such lost creatures

when Thor pokes the business card with his ‘umbrella’ while whispering “Loki?”

Like it is completely possible for Loki to inexplicably transform himself into a small white rectangle of cardstock

So he better poke it with a stick

Brain: I know what’s going to happen next!

Me: That’s fantastic, but for the sake of pacing can we work up to that point?

Brain: Yeah. We could. Or, hear me out, I can tell you every single detail of the next part and we won’t be able to focus on the current point of the story and we’ll get really frustrated because we know where we want to go but don’t know how to get to it.

Me:

Me at 11am: But, why did Ben Solo have to die?

Me at 3pm: But, why did Ben Solo have to die?

Me at 9pm: But, why did Ben Solo have to die?

Me at 12am: But, why did Ben Solo have to die?

They are the same person.

There is no Ben Solo apart from Kylo Ren - and no Kylo Ren apart from Ben Solo.I think one of the many, many things I didn’t like about TRoS was the way they depicted Kylo Ren and how Ben Solo was able to just throw this alter ego away. Kylo Ren didn’t come out of nowhere. Ben Solo made this character up to cope with all the trauma he had to endure. Kylo Ren was strong when Ben Solo wasn’t, Kylo Ren could do all the horrible things necessary for their survival, Kylo Ren protected Ben Solo by trying to get rid of all personal attachment and emotions. The second Kylo Ren vanishes and Ben Solo breaks through, we see him breaking down, crying or screaming. 

I don’t hate Kylo Ren, I think Kylo Ren is what happens when you’re a scared child with no one left to fight for you but yourself. Young Ben Solo had absolutely no one. His parents sent him away and his uncle tried to kill him, then Palpatine/Snoke set the temple ablaze and the students who survived tried to murder Ben because they didn’t believe him when he told them he didn’t do it.

No one was there to fight for him, to make him feel save and loved and to tell him everything will be alright. So what exactly was this child supposed to do?

Of course he made up a superhero-like version of himself who was everything he couldn’t be: strong, fearless, cold, emotionless. Kylo Ren couldn’t be hurt by anyone because he kept himself locked away from people. He was able to murder because he didn’t feel anything anymore. When there’s absolutely nothing left to loose, you will eventually start to behave like that.

I’m pretty sure nobody hates Kylo Ren more than he hates himself and that really shows. When he finally finds Rey, the dyad kicks in and he can’t help but have feelings again/ feel her emotions through their bond he snaps, multiple times.

I prefer Rey with Ben and Kylo because there can’t be one without the other. Kylo Ren helped little Ben survive and now Ben Solo has to help Kylo to feel again.

It’s all just really fucking awful and sad and it doesn’t really matter because they killed him before he had a chance to start his life. His real life. That he choose. Without the demons in his head. Without a family that doesn’t want him.

These words by Carson in the novel.

“She would have liked to know Ben Solo, but she could have never have loved Kylo Ren.”

With these words, Rey ends all comparison to Belle in BatB, whose love for the Beast brought back the Prince. Rey becomes a self righteous little bitch who ended up alone because no true human being is good enough for this pompous little succubus. The granddaughter of Palpatine thinking the grandson of Anakin wasn’t good enough for her.