just a journey

Damn, my stepmother is saying she loves me and cares about me and in the same breathe dismissing everything I say or feel, where exactly is the love and empathy in that?

I wish I felt like I'm really somone their friends really love but it gets really hard for to believe there's love towards me in friend groups I was and still in, it's like there's always someone who's way more loved than me and it's getting hard to ignore

I'm not sure what exactly I need in life but I just know it isn't something I have

I just wish life wasn't that painful, you know?

When they only see how angry I am but not the years of bottling up all my emotions to the point I now can't anymore so it all just spills out over the smallest of things

So I decided to make a vent diary here to maybe stop over sharing with people or hurting anyone accidentally