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martin can fade into the background very easily if there's two other people in the room. they'll talk to each other and he can just be a presence they can acknowledge if they want, but he won't push them to. but if it's only him and someone else, he'll get rambly. he doesn't like the awkward silence because it's just a reminder that on his own, no masking, he's not likable or enjoyable to be around. so he'll try to seem nice and friendly and useful and everything else he isn't enough of. ultimately, both of these are a result of him desperately not wanting to be a burden on the people around him

they should invent a yourself you can forgive

nothing makes me go "ooooh we are NOT the same" quite like reading some post about how people talk with their parents about their interests. what do you mean you told your father about stevebucky. what do you mean he asked further questions

Tumblr should take away the ability to like posts for a few weeks so peeps understand this website cannot survive with just liking. I see so many gorgeous gifs and edits and they get like....13 reblogs and 700 likes. That's not right, fam

category 12 thinking about season four martin event please keep me in your prayers

when jon asks about his poetry and hes like i havent exactly had a lot of time recently and its like. that may be true but its obviously more than that. like theres always talk (and this idea has become less en vogue in circles adjacent to me over the last decade but it is by no means gone) of creative geniuses throughout history being so good bc they were mentally ill but in reality its actually unbelievable how difficult it is to make art when youre deeply depressed. its one thing to write a poem when youre sad bc youre, For Example, pining after your boss who hates you, but its another thing entirely to write a poem when youre actively, deliberately cutting yourself off from the world and your own emotions. where does the poetry come from if you cant dig your hands in and pull it out of the world or your emotions. and why would you even care about poetry if its not for and from the world and your emotions. and how do you begin to heal if you cant access the world and your emotions. and and and

Yyyyyyup basically it'a gonna haunt me until I die