mind over matter is magic

I spent last week in the psych ward. The last year has been rough, real dark night of the soul shit. Lost my sister and my nan, and cut off my mom. It’s also been filled with tons of growth and I’m grateful for the people in my life. 

Anyways I decided I needed a place to put my thoughts, and tumblr is the place I am going to do that. Right now I am so lost about who I am and what I want, all I hope for is to figure that out and hopefully find some inner peace. 

I asked for and received a vacumn cleaner.

It’s v nice.

Someone buy me a couch now.

-First of all they’ve really put the team through the ringer since Ziva left.

-They’ve also upped the intensity of the cases, which I actually enjoy.

-Fornell is one of my favorite characters to ever exist, his daughter is equally as great.

-I appreciate the fact that they’ve made Gibbs deal with feelings, and just all around the fact that he’s become more of a man, less of a machine.

-YAYY for giving McGee actual storylines, wished they would’ve spent more time on the death of his Father.

-I reaaaaalllllyyyyyy love Ellie she fits the team well, also fuck Jake.

-Also appreciate that they are actually acknowledging what the team means to each other.

-I had a random thought watching one of the episodes about how Gibbs must have hella money saved....his house has got to be paid off at this point (same for the personal car). His furniture is from 20 years ago, and it’s not like he’s buying the newest tech. Like aside from boat supplies and coffee what does he spend his money on.

-I have so many questions about Tony leaving, is he going to come back since Ziva is apparently back. Is Ziva going to stay (I imagine not). I wonder if since she’s been alive, she’s connected back with Tony in Paris.