what did i forget

the gravel runs hot against the soles

painfully painstakingly pushing

ants crawl out of the hill

searching, desperate.

despair runs raw in the heart, tiny and consuming,

gravel gives way to soil; cool against the circle brands

washing infiltrating corrupt

tiny black bodies congregate on the heels

searching, finding.

hungry

they find the holes

hungry

the sinew guides them

hungry, hungry

they have found haven

quivering lonely, the muscles throb screaming

soil hope bleeds under the nails

fading grey sick

tears fall from the mouth

the eyes give birth to love

bright blinding lethargic

visceral silence fills the bones

unwavering suns bleach them

cleansing rains never come

tiny black bodies hold mass

reverent veiled holy

they weave and weave themselves in preparation for their arrival;

bunnyman screams at night ä

he screams he screams he screams he screams

he screams as i kiss his wounded hands

he sobs

for he lacks the answer

to his own

question.

bunny man screams at night

he still screams and screams and screams and screams

he still screams as i tear the fur from his back

his muscles quiver and throb as the red turns to ants

and he still sobs

he sobs for the answer

because the answer

is him.

my bones crumbling and

the weight of my heart