THe Map That Leads To You

Just forget it. We need to calm down, and as much as I wanted this to end in us kissing, I need to realize that’s just not going to happen. Can we please just stop now?

Alright, I’ll talk to you later then.

I want the person who understood me. I want the person who looked at me and wanted me as much as I wanted them. That’s the person I want.

I said one thing and suddenly I don’t understand you anymore? Where does any part of what I said in our entire conversation say that I don’t want you?

Does this mean I need to just move on then? Is there no future for us anymore?

I don’t know, I can’t tell you what to do. Just seems like you want the same person that you used to be with.

What I need is you.

Addie..I don’t know what you want me to say. You said it yourself, I’m not the same person that I was when we were together.

You’ve never been just nothing to me. I would of thought we were to the point where I don’t have to tell you just how much you mean to me. How was me saying I wanted you with me forever, telling you that you’re nothing? If that’s what you want to believe, then fine. I apologize for hurting you, but I’m moving on now. I’m not going to continue to make this worse.

You’re not the one making this worse, I am, so I’m just gonna go because neither of us need this.

I…okay. You know for the record, I’m not sure how much more straight forward you want me to be. I know when we dated..you and I were two very different people. You used to enjoy the way I flirted, and you never really thought twice about what I said. You would just go along with it and have me explain it later. I know we aren’t those same people anymore, but that’s what my heart yearns for. That’s the man I’m still deeply in love with…that I never really got over. When he comes back, let me know.

Let you know? What about the girl that didn’t make me feel like I was nothing just because I chose to question a film reference? Because last I checked, she’s not hanging around lately either.

That’s not what I wanted. I’m sorry. We are clearly just hurting each other so alright. I’m going to let it go as well. I should..I should go. I don’t want to make things worse.

Yeah, fine. I’m not gonna force you to stay.

This clearly didn’t go as either of us wanted. All I really wanted was to flirt with you again, but I know not to do that next time. If I want you to know that I want you, I’ll just tell you.

It was going incredibly well until you made me feel like I wasn’t worth your time over some stupid film quote, hence the comment that came back. I don’t want to argue so I’m just gonna let it go.

It wasn’t that you didn’t get it! It was you so quickly telling me no one told me to have a crush on you. It make me feel like you didn’t care anymore. That’s why my mood shifted. That’s why I seem upset.

And you think that nothing you said made me feel some kind of way? let’s.. let’s just move on.

How is everything I’ve said not been straight forward? I told you I basically want you to stay forever with me. Truly, it’s fine. I just misread the situation is all.

I never said that it wasn’t straight forward Addie. I was just thrown off by the whole movie quote and the sudden change in your attitude when I didn’t get the reference.

I was trying to flirt with you, Adam. It didn’t work and you didn’t see it, so that was upsetting. Just give me a moment to bounce back from that embarrassment.

Did you ever think that you’re trying to hard? With the flirting I mean. I sorta picked up on the whole flirting thing when you came out and told me that you were attracted to me. You should know by now that I’m more of the straight forward kinda guy.

I’m not upset that you didn’t understand the reference. Really, I promise. It backfired, that’s all. You didn’t get what I was saying, and that’s okay. Let’s just move on, please.

Yeah okay. We can move on. The whole vibe changed but, yeah.

Right..well I suppose you have other movies you enjoy. Like I really enjoy anime while most people I know don’t. To each their own I guess.

I’m just curious as to why you seem so upset that I didn’t understand the reference.

Hmm..so I’d like a refund on my “crush on Adam Levine” card. I can’t believe you don’t pay attention to disney movies. That’s like a sin.

You can have the refund. No one told you that you have to have a crush on me. I just stopped paying attention after awhile, there’s only so much a man can handle.

It’s literally the end of the movie Adam! It’s something memorable.

Listen, when my girls watch the Disney films, I sorta just do my own thing while they’re at it so I never really paid attention to the ending.

You might of just killed my heart just a bit, Adam.

Why? Because I don’t know Mulan as much as you do?

what was it that Mulan’s grandma asked Shag? Oh right, Would you like to stay forever?

Listen, just because I have children doesn’t mean that I’ve watched all the Disney films enough to really know any of that.