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I hope when death finds me it feels like my father carrying me to bed from the car while I'm asleep.

i don’t think people understand how much of life is grief. not just people dying, but losing the version of yourself you thought you’d become. grieving the city you had to leave. the friends you lost not in argument, but in silence. the summer that will never come back. the feeling that maybe you peaked at 12 when you were reading books under the covers and believing in forever

yes. and also people don’t unterstand how much of life is becoming. a version of yourself you didn’t deem possible. something you thought was reserved for the lucky people. a new summer that keeps on coming. finding your 12 year old self in a book you read when you were 25. in a city you moved to when you were 21. the friends you gained without trying. the friendships that grew through friction instead of diminishing. the songs you love that someone you had to leave showed you. losing the version of yourself you thought you’d become to become someone else entirely, someone built on your own terms, your own sweat and tears, not a projection of someone the world told you to be.

In another life we sit across from each other at the kitchen table and go over the grocery list.

yes girl I think it’s incredibly sexy how indecisive you are about every single decision in your life. I also love how you haven’t let anything go since you were 12. can we make out now

I asked my mother, “how many times can the same thing break my heart?” she said “as long as you love it” and nothing hit me harder than that.

I think you should bask in the sun for a little while. I think you will have an epiphany

sunscreen is important

Spoke to the stars about you once. They said you have a soft heart but allow emotion to consume you too quickly

They also said they love you and your cheeks blush w stardust itself btw

does anyone have the post thats a leonard cohen quote talking about being empty