Live with the beat of a heart

andy: I have this thing with the unknown, and there's so much unknown in the ocean, I know, it's weird.

andy: I don't do to well in water that's not my shower.

addie: just pretend it's a large bathtub?

andy: I'll think about it okay? We'll see what happens.

andy: Like hell you are. I plan to stay away from the water.

andy: You know that's not what I meant, Addie.

I said one thing and suddenly I don’t understand you anymore? Where does any part of what I said in our entire conversation say that I don’t want you?

Just forget it. We need to calm down, and as much as I wanted this to end in us kissing, I need to realize that’s just not going to happen. Can we please just stop now?

andy: I can't make any promises.

andy: Well don't be so sure about it this time. I don't

really know this friend that you're going with

I don’t know, I can’t tell you what to do. Just seems like you want the same person that you used to be with.

I want the person who understood me. I want the person who looked at me and wanted me as much as I wanted them. That’s the person I want.

andy: I'm a thrill to have around? Are you forgetting that I'm socially awkward haha

Addie..I don’t know what you want me to say. You said it yourself, I’m not the same person that I was when we were together.

Does this mean I need to just move on then? Is there no future for us anymore?

andy: I'll call you first thing in the morning.

addie: I can't wait!

You’re not the one making this worse, I am, so I’m just gonna go because neither of us need this.

What I need is you.

andy: You're not pushing, I just don't want to make you a promise and then not be able to keep it because my schedule is too full.

Let you know? What about the girl that didn’t make me feel like I was nothing just because I chose to question a film reference? Because last I checked, she’s not hanging around lately either.

You’ve never been just nothing to me. I would of thought we were to the point where I don’t have to tell you just how much you mean to me. How was me saying I wanted you with me forever, telling you that you’re nothing? If that’s what you want to believe, then fine. I apologize for hurting you, but I’m moving on now. I’m not going to continue to make this worse.

andy: I think I can, I'm just not going to make promises just because I don't know for sure, but I will certainly try.

Yeah, fine. I’m not gonna force you to stay.

I...okay. You know for the record, I’m not sure how much more straight forward you want me to be. I know when we dated..you and I were two very different people. You used to enjoy the way I flirted, and you never really thought twice about what I said. You would just go along with it and have me explain it later. I know we aren’t those same people anymore, but that’s what my heart yearns for. That’s the man I’m still deeply in love with...that I never really got over. When he comes back, let me know.