Akeya

AHHHH GUYS I TRIED SOMETHING NEW AND SHE CAME OUT PERFECT!! I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE HER JUST AS MUCH :))))

this is my only outing where absolutely no one i know will see this. anyways. i feel so weak. so useless. i have this shaking feeling of which that i can’t explain, i want to cry but i’m holding myself back so much. i know it’s not a bad thing to cry, but i hate crying. i know it shouldn’t make me feel weak, but it does. everything seems to be falling apart even though just the other day i thought everything was going well. i just feel so alone. i can’t talk to anyone about my feelings, i’m too afraid of what they’d say... i can’t talk to anyone about anything because of the burden i think i bring upon them. it feels like i’m choking on my own words that want to escape, but my body refuses to let it out, keeping them bottled inside only to be forgotten until it flares up again within the next few months.  i don’t know what to do anymore, honestly. i feel like it’d be better if i just disappeared.