right, every instance of where I could do wrong, and He threw it all away, as far as the East is from the West. He made me new. God has shown me how to be His. He has shown me love, and His love because He is love. And anything else that may look like it, feel like it, is not it because it only comes from Him. He showed me that I only have to trust Him, for when He shaped me and molded me with His mighty hands, He had already provided everything that I would need. He showed me that I don’t have to lie to Him by lying to myself. All I have to do is own where I fell and seek His forgiveness. You may think 28 is not a milestone, but it is Mine. See I was not seeking Him first. I was seeking, like most everyone in the world, a false idea of love. So I found a boy, who grew to be a man, and I thought in him is love. But just like all counterfeits, you sooner or later see where it’s flawed, you see the cracks, the blemishes, the bruises. See I loved this counterfeit for almost 19 years, that when I finally realized what it was I was already broken and swept into a dark corner. 28 is not your milestone. I know that love can only come with embedding yourself in God. When you decide that He is your all, your spirituality flourishes and blossoms like never before. The best part of making God your all is looking at the world through His eyes. You understand why you should love your enemies. You no longer act on feeling. You are able to forgive. You appreciate why He sent His only begotten Son [John 3:16]. You can accept His love, and can easily show it. Believe me, I am not perfect and still have ways to go but the fact that He has rooted Himself in me and I was able to see Him in my reflection, I can only be excited that I have lived to see 28. @its-ok-life-goes-on @tee1805

Too extreme I am, they say... I carry the saying, "if you don't stand for something, you will fall for anything" in my heart, thoughts and deeds. It's embedded in my memory along with what I've learned in the Bible. So I am having issues with people telling me that I'm being too extreme when I've decided that my family is going to live by the Word of God. See "when you know better, you do better" right? No, apparently that's wrong! Because when you start changing how you think, act, speak, eat, sleep, and it does not keep up to the stupid traditions of what you were taught or what the world thinks should be portrayed, you have become too extreme. These outside, unsolicited, unwarranted advice, suggestions, or "just sayings" made me very upset to the point that I'm writing this blog. But because God is so good and uses people's ignorance and even my displeasure at their ignorance to bring praise and honor to His name, I no longer see the need to hold any malice but have a peace and understanding that I need to spread His word. See I read about Saul who became Paul, and he is an illustration of change, and being "too extreme". This man prosecuted God's people and when God was ready to use him, he followed without a doubt and without hesitation and shame, even when people were skeptical of his true intentions. What I'm saying is that people fear change and not just fear it but hate it. See we're so stuck with tradition that it becomes our comfort zone and who really ever wants to leave their comfort zone? I do! My comfort zone is that man called Jesus, and if you cannot handle my extremity of wanting be transformed and wanting my children transformed only through Him, please keep it moving because your suggestions and advice is not needed. "Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you , and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake" [Matthew 5:11]. I was told that I think I'm a perfect parent..ha. Well if following the Bible and trusting in the only God there is, that created this world, you, me, and everything in it, brings perfection then we all should be striving to reach that point. I'm not trying to be perfect, as if perfection is a sickness, I'm trying to be the parent God created and gifted me to be. [Matthew 7:20] states that "Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them". So if I'm being too extreme with the good seeds that God has blessed me with and making sure that the soil in which they flourish in is good so that they can bare good fruit, well too extreme I shall be. its-ok-life-goes-on tee1805

Not Just Some Things… All of my mistakes, struggles, and all of my poor decisions I wanted to regret, especially when there were people magnifying them and just covering my head with the dirt around from the hole I had already dug and stuck yourself in. Then I found this verse, “And we know that all things work together for the good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose” [Romans 8:28]. And even finding such a powerful text I couldn’t comprehend what it meant until I started seeking His understanding and not my own. I don’t bask in my mistakes or past, for now I know that God knows me better that I know myself and if it was not for Him allowing me to put myself in numerous holes on numerous occasions I would not have become that new creature in Him. Every time I was digging myself in a hole, He was right there with shovel and all ready to dig me out. I hate when people say I am not my past or my past does not define me when indeed it does. Your past sets the course of you, who you are and who you are willing to be and most of all who you want to be according to God’s purpose for your life. Because we are so tainted by sin, as humans we can no longer see that straight path that God had set for us since before the beginning of us. We love convenience so we take these detours, believing that we will get where we need to reach faster. Some of us may reach, some may not, and the ones that do, because of the shortcuts taken, had to endure so many dead ends and speed bumps and obstacles to get there. We forget that we were created by Him, and not we ourselves, and for Him, and not for our own purposes. So yes, all things work together. Every trial and every tribulation. Every mistake and every accident. Every detour and every speedbump. Every misstep and every fall. But if we can use all these things and not dwell on them or allow them to destroy us, our destination, our victory, would be so much sweeter than what we could ever imagine. God does not put us through hurt and pain but because He loves us so much, He allows us to make our own decisions even when it means that He has to sit back idly and watch us bury ourselves. It is very important that we allow God to forgive and also allow we to forgive ourselves. Remember that it is not just some things, but all things, the good, the bad, the in between, the on top, the below, that works together for us to make it through this rugged territory called the world. its-ok-life-goes-on

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True Love! It hit me recently that I finally know the meaning of love. I’ll say true love because many of us walk around using the word as a façade to use those closest to us. Now you can disagree with my opinion because it is just an opinion but be open. I heard someone say that when we humans love, we love hard. But what the hell does that mean? First of all what is love far less to what is loving hard? Then I remembered one of my favorite Bible verses...“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy. It does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs, Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails” 1 Corinthians 13:4-8. The definition of love that I could sum up from these verses is that love is the quintessence of always putting and considering others before yourself and not even when you don’t want to but still do but always because you always want to. I believe that because we are so sinful and we love to delight ourselves in sin that we have muddied the definition of love. True love, and not feel-good-sex or sex is so good that you spill out words like ‘I love you’ or feeling physical passion, brings true intimacy. The word intimacy has been tainted and cheapened in our language and stamped with the characteristics of physical stimulation and elevation. Finally examining true love bringing true intimacy, I realized the stupidity of people’s notion and conclusion as to why Mary Magdalene could have been Jesus’ wife, lover, or whatever derogatory term they have used on the history. See she found true love and she tasted true intimacy with the Savior that it was easy for us to put it at the heinously low standard of what we have come to defined true love and intimacy as. But love is far from a physical high of lust embracing some emotional feelings. Love is…“For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life” John 3:16. The only physical aspect of that is that God gave His son to bleed for us, the children who has cheapened and defiled everything He has created. So now I know what love is. It’s loving others with all you have even when they refuse to love you back. Loving hard is never giving up or giving into your own desire to feel good while others drain all the life from you. Love is forgiving even when the anger burns at your core, and you have to fight yourself to not give into the anger. Love is willing to find shelter in others and having them find it in you even after tough and trying times. It is being vulnerable and accepting that the territory comes with getting hurt, or being pushed to your limits. Love is limitless, it is timeless, it never fades or die. Love ultimately is the purity and preservation of life. tee1805 its-ok-life-goes-on gg2941 caylorsage

Scrolling throw the news app and I come across this. So much for "one Nation under God..." and I'm supposed to be thrill that a nation under God would disregard His word..."Thou shalt not lie with mankind, as with womankind: it is abomination" [Leviticus 18:22]. Clearly this cannot be a nation found under God😞 its-ok-life-goes-on caylorsage gg2941

The storm has finally passed, but in the heat of it I forgot who God is. Thunder rolled and the rain beat upon the roof, while the lightning flashed and flicked before my eyes, and just like that was easy to forget my creator; all due to the fear the devil had caused me to indulge in.

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•Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.• [2 Corinthians 5:17]. People who don't have regrets are those who think they've done nothing wrong.

When you leave a heavy load behind, never to pick it back up, you feel relief, you feel light as a feather, or lighter than before. For every time you say never again and still end back up doing the same thing, it is one step closer to that final never again. Some may beg to differ, but I stand by my word. See it is easy to pick up a heavy load. For some it may be a another person, for others financial "gain" when in reality all you gained was debt, for others dirty habits simple as biting your nails or as difficult as smoking. All in all, we can pick up these things easily not knowing the heaviness that are about to weigh on us, on our lives. In this case, most of our heavy loads are people, people who we think are in our lives for our best interest. In reality they just become a heavy burden on us that we honestly don't know how to get rid of. But just like having a heavy bag of old clothing that you need to get rid of, it is easier to take out a little bit at a time and part with it. So at the end of the day, even though it took a little bit longer than you wished to get rid of that bag of clothing, the bag is finally empty. Keep strong when you're saying "I've had enough, this is the end" or "this is the last straw" because every goodbye would eventually lead up to that final goodbye. Every goodbye is a piece of clothing that you're taking out of that heavy bag and parting with. Most important thing of unloading heavy loads, burdens, is that you can ONLY do it with the help of God. •And if your eye offends you, pluck it out, and cast it from yourself: it is better for you to enter into life with one eye, rather than having both eyes to be cast in to hell fire• [Matthew 18:9]. So make up your mind to leave all heavy loads and burdens this life is going to throw on your back, and be free. Saying goodbye to the ones and things that do not belong in your life only gives you peace, and peace from God above.

•Look to the hills, for your help• [Psalm 121] Dear Charleston, South Carolina, I hope this letter gets to you in your very vulnerable time of need. I was not present when this tragedy occurred, nor do I know anyone close to the situation, but I feel your pain and all I can do is send you my love. Most importantly you should know that God had already make provisions for your indescribable pain to work together for good, and especially to those that love Him. What you feel now, this too shall pass. For those that were taken so soon, Jesus shed His blood for them. Take comfort knowing that though they have left this earth in such a tragic way, they have returned to the creator of life. Rejoice in how they lived and changed lives rather than how they left. Let their goodness and legacy live through you. Let the world see a stronger Charleston. I may be far but I hurt with you. I see the tears of your hearts and the holes in your spirits but you have to forgive. •...forgive, and he shall be forgiven• [Luke 6:37]. If you forgive with the same measure, you shall receive forgiveness with the same measure. It is not going to be easy but whenever has been doing the right thing, what God has required of us, easy, especially because we are born of sin and shaped in iniquity? I leave you with this... •Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails...• [1 Corinthians 13:4-8]

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•but if you do something you do it to the honor and glory of God• its-ok-life-goes-on #christianity

1 Corinthians 10:12 •Wherefore let him that thinks he stands take heed lest he falls• When we think that we have it all together that our heads are so far up in the clouds...it is so easy for us to not see where we walk! #christianity #GodsWordIsLaw