It's not a conscious decision. He's been on autopilot since Chuck's defeat, going through the motions of living while feeling completely hollow inside. The last thing Cas did was die so Dean could live, so Dean's gonna pretend until it's true, because he can't let Cas have died for nothing.

The enormity of his grief is overbearing and he can't even put into words everything he's lost. How can he explain what they were to each other when they never spoke it out loud, not until Cas' last, awful speech that didn't even allow Dean time to respond?

The silence is swallowing him up, everything he didn't get to say.

And then Dean sees the ring.

It's a battered thing, shining dully in the glass counter at a pawnbroker's just outside of Topeka. It's one of a pair, and Dean snatches both of them, stuffing one far into his pocket and the other on his left hand.

The weight of it settles something in his chest.

People start treating him differently. Well-meaning strangers will start conversations in friendly, cheerful tones, catch a glimpse of his ring and the flatness of his eyes and put two and two together. Their voices will go soft, their whole demeanor shifting to a gentle carefulness. Like Dean has a terminal illness.

Good, Dean thinks. He doesn't want to be pitied but it brings him some type of satisfaction, knowing that the grief gnawing at him from the inside has become visible.

If his love couldn't be acknowledged while Cas was alive, at least it is now.

like half the fandom already ignores lel as a character for the crime of woman but these two… they’re foils of each other they’re parallels they’ve known each other for decades they’re both represented with the same bird they are both manipulated by older women to be people they’re not and don’t even mention THE GODDAMN DRESS AT THE WINTER PALACE ??? leliana’s veneer of kindness and morrigan’s veneer of cruelty… and they both conceal so much complication and grey morality that overlaps perfectly. where lel chooses dark morri chooses light and vice versa. these two could simultaneously fix each other and make each other worse why are we not talking about this.

This author self-published, which at that time meant he paid out of his own pocket to print 100 copies and sold some but not all them for cash on the sidewalk in one small town. E-books weren't a thing. There is no digital record to find. Even if I remembered any of the names or details, it wouldn't be searchable. No librarian has it in a catalogue.

The vast majority of books written before the modern day are lost media. Countless artists poured their hearts into stories that were read by few and lasted only as long as the paper they were printed on. Most of the art ever made has been destroyed or thrown away. Most of the music ever written will never be heard again. The expectation of permanence in art is very new, and even now, there are millions of works of art that will never be recorded or posted or shared. Millions more that will never even be completed.

Creation, with few exceptions, is a mandala. A vulnerable song performed for dear friends by a campfire, but the singer soon forgets how it went. A poem shared in a coffee house that rattles the audiences' bones but will never be heard again. A sketch of a lover on hotel stationary that the maid will throw away tomorrow. Our current reality exists by the influence of art that no one remembers.

This author self-published, which at that time meant he paid out of his own pocket to print 100 copies and sold some but not all them for cash on the sidewalk in one small town. E-books weren't a thing. There is no digital record to find. Even if I remembered any of the names or details, it wouldn't be searchable. No librarian has it in a catalogue.

The vast majority of books written before the modern day are lost media. Countless artists poured their hearts into stories that were read by few and lasted only as long as the paper they were printed on. Most of the art ever made has been destroyed or thrown away. Most of the music ever written will never be heard again. The expectation of permanence in art is very new, and even now, there are millions of works of art that will never be recorded or posted or shared. Millions more that will never even be completed.

Creation, with few exceptions, is a mandala. A vulnerable song performed for dear friends by a campfire, but the singer soon forgets how it went. A poem shared in a coffee house that rattles the audiences' bones but will never be heard again. A sketch of a lover on hotel stationary that the maid will throw away tomorrow. Our current reality exists by the influence of art that no one remembers.

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Heroscape is a tabletop strategy game that was a huge part of my childhood, and after being discontinued 12 years ago, it’s coming back—but only if it gets 8000 backers on Hasbro’s crowdfunding website. I don’t have a ton of followers, but if I can convince even one person to help resurrect Heroscape, I’ll be happy. Below is a quick summary of Heroscape’s lore and gameplay.

Fair warning, this is what I'll be talking about until the campaign ends on November 15th. In short this is our one chance to bring back a fantastic board game and I really want it to happen. The first hurdle is the biggest, but should this succeed, Heroscape has the potential to be bigger and better than ever.

The new and improved site for the revival of Heroscape. Now with additional info about the exact contents, how to build a map, how to play the game, and links to the WIP rulebook PDF and cards page. If you don't know, Heroscape is a tabletop strategy miniatures game with fully modular terrain designed to build 3D battlefields. It's meant to be a more accessible alternative to other expandable games like Warhammer and DnD. No need to build the models, just open up the box, build a battlefield, draft an army, and get to rolling dice.

If you're a fan of tabletop strategy, rpg, and miniature games, seriously consider backing this. I realize it's $250 and not everyone has that kind of cash laying around, but considering the insane amount of stuff in here, it's absolutely worth it. There will literally never be a better deal from companies like Games Workshop, and most of their good deals don't even come with everything you need to simply sit down and play.

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