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You see I noticed while browsing through your page that some if your content outside tumblr is erotic, and I’m just curious to why you create erotic content.

I’m a somewhat sex repulsed aroace person, and some sexual things allo people typically do and experience don’t make any sense to me sometimes. I want to try and understand typical allo experiences.

Again if this question is too personal or invasive or rude then I am deeply sorry. I just really want to try and make sense of allos since it’s all very confusing sometimes with how much sex and sexual activity is within the world, and I just don’t get it on a fundamental level sometimes given my orientation.

It's OK, is amazing you want to understand instead of condemn other's perspectives, I appreciate it.

I started drawing NSFW 8 years ago. I was on a really bad situation, I have a disabled child and our landlord wanted to evict us because we were delayed with the payment. On top of that I had lots of issues with my family. I was really stressed, my child needed me at home, but in a third world country remote work doesn't exists. One night I went into… certain site to release some stress, and at that moment I thought "Why not? I consume it and enjoy it, so I can try it out"

And yeah it saved my family. It's not a perfect job but overall, fortunately, the NSFW is FULL of wholesome supportive people who I love and consider my friends. It makes carrying the mark of being a spicy artist easier.

About the sexuality part, it works a bit like food. Not in the sense that I need it for sustain, rather than hunger is more akin to a carving. When you really really want to eat something, it becomes a thought that orbits your mind getting bigger and bigger. When you can satisfy that carving, it feels great. That's how sexual urge works for me. Also, like carvings, it can have a lot of variety. Sometimes I feel particularly drawn by certain scenarios, certain situations with my wife or certain genders (I'm a bisexual woman).

It's "Boys will be boys" taken to the extreme.

It's the attitude that leads to bullshit like blaming rape victims for the way they were dressed.

I never thought it was weird growing up for someone to never get married or have kids because one of my uncles did that. I never thought it was weird to be vegan because one of my cousins did that. I never thought it was weird to have a mixed race family because I had cousins and aunts and uncles with mixed race families. I never thought it was weird to be divorced because several of my family members got divorced. And their ex husbands and ex wives still showed up to family gatherings. I never thought it was weird for a woman to have short hair and dress masculine because one of my aunties did that.

A cat is a small creature in the middle of the food chain that is fully aware that you are a very large thing that could stomp its head in at any moment and yet it chooses to rest its tiny little head on your leg for a nap and spreads out on the floor near you exposing its belly and its most sensitive organs. It brings dead mice and bugs to you to share food.

Don’t you get it? This tiny thing trusts you. It wants to help you too. It licks your leg thinking that it’s helping. It kneads on you to find comfort. It shares its body warmth with you in the cold and gives you your space in the heat. It hisses at other mammals it sees outside including other cats in an effort to protect its family.

- Total lack of atmospheric perspective (things don't fade into the distance)

- Very realistic shading but no or only very faint shadows cast by ambient light.

- Limited interaction between objects and environment (shadows, ripples etc)

- Flat textures and consistent lighting used for backgrounds that would usually show a lot of variation in lighting, colour and texture

- Bodies apparently modelled piece by piece rather than drawn from life, and in a very stiff way so that the bodies show the pose but don't communicate the body language that would usually go with it. They look like dolls.

- Odd composition that cuts off parts that would usually be considered important (like the person's head in the snowy driving scene)

- Very precise drawing of structures and perspective combined with all the simplistic elements I've already listed. In other words, details in the "wrong" places.

What's fascinating about this is that in early or bad CGI, these things come from the fact that the machine is modelling very precisely the shapes and perspectives and colours, but missing out on some parts that are difficult to render (shadows, atmospheric perspective) and being completely unable to pose bodies in such a way as to convey emotion or body language.