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its mentioned in the new chapter that canes in svart show you’re part of the aristocracy/have high social status so I think christopher might have a cane for that reason rather than as a mobility aid

also imagine if austin goes to arch his back from ~the pleasure~ and something Pops. Or if his age reminds him he isn’t that flexible LOL

I HAVE INDEED FINISHED MAIN STORY 17 PART 1 so feel free to send me asks abt it, everyone :DDD i actually have a few in my inbox backlog already but i'll get to those other ones when ive got more braincells WAHAHAHA

and YESSSSS UR SO RIGHT i was thinking that too!! especially since christopher has his hands in nxx fuckery, so maybe he picked up the cane thing from svartish customs!!

and LMAOOOO YEAH i have. a doc already for a pwp chraustin fic i wanna write and like theres nothing In There yet but i have it in my notes to remember that theyre Old

idk if you know this but its seems like there’s history between carenina and christopher. in CN, crimson pharmaceuticals is ‘nuoning’ pharmaceuticals, and carenina’s CN name is ‘yuan ning’. i think it can be surmised that christopher added the CN character for carenina’s name into his company? not to mention how ren twinning’s CN name is ‘ren huaining’ if im not mistaken. that’s two inclusions of carenina’s CN name, ‘ning’, in relation to christopher :O i wonder how global server will translate the correlation… apparently its clear in CN that carenina haunts the narrative.

but this also adds some flavor to chraustin, no? austin feeling some pull or compulsion towards christopher because in a way the bastard reminds him of his dead wife…. and christopher feels the same way in a sense, attracted to the husband of the late woman he “loves”(?)

carenina up in heaven watching chraustin situationship going down like: my love, you have never been one to make bad decisions and i fully support you moving on, but this time. um. you may want to Reevaluate What Youre Doing. 😬😬😬

YESSSS I DO KNOW THOSE CN TIDBITS, i saw it from a cn server theory that was posted on twitter before!!! carenina haunts the narrative and it DEFINITELY adds flavor to chraustin. if christopher and carenina were truly childhood friends like how edgar had offhandedly mentioned in main story 17 part 1, then it's not out of the realm of possibility for christopher to have some of carenina's quirks. he mustve known her so well. some of her mannerisms still live on in christopher's own, some of the little jokes, the tendencies. austin sees this all and feels like hes seeing a ghost of his late wife in christopher, a man who has only ever saw austin as a rival, as the person who took his childhood sweetheart away. it's unnerving and confusing and austin doesnt like it one bit.

meanwhile christopher.... i will be completely transparent and admit that whatever feelings i see christopher having for austin are very much not love. HAHHAHAHAHA. im in deeper, darker waters anon. i see christopher wanting to conquer austin. wanting to have power and control over the man who took everything away from him. christopher wants to win.

zakie

chraustin set my brain worms alight

i wrote a fic for you

https://archiveofourown.org/works/86043666

STOP THE FUCKING CAR!!!

IS IT MY BIRTHDAY AGAIN??? THIS SUMMARY SOUNDS SO CHAOTIC AND CRACK-Y, MY FAVORITE THINGS. OMG AND JEROME IS THERE TOO????? IM SO EXCITED TO READ THIS AAAAAAAA

im also laughing that you BEAT ME TO IT i was planning on making the first ever chraustin fic on ao3, just like how i did with jeroluke, but anon you took the crown from me. im not upset in the slightest though because i get a gift fic that i didnt have to write myself WAAAAAA

but ive only ever done comms for friends, this would be my first (okay well second but my first time didnt do well LOL) time opening it for the public

if i opened simple furry* icon commissions like this, how much would you pay for it? since this is my first time w art comms i was thinking 500 php (like 8usd) but wdyt?

*furry ONLY bc these past few days i realized i like drawing furries more than people HAHAHAHA

also the idea of an old man taking dick for the first time is undeniably sexy but also consider an old man giving another man dick for the first time…. mmm i think that’s pretty hot too… christopher trying to stay composed but GOD austin’s tight….

irt my chraustin delusions

YOU GET IT YOU GET ITTTTTTTT

im kinda crying at marius like in his office pacing himself back and forth from worry because dad isnt answering and hes like 5 seconds away from calling for reinforcements meanwhile austin's phone is on silent vibrating uselessly in his bag on christopher's bedroom floor while hes in bed making sounds he never knew he was capable of MAKING because cromwell cock is that GOOD

you are ALSO SO RIGHT. IM FROTHING AT THE MOUTH AT THIS. christopher wanting to be in control but his control starts slipping the moment he's inside because austin feels so damn good. austin gets a bit of a kick out of that. hes not the only one losing his mind here.

i love thinking about these 60 year old men who hate each other discovering the pleasures of gay sex with each other, feels like this in my mind rn

austin obviously has Fucked given he has Two Sons but he has never GOTTEN FUCKED himself until he gets into an strange tension-filled situationship with christopher. dont ask me how they end up getting there (i dont know yet myself) but once they fall into bed together, oh, christopher is absolutely delighted that he's austin's first, in this regard, that he gets to take it from austin.

the great and mighty austin von hagen with his face buried in the pillows as he falls apart and christopher can barely believe it, that he gets to see austin fall apart like this, that hes the reason austin can barely string a sentence together.

"cromwell, for g-god's sake, slow down, i—aah!"