Just a Poetic Soul

I am sorry, if I open up most of the time.

If I story-tell.

I’m sorry. I just cannot keep everything in my head. They are piling up, they are crawling their way into every inch of my system. Completely banishing me from my very own habitat.

That too much love is poison.

Too much feelings is suffocating.

That’s why he chose to breathe a different air, in a new environment.

My realization was too late.

There really are some things in this world which you’ll never be able to control.

Like how a simple wave turns into a tsunami, or how a simple deformation can destroy a whole land.

There really are some things in this world which you’ll never be able to control.

Like how a simple wave turns into a tsunami, or how a simple deformation can destroy a whole land.

Shall I call you my “friend”?

Hello friend. It’s been a while since the last time that I was able to sleep soundly. To take a rest. It’s not because of insomnia, it is not because of my current addiction to an Anime series (Haikyu). The only reason is this: For 4 consecutive days, I wake up immediately a few minutes after sleeping, simply because I cannot breathe. Me waking up is like my brain’s telling me that I am not breathing. Indeed, I’m not. I always find myself catching my breath afterwards, it was suffocating. It made me afraid. Now even falling asleep scares me. That happened four times while I was in the room alone. Up until now I do not know the reason why that happens.

It happened again, but now I was able to somehow think about the reasons why. I came up with two:

1. Because I am alone.

2. It’s because I am too tired

Still, I am not sure what the reasons are.

3 years has passed now you act like I’m not even here.

If all you do is sugar coat, Do you think this ship will stay afloat? Will you keep the anchor down, And just let the both of us drown?