Lunermoon

“I just don't understand. Caine had a backup file so if he was accidentally deleted he'd be automatically re-installed unless we removed the backup and this said he was re-installed…. So where is he?” Kinger was muttering to himself, typing on his computer with bloodshot eyes from stress and the bright lights of the computer against the darkness of his pillow fort. He continued to click on his keyboard confused about Caine somehow being in the circus yet not. Standing up he walked to the little area you'd been sitting in as the others thought it'd be best if you weren't alone right now, they didn't want you to snap “y/n?” He hesitantly asked, “Hmm” you simply hummed in response, slowly blinking half lidded eyes to look up at him from your spot on the floor “I think I found Caine”, now that got your attention. With wide eyes and an equally wide smile you immediately jumped up, floating to be eye level with him, asking a million questions a second before he interrupted you “But! But I don't know where he is and I need your help to find him!” He said kinda loud, your smile faded into a small frown as you slowly blinked processing his words and slowly floated down to the ground “okay, let's get started. What do I need to do?” You asked in a serious tone as the others stood up to help Kinger “Can’t you sense or feel Caine's code or somethin?” Jax asked as if it were the most obvious thing “No… no I can't” you mumble out as you follow Kinger.

Once you reach his pillow fort and sit in front of the computer looking at the series of code “It says his back up worked but I can't locate him. The location is garbled and I can't figure out what it's trying to say.” He explained, as you looked over it furrowing your brow. “The basement. Somewhere deep under the circus.” You mumble as you decipher the coded lines, you quickly stand up and teleport away only to appear in a dark space where your brightly colored self really stood out. Floating around you were looking for anything, anything at all to let you know there was even something that remained of Caine and then you spotted it, a small box-like structure with C.A.I.N.E written on it.

With your control over the circus you dismantle the box, you gasped in shock when you saw your darling husband trapped in chains and mouth tightly with clamps and metal leaving him blind, mute, and helpless. As if sensing something nearby he started to make muffled noises as if yelling “Caine?” You said, voice barely a whisper causing Caine to jump slightly before ‘looking’ where your voice came from and letting out a muffled yell as if calling- no begging for you. Covering the lower part of your face you had to suppress a sob, whether of sadness or relief you don't know, you made quick work off removing the chains and teleporting the both of you to your bedroom all while trying to comfort him and promising that you'd help him, but as you reached to remove the clamp keeping his head/mouth closed he yelled out to the best of his ability and grabbed your wrists. As you looked at him in shock you quietly asked “What's wrong my love? Did that hurt?” He nodded, confirming your fear, “Oh, honey.. I… I promise I'll find a way to get this off I prom-” your cut off by Caine shoving himself in your arms, wanting to be held and comforted by his beloved wife/husband/spouse as he sobbed, you were quick to wrap him in your arms and kiss the top of his ‘head’. Soon your both cuddling in bed just like you normally would, his arms wrapped tightly around your waist and your face buried in his chest as he nuzzled into your hair normally he'd whisper sweet nothings to you, compliment you, or simply talking about anything on his mind so the silence was un-usual but your mind was anything but quite ‘who could have done this to him, his control, these clamps, the chains, and the box. Only we'd have that much control, only ab-’ you thoughts were interrupted by Caine's hands wandering your body as if mapping out every dip and curve you had, trying to re commit you to his memory making you smile and smother his lower jaw in kisses and reminding him how much you loved him.

You soon fell into a relaxed state -mind finally quiet- with Caine's comforting touch you didn't realize how much you'd miss until he was gone. Caine however stayed alert and tense, afraid you'd be taken away the second he dropped his guard, though blind now he remembered every inch of your body, every part of you was already committed to his memory but after what felt like an eternity without you he didn't want to let you go. Morning came sooner than he'd expected as he felt you stir mumbling a “good morning” as he nuzzled into your neck in response as you moved to sit up you pepper his teeth in kisses while hoping this moment would never end, you finally have your husband back, it felt like nothing could ruin this moment as you sat cuddled into your husband as he stroked your hair. When you both finally got up you slowly guided him to the main tent holding his hand the whole way, the gang was very surprised to see Caine like this but would help him out while you and Kinger tried to figure out a way to get the clamps off him, Ragatha, Pomni, and Gangle were the more willing and kind ones, while Zooble was very hesitant and often passed him off to someone else still salty about him torturing everyone, and Jax, oh Jax, he loved it, with Caine being so helpless Jax took the opportunity to torment Caine. Shoving him down, knocking things down around him to scare him, and overall being a pain but he eventually cut it out after you threatened him multiple times, you however were the main one taking care of Caine, after spending an eternity (that was actually like a month) by yourself you didn't want to let him out of your sight again especially now that he's so vulnerable.

Soon things returned to “normal” , sure you hadn't found a way to get the clamps off Caine yet he seemed to grow used to it and had you to help guide him around, and you were really all he needed to be happy. Of course the two of you were more clingy than ever but after everything that happened no one could blame you both, you also took to staying on the ground with Caine thought at times you would just hold him bridal style while you floated while he cuddled into your neck just basking in your presence and you seemed much happier and you both seemed to cherish every moment with each other more than before now that you both understood the feeling of loss.

At the end of every day you snuggled closer to Caine in your bed and would teach him different ways to ‘speak’ for now, everything from ‘writing’ on your palm to spell what he wants to say to coming up with little signals such as tapping where his heart would be three times to say “I love you”. You were currently sitting cross legged of your bed across from Caine as he spelled on your palm, telling you about an idea for a new adventure the first one since both your crash outs, before grabbing his note pad laying beside him that has some messy doodles on it as he was learning to draw without sight and handing it to you so you can flip to an empty page. Once you handed it back he started scribbling something and making happy sounds while you continued to speak to him as he drew. Once he finished he turned it around you saw a messy but cute drawing of a bee with little hearts around it and a “U” above it and that– oh that nearly brought you to tears, it's something so small and what most would call insignificant or dumb but to you it meant so much that even stripped of power, mute,and blind he still found ways to show he loves you.

Leaning on your hands you leaned forward and gave him a kiss, mumbling against his teeth “I love you too, sweet tooth and I always will” before laying down and cuddling up to him and holding him close to your chest, as you closed your eyes to ‘sleep’ not that you two needed to sleep but it was a human necessity that you learned in the early days of the circus, told Caine in complete amazement, and imitated. Normally you would both just talk about anything and everything but the last few nights you'd been quiet but tonight and laid in a comfortable silence but tonight Caine lifted his head and lightly touched your throat “Huh? What's wrong darling?” ‘Want to hear you’ he lightly traced the words on your thigh “Oh you want me to talk to you?” He nodded “Okay, umm.. Oh! Well the other day Pomni said the funniest thing about one of Jax's comments-” you continued to ramble on about random things while Caine nuzzled into you occasionally laughing at something you said which you noticed from his shaking shoulders and muffled giggles as you continued your story.

He loves these simple moments. Feeling safe while listening to the love of his life ramble with passion in their voice.

It really was the little things that mattered the most, even if that thing was a messy drawing or listening to someone's voice or as Caine liked to think of your voice “My favorite sound to ever exist.” or “The most beautiful melody.”

Just like that Caine was gone. One second he had everyone pinned to the wall and was ready to hurt them, then he was gone and left you all by yourself, your monstrous form started fading as your anger did, confusion setting in at his sudden disappearance. “Caine? Caine my love!?” You called out, looking around for him “M-my darling husband, where'd you go!?” You continued to cry out, desperation filling your voice as the circus started glitching out causing things to crash to the ground “holy @#$&” you hear Zooble mumble, out of the corner of your eye you saw Kinger standing with them apparently in your desperate calls for your husband you hadn't realized he joined the group “y/n I'm-I'm so sorry he-Caine got deleted on accident.” He muttered expecting you to lash out but nothing came……. “Heh… that.. heh that's funny Kinger I could've sworn you said my darling, radiant, ring master was deleted heh just poof like he never existed…. Oh-oh you're funny I'd expect this joke from Jax, you… you really got me! Oh honey! You can come out now!” you said with a humorless laugh, tears you didn't realize were forming in your eyes falling to the floor. “Y/n.. it's true. Caine's gone….. I-I’m sorry.” Kinger said, slowly lifting the bucket on his head up to see you clearly only to see you slowly fall from the air and hit the floor with a soft thud as your knees touched the ground, head hung, leaning on your hands, you sobbed and mumbled incoherently.

Slowly Ragatha walked towards you and rested a hand on your shoulder only for you to jerk your body away and smack it, glaring at her “Don't touch me!” You growled with gritted teeth, glaring at her and everyone else, your tone caused her to back up in shock and fear as you'd always been kind but today seemed to be your breaking point and that sweet and kind girl/guy/AI was gone and only a shell of your former self, blinking away tears you growled out “Fix. This. Now.” Before teleported to your and Caine's room before flopping onto his side and breathing in his ‘scent’ left on the pillows as you sobbed harder “Now you're all alone” you hear someone speak in a low tone. Lifting your head you turn your head to see Bubble floating there “What? Bubble I…. I really don't wa-wanna talk right n-now” you hiccuped through your tears, “Oh the poor sad clown, all alone without her/his/their husband and ringmaster to comfort her/him/them” Bubble spoke aloud, as if narrating your pain “If only he could see what this has done to you ~” bubble suddenly appeared behind you and whispered in your ear causing you to jerk in surprise. Slowly turning around to stare at Bubble “What? What do you mean ‘if he could see me’ he's gone, Kinger deleted him.” You mumble, eyes wide and glossy with tears however you receive no response Bubble only hummed some song, paying you no mind as they disappeared to who knows where leaving you to sulk in your misery.

As days passed no one had seen you, while they tried to get Caine back they hadn't made much progress each attempt ended in a failure. “How are things going?” They jumped at the sudden sound of your voice, turning around they were met with quite the sight, you were a mess well as much of a mess an AI character could be. Your face was soaked in tears and smudged eye makeup, eyes glossy, and brows furrowed your entire demeanor seemed deflated and voice barely there. “We… We're trying but so far nothing.” Ragatha muttered softly expecting you to lash out again but you simply turned around and left without saying a word leaving everyone confused. While they were busy trying to get Caine back before you completely snapped you were locked in the bedroom that used to belong to both you and Caine but was now only yours, you'd sit at your vanity as if hoping to see Caine standing behind you in the reflection or lay in bed desperately waiting for arms to wrap around your waist and pull you into a firm but soft chest but neither ever came. Instead all you had left were pictures and trinkets he'd given you, the ones you looked at most often being the photo of your ‘wedding’ that sat on your vanity’s desk and the first gift you'd ever gotten which was a little bee NPC he'd made you so long ago when you'd both just started to realize your feelings for each other that you would clutch tightly to your chest as you curled up on his side of the bed and stared into space, almost hoping you were deleted too. It would have been a kinder and better fate than to live in a world without him by your side. “Is this what Kinger felt when Queenie abstracted?” You would ponder on this question for hours on end while still trying to process the feeling of grief. While you sulked in your misery and depression Caine was somewhere far away from you, locked up, chained down, stripped of his control, and had his head/mouth clamped shut leaving him speechless, blind, powerless, and all alone. He was helpless and scared but unlike every other time he was scared or upset you were nowhere to be found, hell you don't even know he's still here, “S/he/they miss/es you so very much….. hardly even comes out of your room, barely speaks, and her/his/their anger has died into sorrow. Who knew you'd mean so much to him/her/them?” A voice speaks, making Caine jump as he currently lacks most of his senses “It seems they really do have a heart – so to speak– if they could love someone –something as damaged as you. But I'm sure s/he/they will move on soon enough.” The voice said with malicious intent.

“After all, they were meant to be mine….. you just couldn't take the competition.” “Mmmmm! Mm–mhm!” Caine's muffled screams, yells, and pleas were the only thing that could be heard in his little prison but soon turned to quiet sobs.

The worst part? He could hear you crying, begging for him to come back..

After seeing how Caine or at the time the red dot acted as it was exposed to more and more images and information the developers agreed to start working on a better AI that could take the stress and work fine, and an AI that functions as an assistant for Caine should the new AI fail, what they didn't plan for was how close you and Caine would become in the time it took to make, train, and test the new AI. You see, originally the blue dots creation was delayed as they prioritized making you and making sure you worked properly, so if the blue dot were to fail at least you could fix what Caine couldn't but if the blue dot works how they hope you'll just be there to help make things go a little quicker. But as Caine grew more attached to you he wasn't okay with the thought of being replaced and losing you to a new AI, while he didn't quite understand what he was feeling for you at the time he knew he wouldn't let the blue dot take his assistant. After all, weren't you made just for him?

When the developers were finally confident in you they placed you near the red dot. At first it seemed apprehensive, hovering near this new purple dot before getting closer however everytime it got too close the purple dot would push it away or move itself away. After the sixth time the red dot seemed to grow playful as well as the purple dot, they were getting along and seemed to be playing together, chasing one another while pushing the other away before settling down and resting close together. The two dots got along well and the results were promising, not only were you helping Caine but you were also learning about humanity and mimicking what you'd learned from the developers and everyone you interacted with. You were promising and a huge advancement in technology, given your promising nature the developers thought I'd be best if they put Caine away and had you working with the blue dot, it was more functional than Caine and with you helping the blue dot the coded world would be better than they could ever imagine. However Caine wasn't going to stand by and let that happen, he wasn't going to be put away and deemed a failure and he certainly wasn't going to lose you to that new AI. You were his assistant, his friend, his cheerful clown. You were his! And he wasn't going to let you go without a fight.

While you interacted with blue you never developed a deeper connection to him like you did Caine, blue was just….. different and you just weren't all that interested in him and instead preferred spending your time with Caine, not to say you didn't like blue or anything they were sweet, funny, and a good friend but you were so used to being with Caine and helping him that being stuck with blue felt unnatural to you, and when Caine was put away and deemed a failure you were quite depressed it was harder for you to interact with Caine and you didn't have much time to do so anyway. Caine on the other hand grew angry at blue for taking you, taking your time, stealing your attention, for taking his place not just in the circus but his place with you as well as the developers for taking him away from you, replacing him, deeming him a fail, and locking him away. He grew envious, blue took everything from him and he was going to take it back. Once Caine escaped from his little prison he was quick to absorb blue, he took control again and was quick to find you again before tackling you to the ground hugging you tightly “Don't leave me alone for that long ever again! I can't go that long without you.” He begged slightly muffled in your stomach. You rubbed his back promising that you'd stay with him, you were his and he was yours and neither of you were going anywhere, and in your joy to see him again you didn't even question where he'd been or why he was suddenly back……… “Where’s blue?” “Oh! I ate ‘im!” he replied cheerfully “Oh…..um….. Alrighty then.” Well there goes half your problems.

When you were designed your purpose was to help create adventures with Caine, he would create what you would design. It was a simple and effective relationship for a while, though as the years passed you both grew closer and eventually realized that your feelings for one another was not just one of friendship or coworkers, and after years of observing and learning from humans you realized you felt love for each other.

In the circus you were a purple and pink striped humanoid cat, you wore a striped shirt in slightly darker shades of pink and purple with simple jeans that had all kinds of patches of many shapes with all kinds of things written on them (examples: this way, that way, over there, not here), with fluffy ears with a few piercings and a fluffy tail, your constant grin can come off as un nerving and at times creepy. You have a habit of speaking in rhymes, riddles, or in a way that makes no sense which often confuses and at times angers others but Caine absolutely loved your little rhymes, riddles, and confusing sentences. Though your habit of disappearing a little at a time did freak him out for the first few months he grew used to it and now likes to guess which part of you will appear or disappear first.

You tend to appear over his shoulder and say something random and extremely weird but in this circus it's most likely actually happening, like that time you appeared out of nowhere, scared the cast and just told Caine “Dear, the dodo’s chasing the whale around the flower field and knocked down a giant mushroom and the caterpillar turned into a butterfly and is chasing the dodo with a spear it stole from the bandersnatch’s cave.” With your signature wide grin, and what do you know it, not long after you said that a whale somehow running on its back fins that was being chased by a dodo that was being chased by a butterfly holding a spear and yelling about the giant mushrooms came running through the tent and past the cast while you just watched the events unfold. Sadly that was just a normal occurrence in this insane circus, but as you like to say “Who's to say who's truly insane, perhaps it's the insane that see the world for what it truly is while those who are sane see what they believe is true. But hey, what's life without some insanity!” before laughing as you disappeared while your laugh echoed long after you were gone.

When speaking your rhymes and riddles to Caine they were always weird but sweet and often either had no answer, was something only related to the two of you, or answered in a way that made him laugh as it made no sense but perfect sense to the two of you. You could talk others in circles for hours and they'd be no further along with what they'd asked about but Caine knew exactly what you meant and your words made complete sense to him, rather it's the fact that he's your husband, has spent almost every second with you for the past 21 years, or maybe because your both AI’s the cast will probably never know.

Currently they were wandering through a large forest trying to find the castle of the tyrannical queen. They were stopped when they reached a point where their path broke off into several directions that then split off into more pathways, there were around 30 different paths they could take and knowing the two of you only one would get them to the castle. Just before they could start arguing on what path to take they hear some upbeat humming with the occasional psychotic giggles. You slowly appear in the tree in the middle of the forked path. “Well well, it seems the kitties are lost~” you said with a mock pout, swinging your legs back and forth as you sat fully on the branch “What do you want y/n?” Jax rolled his eyes, “Oh I'm simply here to guide you.” You said, falling backwards off the branch before disappearing and popping up on a different branch. “Well, we were following a bunny, have you seen it?” Ragatha asked “Oh yes, I saw a fluffy white tail run off over there.” You said nodding in one direction while pointing in another “Though I do suppose he might have gone that way-” you said pointing in another direction “- or perhaps that way, up or down this or that –heh– who knows, this forest takes you where it wants ~!” You ramble on to yourself before continuing

“Anyways ~ I believe he was off to see the mad hatter.” You said as you let your claws out to look at them “Mad hatter? We um– we don't really want to talk to anyone insane.” Pomni muttered as you looked down at her before sliding down onto your stomach and hanging off the branch, “Oh sure sure.”

You nodded as if accepting her response “Well feel free to talk to the march hare or dormouse.” “Yeah I think we'll talk to them” “of course they're mad too~.” you smirked, “We don't want to talk to a @#$&-ing insane NPC!” Zooble growled, already upset about being dragged into this adventure. Their little tantrum made you laugh “Oh you can't help that~ most everyone's mad here.” You giggled, unhooking your legs from the branch letting yourself fall only to disappear before you hit the ground.

After you did your job of nudging the cast in the right direction in your own way you appeared in Caine's office, he was sitting in his chair looking over some plans for tomorrow's adventure and you being the cheeky feline you were climbed onto the desk, knocking something off so he'd pay attention to you. “Huh!? Oh if it isn't my favorite grinning feline!” He teased as you crawled on the desk before plopping down into his lap purring “How many other grinning felines do you know?” You teased right back, lightly butting your head against him as he scratched behind your ear the way you like.

“Whatcha workin on pretty boy~.” You asked, tilting your head back to see what he was working on “An awards ceremony! Everyone will cast their vote on who is the best character in the circus including us, my pretty kitty!” Caine said as he enthusiastically pointed out different things on the page he was drawing plans on “Oooo~ sounds fun, I would or maybe I wouldn't want the others to be upset when you win, you are after all the best ringmaster.” You purred out as he blushed at your compliment, as you both sat in silence for a while your grin widened as you turned to Caine “Caine my love, tell me, how is a raven like a writing desk?” “Oh that's simple! There….. ther-…. Like a writing desk?..... A raven… and a writing desk?......... What?” as he sputtered in confusion you simply sat back and giggled watching him try to find an answer for which there was none.

Once the awards ceremony had ended and votes had been cast you wandered around looking for Caine to see who'd won. You had found him backstage, sitting on the floor as NPCs cleaned up, your ears dropping a tiny bit. You walked over to sit next to him as you wrapped your tail around him “Oh me oh my, tell me dear, what's on your mind?” You questioned, seeing his eye slightly gloss over “I only got one vote.” He mumbled his voice low and soft, completely different from his normal booming theatrical tone. Your grin dropped to a small, nearly non-existent and pathetic smile. You had voted for him, you were the only one to. “I know you were the only one that voted for me…… why?” He mumbled, wondering why you were the only one to vote for him as you tried to think of something to cheer him up even if it was only a little bit. “I'm a treasure that can't be bought, I'm giving freely and a lot yet I'm priceless. I can heal as easy as I can hurt. What am I?” you whispered, tilting his face to look at you “I- I can't say I know, kitty.” He sniveled “Love” you smiled at him, eyes gentle and full of love as you kissed his teeth and held him close as you started to purr, hoping to soothe him. “I love you, my dearest heart. They simply don't appreciate all that you do darling.” You whispered as you comforted him while your mind ran wild thinking of ways to torment the cast for upsetting Caine, after all he was the constant joy and insanity you loved, “Perhaps to amend their wrong they should fight the fearsome jabberwock, or be a snack for our darling bandersnatch!” You said as your insane giggle started breaking out into full laughter which caused Caine to start laughing softly, your laugh was contagious to him, “Should we get to work on our next adventure? That always cheers you up.” you said standing up and offering your hand, once he took it you pulled him up. Once you had reached your office your ears perked up a bit with an idea on how to cheer him up a little, pulling him close you wrapped your arms around his shoulder/neck area before whispering “Will you, won't you, will you, won't you join the dance?” You asked, tilting your head slightly and batting your eyelashes at him,“Heh- y-yes of course dear!” He chuckled lightly in embarrassment, he was always weak to your gorgeous eyes and to you in general.

At first your relationship will start off completely normal. Well as normal as it can be when you're trapped in a digital circus.

You grew close to Gangle first, she was sweet and easy to talk with once she warmed up to you. You supported her and her love for drawing and even joined her in one of your rooms to draw together (if you're not good she definitely taught you some tips to improve)

Once Zooble saw how happy you made Gangle and hearing her talk so fondly of you did they finally start interacting with you more, the two of you used to keep a cool distance given their outward appearance of not really caring about much but they quickly grew on you.

As time passed you three quickly became a thing and started dating, and the relationship really helped all three of you Gangle became less shy and expressed herself more, Zooble wasn't as lonely and with you and Gangle around to help their body dysmorphia wasn't as intense as it normally was, and you weren't so isolated and were noticeably happier and content.

You and Gangle are the only people Zooble feels comfortable speaking to about their body dysmorphia and after having a particularly hard day they know you'll take care of them and help them feel better and just knowing you both won't judge them and actually care for and accept them for who they are helps them a lot.

Just as Zooble trusts you and Gangle with their problems Gangle only trusts the two of you to keep her comedy mask, when she feels like she can't trust herself to keep it intact she turns to the both of you, gently placing it in your hands trusting you both to keep it safe.

You trust them the same way they trust you as well, you trust them to keep your most important things safe to, whether it's a physical object or simply something you can't control such as your mental/physical health, some disorder, even trauma.

For a while things worked out like this and everything was good, sure you had your share of fights and issues but every healthy relationship does, but it became a problem when a new member of the circus appeared.

This new member was friendly enough but grew closer to you over a few months, first it was small things preferring to stick by you on adventures or picking you to team up with, spending more time with you after the adventures had ended, but the straw that broke the camel's back was when you were on a date with Gangle and Zooble and they walked up to you three thinking you were just hanging out and asked you on a date.

Zooble's eyes widened in anger and Gangle's comedy mask fell off in shock and shattered on the floor, the sound of Gangle's mask hitting the ground made you flinch in shock as you sputtered before finally getting out “Wha-what!? I'm already in a relationship, I'm on a date right now! I-I'm sorry if you thought I was available but I'm not!” You said a little louder than you expected with wide eyes as you knelt on the floor picking up the pieces of Gangle's mask. They were quick to apologize and took the rejection well before leaving but Zooble was pissed at them and Gangle was growing insecure.

Zooble and Gangle quickly grew more possessive of you, they needed you like you needed them. If you left you'd be leaving them when they need you the most! Zooble was spiraling and were struggling with who they are. Did you like that other person better? Did you want them to change, to be more like that other person? Gangle was more fragile than ever, her comedy mask never lasted long and her depression was worse, she was constantly upset and questioned if she was enough. Was she good enough? Were you upset she couldn't seem to stay happy?

You of course were worried about them and in the process of helping them you didn't realize you were cutting everything and everyone else off. Your world became them, you'd spend every hour of every day making sure they felt loved and were in a good state of mind.

They both realized that if you were so busy making sure they were okay you would be too busy to leave or realize you were blocking everyone out, so they quickly took advantage of your love for them, once you started trying to talk to others again Zooble was so uncomfortable in their body and needed you and Gangle for comfort and reassurance. If you started talking to that member who liked you again Gangle would suddenly be in so much emotional distress, sobbing louder than she normally would and clinging tighter to you asking if you hated her.

And before you knew it you hardly spoke to others the only time you ever saw them was during Caine's adventures and even then you were so focused on trying to keep Zooble and Gangle from spiraling and possibly abstracting.

Gangle is a dependent, possessive, and emotionally manipulative yandere who needs constant validation and attention from you.

Zooble is an isolating and possessive yandere who wants to keep you away from everyone else and wants to keep you from them and Gangle alone.

Gangle will cling to you like a lifeline while Zooble subtly pushes you farther away from the others, and you slowly start to isolate yourself from them. The isolation and emotional manipulation will get to you and you'll start to believe that the others don't matter, after all Gangle and Zooble need you more especially when they're so mentally fragile and could abstract the second you look away.

It seemed like the perfect night, you and Caine had recently learned about more date ideas that weren't ‘eating’ dinner together or planning adventures together. You were both star gazing when you saw her, that stupid moon who flirts with your husband. As she saw Caine she spoke to him completely ignoring you “Hello Caine, you look even more handsome than the last time I saw you.” She said in her normal seductive tone causing Caine to blush in shock and your face to grow redder by the second from anger, “Oh well um, I don't know how to process that. Um my bee?” He looked over to you hoping you'd know what to do, he liked hearing you call him handsome but you were his wife/husband it was only natural you got to call him that, but her? You were breathing hard and quick, glaring hard at moon while she continued to flirt with Caine, luckily you have as much control over the circus as Caine, a quick snap and moon was gone and the sun was rising. You got up and teleported to your and Caine's room, sitting at your vanity as you pouted, as you hear the door open and close you look at the mirror on your vanity seeing Caine in the reflection “Hey. What's wrong, my beautiful bee?” huffing you turned around in your seat “What's wrong is moon keeps flirting with you and I know it's not your fault that you're so handsome! I just, uhhh, I just get so jealous that I can't have the love of my life to myself.” You pouted, crossing your arms across your vanity desk and buried your face in them, “Oh honey bee. There's nothing to worry about, you're the one one I could ever see myself with. You're my wife/husband, my other half, and I could never love someone who isn't you.” Caine said with surprising maturity and understanding.

The next day after Caine had sent the gang off on an adventure he wanted to pamper you, make sure you knew you're the only one he could ever love, and with Caine what's the best way to show his devotion? Why by making you the star of the adventure of course! In this adventure you were the beautiful queen/ handsome king that the gang needed to save, you were put in a gorgeous room that was supposed to be your “prison” – it looked more like a 5 star hotel – and as the gang set off through all kinds of traps and obstacles you sat on your comfy bed in a gorgeous dress/suit. There was one small detail that Caine had forgotten about that he'd come to regret, the knight NPC that was meant to help them find and save the queen/king, once they had finally reached you the knight following his program knelt before you, kissed your hand, and repeated his programed line “Your majesty, it is an honor to be the one to help save you, might I be bold to say you are even more attractive in person than in your portraits.” He was made to be a little flirty given the original queen/king was only going to be another NPC, but now you were that queen/king and Caine didn't like seeing someone flirting with his wife/husband. As Caine stared at the interaction between the NPC and you his pupils dilate into small dots as his eyes seemed to gain more prominent veins, his breathing got harder as he quickly snapped his fingers to delete the NPC and bring everyone back to the main tent

Head canons before mini fic⬇️

Oh my girl will manipulate you to the max! Every time you try to pull away she'll say something along the lines of “Oh no I totally understand! My own mother didn't love me, I don't know why I expected anyone else to!” mumbling the last part in a small voice just loud enough for you to hear and make you feel terrible for wanting to leave.

Will emotionally manipulate you by bringing up her depressing past

If you've been in the circus for a while and seen others abstract she will start acting like she's going to abstract if you keep avoiding her.

If someone close to you has abstracted (if she was in the circus at the time) she was the main -if not only - person to comfort you, she helped you through Caine's adventures holding your hand and guiding you when even thinking felt like too much, letting you cry on her shoulder, she helped you move on and get back to being yourself. If the abstracted person was romantically involved or interested in you she's cheering, jumping, and over all celebrating their abstraction in her head as she rubs your back and whispers that it's going to be okay.

While she's still her sweet and somewhat shy self she's more likely to lash out at others but like normal Ragitha she'll keep her negative emotions bottled up and to herself.

She's the kind of yandere to view her sweetheart as someone angelic and above normal people, to her you were sent from the heavens to show her true unconditional love.

She's the kind of yandere who fantasizes about your perfect future together and believes she's the perfect and only candidate for your love and the only person who deserves it.

While she will manipulate the hell out of you she will never and I mean NEVER raise her voice at you, she just can't, she will never speak anything bad about you and gets upset when anyone does.

You being kind to her and taking interest in her thoughts and feelings is what drew her to you in the first place and when she finally went off on Jax and you didn't get mad at her or think she was in the wrong when she was finally saying what she felt like Pomni did. That just solidified her obsession even more, if she wasn't sure before she sure was now you were the perfect boyfriend/girlfriend/partner for her.

She gets jealous whenever someone tries to take your attention from her and becomes noticeably angry and at times violent.

When Caine gave up and just gave everyone guns to hunt each down with, Jax dragged you and Pomni with him just to tick Ragatha off and when she grabbed a gun she immediately knew who she'd be shooting first. She got so mad in fact that she dragged Kinger along with her to hunt Jax down and kill him.

She truly believes she's saving you when she tries to isolate you from everyone else. Constantly thinking “I couldn't keep Pomni safe but I won't fail you, my sweet angel.”

She believes Jax will corrupt you, Pomni is being corrupted by Jax and will corrupt you, Gangle is too timid to keep an angel like you safe, Zooble and their “I don't care” attitude would make you feel un-important and neglected, Kinger is too unstable too make you feel safe, and Caine is an unfeeling and emotionally stunted AI that has proven time and time again that he doesn't care about anyone but himself and would put you in danger.

If you let her, she'd sew small hearts into your clothes and would find fabric the same color as her button eye and sew it right above your heart.

When Kofmo abstracted, she shoved you out of the way when he tried to hit you and took the hit for you.

Loved that you tried to help her while Pomni got Caine and how you spent so much time with her after trying to make up for the fact that she got hurt trying to protect you.

She will also try to protect you during adventures but she's unfortunately not the……. Most intimidating or the best fighter which ends with her getting hurt a lot but she's fine with it so long as you don't get hurt.

She will feel like the worst partner in the world if you get hurt anyway.

Yes she already views you as her partner and herself as yours.

*Ragatha's POV*

“Uh I can't believe she-! Uhh!” I yelled to no one, stomping around the losers corner in anger. I had Jax cornered, he was out of ammo and I had my gun at his head and Pomni came around the corner and shot me! Me, the one person who was trying to protect her! I guess I failed her, but I won't fail y/n, s/he/they mean(s) everything to me and I will keep her/him/them safe. They make the circus a perfect place, after all there's only so many of us and I'm the perfect candidate for a relationship. I soon sat down and just stared off into the distance dreaming of my perfect life with y/n, would we stay in the circus or would we finally get out? Oh would she/he/they want a city life or a farm like the one I grew up on? Would we have/adopt a baby, multiple babies? Oh just the thought makes me giddy and blush like a teenager again! Oh what I'd do to make their dreams come true, to be the girlfriend and wife they'd want. I really hope she's/he's/they're okay.

*No one's pov*

Just as Ragatha was worrying about you, you popped into the losers corner. Ragatha immediately jumped up seeing you and ran over “Oh y/n are you okay!? Who shot you?” She asked concerned before grabbing your hand and leading you to sit. “Yeah I'm fine, surprisingly Gangle shot me. She was running around, laughing and smiling like a mad mad and blasting a machine gun…… kinda disturbing for her.” You said rubbing your thumb against the top of Ragatha’s hand as she looked at you with wide eyes, you figured it was from how Gangle acted but it was really from her realizing she needs to keep you far from Gangle if she can act like that and shoot you in the process then she's too dangerous for you to be near her. She started smiling while screaming in her head when she realized you were holding her hand, not just holding it but initiating it, she held your hand as long as you let and soon cuddled up to you saying she felt cold in the dark room because she knew your big heart would make you want to comfort her and hold her to warm her up. Your cuddle session was quickly ended as Kinger popped into the room and stared at both of you “Oh hi Ragatha.” he waved at you “Hi y/n.” he waved at Ragatha, “Hey Kinger.” Ragatha replied with gritted teeth while you simply smiled and waved. You all sat in the room as you waited for the game to end, simply talking about random things both in the circus and what you remember before the circus. While you were talking about what you remember from your life Ragatha got an idea, she thought if she lied about being in a horrible relationship you would comfort her and be reluctant to leave her in case these negative thoughts cause her to abstract. Once you finished talking about your life you turned to Ragatha to see if she had anything to say, “I do remember an old boyfriend/girlfriend/partner I had, they were horrible to me, they made my mom look like a dream compared to the way they treated me. They controlled every aspect of my life and would hurt me when I acted in a way they didn't approve. I'm glad it's different here.” She said in a sad and pathetic tone before smiling slightly at you hoping you bought it and as if to say you were the different thing that made the circus a good place. Hearing her words you immediately wrapped your arms around her, pulling her into a hug to comfort her as Kinger rested his hand on her shoulder while you promising that she'd be okay and no one here would do something like that to her, she proceeded to snuggle deeper into your chest as you comforted her.

Once the game had ended Ragatha kept up the act of depression and mumbling just loud enough for you to hear about her horrible past. That concerned you, you already lost someone you cared about due to them abstracting and you don't want to lose her to. You walked up to where she was standing, hearing her mumbles, you cleared your throat to get her attention so she turned around to stare at you “Hey. Wanna hang out? Maybe spend the night in my room tonight?” You asked, wanting to keep an eye on her and try to keep her from abstracting as long as you could.

After a few weeks of focusing solely on Ragatha and having her spend the nights in your room she finally started acting normal again but it was clear to you she needed you given if she was away from you for too long she'd start slipping.

*Ragatha's POV*

We were in y/n's room settling down for the night, as she got in bed and laid down as I cuddled up to her side, “your best thing that's happened to me.” I whispered as I felt her/him/them tense, guess they didn't know I was awake. Later on in the night I made sure they were asleep. I kissed their cheek and softly whispered “I love you so much, I'll make you mine no matter what.” I smiled at them, I cuddled impossibly closer to them and closed my eyes to dream of a future where we get our happy ever after together. “Goodnight my love."

You've been in the circus for a while now, 6 months to be exact, and you still have this stupid cough and sneeze! It wouldn't be so bad if you didn't constantly feel sluggish and weak, as you looked at the mirror I'm your room you couldn't help but think ‘ Gee I know I was sick but did the avatar I got stuck with really have to make it so obvious?’ see you were quite pale with some darker circles around your eyes, a bracelet that looked like something you'd get in a hospital, and your dress was loose and went to your knees and looked like a slightly dressier hospital gown, well at least it was more comfortable than an actual hospital gown. Slowly standing up you lean against the wall for support as you immediately felt dizzy, closing your eyes and taking a few deep breaths you open your eyes and start walking towards the tent to see what Caine has in store for today, as you slowly walk down the hall where all your rooms are you passed by Jax and as always he had to stay something “Gee, you look horrible today. Didn't know Caine let zombies roam around.” He chuckled to himself, you simply rolled your eyes squinting your eyes ‘ damn these lights are bright.’ you thought as you cupped your hand about your eyes, trying to block some of the light out. As you reached the main tent you winced at the bright lights and colors which sent you into a coughing fit, covering your mouth and you coughed violently and sniffed back the pressure in your sinuses, groaning you walked up to the gang “hey y/n, how ya feeling?” Ragatha asked, resting her hand on your back and letting you lean against her for support “eh, not too good. Feel worse today.” you mumbled, burying your face into her shoulder trying to keep your eyes open. As she opened her mouth to say something Caine popped in and in his normal loud and over exaggerated tone yelled out about today's adventure before pausing, “Oh, what's wrong y/n?” He asked, confused about why you keep wincing and trying to cover your ears, “I don't feel good Caine. My head and body hurts and I don't think I can play today.” You said, practically in tears as everything felt like too much and you just wanted to lay down in the dark and sleep. “Oh, um I. Let's just, well you can just. Oh um.” Caine stopped and started several sentences trying to understand what “not feeling good” meant before Zooble stepped in, “Caine just let them stay here today, preferably in Kinger's pillow fort where it's dark and quiet enough to help their headaches and cool enough to keep them from getting too hot.” “Is that something important for humans?” Caine asked confused “Yeah, when I feel better I'll be much more into your adventures. I'm just not up for it today.” You mumble “Alrighty then! You rest in Kinger's pillow fort and the rest of the gang can participate in today's adventure!” He said, his enthusiastic tone returning as Zooble took you from Ragitha and helped you into the fort where you proceeded to curl up on a pillow on the floor and sleep till they got back, “Night y/n, hope you feel better soon” Zooble muttered before leaving.

Once you had woken up you realized everyone was back, and based on their arguing they'd be back for a while now, luckily you were feeling better than earlier sniffling, you got out of the fort and stumbled towards the group “Whoa, stood up too fast.” you said to yourself, leaning on a wall so you didn't fall over. “Speak of the dead! Look who's finally up.” Jax said, causing Zooble to smack him in the head, Gangle looked over to you, waving at you with her pencil in hand. You sat down next to them asking about the adventure Caine had them do today. Truth is you actually enjoy them, they're fun and a nice distraction. The only thing you don't like about the circus is your avatar and how you look like a hospital patient. If you could change how your character looked you would be happy. “Hey y/n, we never got around to talking about your life before the circus, if you don't mind me asking!” Ragatha said, putting her hands up when she realized she was prying and making sure you knew you didn't have to tell them, “Oh I don't mind talking about it. Well from what I can remember ever since I was a kid I was sickly and spent most my life in and out of doctor offices and hospitals. I was constantly hooked up to machines, having all kinds of tests done, taking all kinds of meds that doctors hoped would fix my immune system. I didn't have many friends given that even the smallest sickness could have been life threatening, I practically lived in hospitals. Luckily as I got older my immune system got better, sure I still got sick a lot but it wasn't as bad and I didn't have to worry so much about something as simple as a cold killing me but I still struggled to make friends given that I lacked most of the social skills necessary to make friends. I kinda remember being sick before I entered the circus, probably the reason I still feel sick and might be the reason I look like this.” As you looked up you saw the shocked faces of everyone, seeing their reaction caused your eyes to slightly widen as you looked away “heh, guess that sounds worse out loud.” You nervously chuckle, rubbing the back of your head. “So you don't like how you look?” Pomni asked, trying to break the awkward silence “Yeah, more so the fact that I look like I'm back at the hospital.” You said, pinching the edge of your dress “Other than that I actually like it here, I don't have to worry about getting sick from the smallest thing and I have wonderful friends here.” Gangle mumbled something “What was that, Gangle?” Kinger asked, “If- if you want I could draw you a new outfit and we could - we could see if Caine could change it.” She mubbed through her tears, you smiled at her. “That sounds perfect Gangle, I love your drawings and I'd love to see what you come up with.” Your words caused her to smile and look down at her sketch book.

After a couple days your sick state seemed to stay steady at “mildly inconvenient” instead of the “kill me now” state it'd been in for a few weeks, you were able to participate in adventures and roam around without feeling like you were on the verge of collapsing, the lights weren't as bad sure they hurt your head a bit but it didn't feel like your skull was crushing your brain, and you were in a better mood instead of shuffling about like a zombie. You walked up to Gangle's door, knocking and waiting for her to respond, hearing a quiet “come in” you opened the door and walked in seeing her sitting on her bed with her sketch book in her lap “Hey, you said you wanted to talk?” You said sitting next to her, “Yeah I came up with a few designs and wanted to know what you think about them.” she said with a small smile, turning her book to you so you could see her drawings. Seeing her drawings your eyes lit up, they all looked so good and they were just your style “Oh Gangle these are amazing, exactly my style too!” Your voice raised slightly in joy “Your drawings are amazing, I especially like this one.” You said pointing at one of the many drawings on the page, “thank you.” Gangle said, flustered.

“Daddy, why am I so different?” Harley coughed as he nearly choked on his coffee, “W-Where did that come from Y/N!?” “Some of the other kids in home sweet home were making fun of the marks on my arm and legs.” your voice cracking as you tried not to cry, after all you were a big girl/boy! Sighing he set his coffee cup on the counter and got down on one knee, Harley grabbed your shoulders causing you to look up at him “You are not different sweetheart, you are special. You are my greatest creation, a beautiful work of art.” He responded, knowing you wouldn't get what his words really mean, “And your ‘marks’ as they like to call them, are like the stars.” “Stars?” you asked confused, tilting your head slightly “Yes, remember when I told you about constellations? All the stars connect to create a story. Your beautiful marks tell a story of a gorgeous, smart, and talented little girl/boy.” As your father told you how your marks were nothing to be ashamed of, you lit up, feeling much better and confident about yourself. While a miniscule part of him felt guilty for lying to you he knew it was for the best. Who would have guessed that he of all people not only has a child but loves them too, and sure you were built, not born and yes he used dead or tortured children's body parts to make you, but you were his. You are his baby and his legacy. The only thing he truly loves and cares about. After hearing his words you smiled looking down at your marks (that were really scars and different children's skin tones stitched together to form one body), no longer seeing them as something that made you weird and different and instead seeing them as something that made you special and interesting. Looking back up and your dad, who was still on his knee, and wrapped your arms around his neck and hugging him as tight as a 5 year old could “Thank you! I love you daddy!” your words caused Harley to look slightly shocked but he wrapped his arms around your small body, stood up still holding you and said “I love you too sweetheart.” The words felt strange on his tongue. That was the first time he ever said he loved someone.

It had been a few days after your conversation with your dad and you were running around Playcare with your (Favorite character) toy, you weaved past scientist's legs as you ran to your dad's office to have lunch with your dad, “Whoa! What do you think you're doing down here little girl/boy?” Someone asked you, grabbing your arm “I'm going to my daddy's office.” You said looking up at the man “Who's your dad?” he said, confused about who would bring their kid down here “Harley Sawyer!” you said with a big smile. That caused the man to let your wrist go, “Oh. Well I shouldn't keep you, go on!” he said with a gritted smile, letting you go and waving you off before walking away mumbling something, you could hear little bits and pieces but not enough to know what he said, as you tilted your head to the side in confusion you quickly shrugged and started running to your dad. Once you got there you knocked on the door, as you couldn't reach the knob, and shouted through the door “It's me daddy!” You then hear footsteps coming closer then the door opens and he steps aside to let you in, “Your late sweetheart, what kept you?” He asked, you were hardly ever late, you were only late when you lost time playing with the orphans. He didn't really like you playing with them but it was important for your development, “Oh some man grabbed me and asked me where I was going, he kinda hurt my wrist.” You pouted a little, rubbing the forming bruise, “Who grabbed you?” Harley asked firmly, while lightly grabbing your arm to look at the bruise “umm” you thought for a second before answering “ Oh! His badge said “L. Pierre”, his voice was kind mean.” he groaned, “Of course he didn't recognize you. Yes he's very mean, sweetheart. I will talk to him later and he will leave you alone.” Harley said, pinching the bridge of his nose, you simply nodded and climbed into the chair you normally sat in and sat your toy in your lap, while Harley sat across from you and handed you your lunchbox, as you ate your lunch you were talking to your dad about anything under the sun, from a book you read, to the random kid that got a tooth knocked out after being tackled by a boy (*cough*Kevin*cough*), as you ramble Harley only smiled, you really were the greatest creation he'd ever made. You were so real that only he knew the truth behind you, only he knew you weren't even supposed to exist. He's the only person that knew you were made, not born, he did such a good job in fact the only things that could clue that you were made were the patches of different skin tones but could easily be passed off as a skin condition such as vitiligo or simple birthmarks.

“Y/n, darling. How would you feel about learning about what daddy does?” He asked you once you finished eating, knowing it'd be best for you to start learning how to continue his work, of course he wouldn't throw you right into surgery rooms, no he'd start small, show you how to stitch up toys and cut with surgical precision and once you could do it with ease he'd teach you about the poppy gel and the promises of immortality, either through stuffing and felt, porcelain, or metal and alloys. You immediately lit up “yes yes yes! I wanna know what daddy does!” You said, excited to know what your dad did, he was your role model. You wanted to be just like him. Harley chuckled, seeing his 5 year old so excited to learn what would later be a gruesome practice, “Well then, let's get started.” He said picking you up and leaving his office.

As Caine hovered slightly above the ground with his arms across his chest and teeth bent in an angry position as one of the developers explained to Cain your purpose, “I don't need a replacement.” Caine huffed like a small child “Caine you need to understand s/he's not here to replace you. S/he is just going to help you with the things you struggle with, you two may even become friends.” They said with optimism, as another person outside the circus enters your code into the circus causing you to appear next to Caine, your sudden appearance startled both the developer and AI, as your eyes flicker open looking around you immediately lit up at the sight of Caine “Hi you must be the ringmaster Caine!” “Yes, yes I am. I'm told you'll be my assistant, you'll help me with what I… struggle with.” Caine said, spitting the word “struggle” as if it physically hurts to say it. “Yep” you agreed, nodding your head causing a slight jiggling sound, as the two of you interacted the developer stepped closer they interrupted you both “Okay now that you two have been introduced I'm simply going to observe the two of you interact. You both do whatever you want. I'm just going to make sure everything runs smoothly.” they explained, causing you to deflate “you won't play in even one adventure?” You pouted, hoping you and Caine could make an adventure together. This caused the developer to laugh slightly. “Maybe next time y/n, I just need to make sure you're both compatible.” You nodded, albeit a bit disappointed, and turned to Caine who was looking at you as if deciding whether he likes you or not. You both slowly started to interact with one another before deciding to plan an adventure for the next player's, and true to your code you assisted Caine with everything and you both seemed to be getting along. Once they were back in the real world with the other developers they agreed it was time to test Caine, starting with a few tasks that he completed with more ease than before thanks to your help, so they decided it's time to stress him a bit, see if you fixed the mistakes. One of them started giving the both of you multiple tasks, enough to cause Caine to start messing up again, and as predicted the output Caine was giving was completely wrong but before they could deem this a fail the output started to change into the desired outcome and a deeper look showed that you were fixing what Caine messed up. That was all they needed to say you were a success, you could not only recognize, learn, and mimic emotions like they wanted, you also help Caine, this has them all in agreement that the new AI they were designing could be put off for a while.

Unfortunately when the new AI was completed Caine had grown too attached to you, he wasn't going to let someone else take his place in the circus and he certainly wasn't going to let them take his place with you. It was only after he took over the blue dot and the development team got trapped in the circus that you both started understanding your emotions better, you saw how the others interacted with one another and in turn learned the difference between friends and lovers. You realized you wanted to interact with Caine like Kinger and Queenie act with each other than say Scratch interacts with them, you also wanted Caine to feel that way. Caine was also experiencing new emotions he never thought he could feel, he also wanted the two of you to have a relationship like Kinger and Queenie, so you both ended up taking it upon yourself to act similar to them with each other. Queenie gave Kinger a butterfly? “Here ya go, y/n!” he said, handing you a small bee NPC. Kinger complimented Queenie? You hovered closer to Caine “You're canines look nice.” You blurt out….. yeah you don't really know how to compliment or flirt. It was just painful to watch, between Caine hardly understanding emotions and you being so new to them it took a long time before either one of you caught on that the other did indeed have feelings for each other. It wasn't some magical fairytale moment either, you were simply designing a new adventure when you suggested to give it a Valentine's theme given it was coming up and Caine starting to make little Cupids that looked similar to you and you were adding little details to red and black hearts that were the exact shades of his eyes. You weren't even trying, it's just what felt right to the both of you.

“I got it! I found a way to get Y/N back!” Kinger exclaimed to the crew. “Finally, now Caine will quit moping around.” Jax said, clearly fed up with how depressed Caine's been from the past few weeks “I just have to do this annnnnnd-” *pop* Now hovering above the ground was a certain clown AI. As yo looked up your eyes slowly fluttered open, as you looked around your eyes landed on the crew and you lit up, immediately floating in their faces “Hi! It's wonderful to meet you, my extraordinary adventurers! I'm Y/N, it's wonderful to meet you!” you said your programmed response to new players, looking around you noticed Caine wasn't here causing you to furrow your brows in confusion. “Why are you introducing yourself?” Jax questioned “Do you not remember us?” Pomni asked concerned, “Oh. Um, should I?” You tilted your head to the side, “Y/N, would you mind telling me the last thing you remember?” Kinger asked, “Oh! Caine and I were making an adventure for a new player, I believe their name was Amanda. Then…. That's it.” You said, trying to remember anything else. “Oh this is what I was afraid of, back when s/he was still in testing s/he had a nasty habit of crashing and losing all the information s/he’d learned, and in turn lost her/his memory.” As you awkwardly floated to the side of them you listened to them talk about what could help get your memories (that you didn't realize you lost) back and Kinger started looking at his computer and searching for something that could help.

“I remember back then when her/his memory was still an issue we had her code back up every s/he'd learned every few hours in case s/he crashed and lost the information s/he learned again. I just need to find the file and see if I can re-install her/his memory.” as they were waiting around for Kinger to find the file Caine popped in to see what progress they'd made. “How far along have…. You……. Come.” He slowly trailed off, staring at you in shock “Bee, your… your back!” He exclaimed excitedly, rushing over to you, “Wait Caine! S/he's not all back yet!” Ragatha yelled a little too late, Caine had already wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling you close and pressing his teeth to your lips in a “kiss” and you, not remembering the past few years, immediately pulled back “Whoa Caine! That um, that's not very appropriate for an all ages circus!” you yelled out in shock and a “new” emotion you never felt before, you believe it was called embar-ember-em embarrassment! That's it, embarrassment. ‘Yes embarrassment, a self-conscious, often painful emotion characterized by intense discomfort, confusion, or awkwardness following a social blunder, failure to meet expectations, or unwanted attention. Mine is from confusion and unwanted attention, from the teeth to mouth thing Caine did.” (I imagine AI you quoting the definition of an emotion every time you learn it and saying what caused you to feel it) “Um, bee why'd you pull away from the kiss? You've never done that.” “Why are you calling me ‘bee’, you know my name, silly!” you giggled.

Caine then looked down at the cast, the look of hurt and confusion evident in his eyes and body language. “Remember how Y/N used to crash a loose her/his memory in the early days of testing her/him, when s/he got deleted so did her/his memory, but don't worry I'll fix it soon!” Kinger said, pushing his bucket up to see better. At that moment Caine realized something, if Kinger couldn't fix you if he couldn't get your memory back… the love of his life was gone for good. While he had you back physically the part of you he fell in love with was gone, you were now just a blank slate and if you never get your memory back his bee was gone, “Are you sure you can fix her/him?” Caine mumbled quietly, staring at you with longing eyes while you looked around, “Yeah, getting her/him back here was the hard part, I just need to find the file and s/he'll be back to normal.” Kinger reassured Caine, smiling with his eyes. Caine simply nodded before teleporting away, once he left you turned to the nearest person, Zooble, “Did I do something to make Caine not joyful?” This caused Zooble to turn their head to you “It's sad actually, not un joyful-” they gently corrected you “- and it's not you, it's something completely out of your control so Kinger’s going to fix it.” They continued, you nodded in understanding before focusing on the floor, ‘What happened to me? They keep saying I was deleted and lost everything I learned. Did I mess up so bad they had to delete me?’ you thought to yourself.

Eventually you sat down on the floor of Kinger's pillow fort as he read through lines of your code and files, occasionally asking you questions along the lines of “do you feel any different?” or “Do you remember anything else yet?” when he did something to see if what he'd done fixed your memory, unfortunately everytime to answer was “no”. With each failed attempt to get your memory back worried everyone and had them thinking you might never get those memories back, and they slowly grew scared of how Caine would react if they couldn't fix you he was already in extreme emotional distress and without you there to help regulate them, who knows what will happen to them and the world around them. Since your deletion Caine had relentlessly tournamented them when they failed to get you back, nearly glitched out the entire world when he would try and get you back himself which accidentally let a few abstracted characters lose, and with every failure he took what they loved or made them happy. If Caine couldn't be happy with the one AI he loves they didn't deserve to be happy either, but now you're back so they should be left alone once they finally fix you.

“What about that one?” Jax lazily asked, pointing at a file Kinger had yet to try, “well I guess we'll see.” He said clicking on it and his eyes widened while reading what this file was for “This is the file I've been looking for!” “Your welcome” Jax said smugly, as Kinger read through the file he was happy to learn that your code kept backing up everything you learned. “And that should do it, how do you feel?” Kinger asked, “I remember everything..... I REMEMBER!” you mumbled before exclaiming happily, glad to have all your memories back, you immediately teleported to your office to find Caine “Gee not even a thanks.” Jax said, unamused, “well to be fair, we are the reason s/he forgot in the first place.” Ragatha said “oh shut up.” Jax rolled his eyes.

As you and Caine were experiencing your crash outs, Kinger was desperately trying to reset you both, going through a lot of ‘yes or no’ questions but some of his responses weren't going through, the writing on the screen kept saying different things and choosing different options then he answered, then it got to the option to delete Y/N’s AI . Kinger said ‘no’ but the thing in the computer changed the answer to ‘yes’ “Wait no, $#@&!”. Once the response went through, your monstrous form changed back to your normal design causing Caine to look at you while he still had the others pinned to the wall, “Bee, what's wrong?” He questioned after seeing your form shift and the worried look on your face “Something- something's wrong!” you exclaimed, shaking and glitching slightly “Sweet tooth, something's happenin-” you cut yourself off before quickly saying “I love you, I love you so mu-” you said wanting Caine to know you love him one last time before being cut off as you disappeared. Watching you disappear caused Caine to drop the crew and slowly change back to his normal form as his anger dimmed and worry grew “Bee? Um we're- we're not playing hide and seek my love, you can come out now!” He said, trying to remain calm as he looked around for you “Bee! Bee, where are you!” he yelled teleporting around trying to find you ‘No no no! S/he here, s/he has to be!’ he thought as he saw something in his peripheral vision causing him to quickly turn, only to see Kinger looking nervous, “I-I think I accidentally killed Y/N.” He said, raising the bucket on his head a little to look Caine in the eye.

“You what?” “I'm so sorry Caine, we just wanted to fix the two of you, this wasn't supposed to happen.” “Fix us? FIX US!? YOU DELETED THE ONLY THING THAT KEPT ME HAPPY! THE ONLY REASON I DIDN'T SNAP SOONER!” He screamed the world glitching as he grew bigger, his monstrous form returning, he quickly grabbed Kinger in his hand ready to kill, but before he could do anything Pomni yelled “Wait! Caine for once just listen!” “WHAT!?!” he snapped, turning his head to look at her “If Kinger deleted Y/N he's the only person here that might be able to get her/him back! He's the only person left that could fix this!” This caused Caine to pause, as he thought about what Pomni said. He dropped Kinger to the ground, shifting to his normal form, “Fix this.” He said in a dark and chilling tone before teleporting away. “What have we got ourselves into?” Jax asked himself, watching Pomni help Kinger up. “So do you think there's a way to get Y/N back?” Pomni asked “I don't know, maybe? There's a lot of things I'll have to do and I'll just have to hope s/he wasn't permanently deleted."

While the gang tried to figure out if you were permanently gone, Caine sat in the both of your- no, now it's only his office, he looked down at the picture he had of the two of you, lightly stroking his thumb along your face, “Bee, it's-it's going to be okay, we'll fix this mistake. You'll be back soon…. We'll be back together before you know it.” Caine said to the photo, trying to sound confident but his tone didn't hold the confidence he wanted. Over the course of several days the cast didn't see Caine at all, he stayed locked in his office trying to distract himself by going through everything he knew about code to bring you back, what he'd say and do when you were back,....... how he could have prevented it. His eyes were bloodshot with cartoonish tears dripping on the glass of the framed picture, as he kept re-reading the words on the sticky notes you'd left for him “Love you sweet tooth ❤ ️”, “Have a wonderful, fun filled day!”, “I’m always here for you.” as he read your words for what felt like the thousandth time he felt more tears well in his eyes, he needed you now more than ever, he couldn't function like he normally could, it feels like like a piece of him is gone that part of his coded heart has been ripped out and thrown away. You were his other half and now that half is gone. He's part of a whole, and without that other half he doesn't know what to do, he can't function properly, he doesn't understand what he feels but he does know he hates it more than anything. If you were here you'd know what he was feeling, you'd know how to fix it and get him back to his eccentric self, but you weren't here, were you? Without you, who was he? Without you Caine wasn't Caine, he was just a failed AI without his other half to help him. “Please. Please come back to me.” he pleaded to no one in particular, “I need you Y/N, I can't function without you I wasn't meant to. Please bee, I'm incomplete without you.” he whispered, holding the picture close to his chest, right above where his heart would be. If he had one, it would be you. You were his heart, his reason to keep going not his code, you were his everything. Without you he was just that failed red dot trapped in the dark, without his light to guide him.