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✨ inhales dramatically YO, WHAT’S UP. WELCOME TO MY OFFICIAL TUMBLR ZONE!! 🎉

Okay okay, I’ll chill. That was me screaming like a feral gremlin for no reason. Anyway—waves aggressively—this is my Tumblr blog, my little corner of chaos and whatever I feel like posting. I’ve seen my mutuals making intro posts like these, so guess what? I’m doing one too. Because why not.

🧷 Name:

Just call me Alice (or whatever variation of that floats your boat). I go by Alicila (irl though mainly) too (mainly to avoid confusion with my OC)—it’s a thing. You’ll get it eventually.

🎂 Age:

I’m 19. So yeah, not a minor anymore. Minors can interact with my blog if you’re chill and understand boundaries. Just don’t act like a 6-year-old or come crying to your mom about “trauma” if you saw something spicy. And like… don’t sue me. Please.

💁 Gender / Identity / Pronouns:

Alright buckle up because this one got an update since I originally wrote this lol.

So I used to identify as a cisgender female — and honestly that made sense at the time because I didn't really have the language for what I was actually experiencing. But after doing a lot of thinking, I've figured out that I'm actually bigender. And before you go "wait what does that mean" — let me explain real quick because it's actually pretty simple once you get it.

Being bigender means I identify as two genders — in my case, both a woman and a man. Not halfway between them, not neither of them, but genuinely both. Sometimes I feel more like a woman, sometimes more like a man, and sometimes both at once. Think of it like having two modes that are both completely real and valid rather than one being "the real one" and the other being fake or temporary. Both are me. Both are equally valid. Neither cancels the other out.

It falls under the nonbinary umbrella — not because I don't identify with "man" or "woman" (I actually identify with both of those specifically), but because I'm not exclusively one or the other, which is what nonbinary basically means at its core. So yeah, nonbinary but make it "both at the same time/different times" rather than "neither."

Now here's the fun part — I'm still a tomboy. That hasn't changed at all lol. When I'm in my female state, same old me, same tomboyish energy, same "please don't put me in heels" attitude. But when I'm in my male state? There's a chance I'll be rocking a femboy vibe instead. Yes, really. Tomboy as a girl, potential femboy as a guy. And before anyone says anything — no, being a femboy doesn't mean I suddenly become soft-spoken or start doing stereotypically feminine things. It's just an aesthetic. My personality stays the same regardless of which state I'm in. I'm still blunt, still loud when provoked, still me. The gender feels shift, the person doesn't.

And speaking of which — tomboy or femboy or whatever the hell I am on any given day, it doesn't change who I am as a person. My identity isn't a costume swap. It's just me existing in the way that actually fits.

Now, pronouns — okay so this is where it gets a little specific so pay attention lol:

She/her is my default and always preferred, especially when I'm in my female state. If you don't know what state I'm in or you're not sure, she/her is always a safe bet.

He/him/his is preferred when I'm in my male state. If you know me well enough to know where I'm at, feel free to use these when it fits.

They/them is a "meh" situation for me — it's not my preference but it's acceptable only from people who aren't close to me or aren't yet aware of my gender identity. Basically if you're a stranger or we've just met, it's fine as a placeholder until you know me better. But once you know me? Stick to she/her or he/him depending on context.

It/its — hard no. Always. No exceptions. I find it personally dehumanizing and I don't want it used toward me under any circumstances. And just to be clear — I fully support people who do use it/its pronouns for themselves, that's completely valid for them! It's just not for me personally and that boundary is firm.

Misgendering me — whether it's using the wrong pronouns, using it/its, or doing it "as a joke" — is not something I'll let slide. Not as a troll, not as a meme, not as anything. Just don't. 💅

Like I said earlier, even as a bigender person, my tomboy energy isn't going anywhere lol. When I'm in my female state? Full tomboy mode, no questions asked. When I'm in my male state? Femboy vibes potentially, but the personality stays exactly the same because aesthetic and personality are two completely different things and always have been.

Either way I'm still not into the whole fashion/makeup/polished glamor vibe. Makeup? Ugh. Only if I'm forced and it better be LIGHT because I hate looking extra feminine, and I hate scrubbing it off even more. High heels? Nope. They hurt. They make me walk like a broken baby giraffe. I don't know how y'all do it. Crafts? A lotta people are into them — I just see 'em as a time suck.

I love art, but not necessarily the “Barbie” aesthetic kind. Give me for example stuff like weird, dark, creepy, cursed, or just plain funky. I also love cute and kawaii stuff too!

Also I talk a lot. Like, a lot. But not in that squeaky gossip way. It's just brain-noise → mouth.

I'm emotional, sure. But not in a dramatic way. I'm more like "deep and intense" than "crying over a broken nail." I'm multitasky. I'm detail-focused. I'm not the nurturing type (sorry, I ain't your mom). Not into sports really, but I'm a tech goblin. I game, I internet, I meme. Fortnite > Fashion Trends.

I'm competitive. I take risks. I'm independent. But people love calling me "selfish" for that. Yet when someone else acts the same way? Suddenly it's totally fine. 🖕 I'm also loud when provoked. I'll throw hands verbally, but physical's rare. Still… don't push it.

And yeah — my mind can get filthy in that "horny dude" way. Which honestly makes even more sense now that I think about it considering I literally identify as a dude sometimes 😂 Like, respectfully.

Some people sneeze like kittens. I sneeze like a damn explosion. You've been warned.

Bonus note: Feel free to interact with me no matter what your gender or identity is — feminine, masculine, nonbinary, bigender, whatever!! As someone who's bigender myself I genuinely mean it when I say all gender identities are welcome here. Just please don't try to impose gender expectations on me. Tomboy, femboy, or whatever the hell I am that day — let me be myself. 💅

Quick note: I'm an AFAB bigender woman — the “AFAB” thing (for me) meaning I was assigned female at birth. I'm mentioning this purely for clarity and context about my own specific experience, not to make any statement about what bigender "should" look like for anyone else. Every bigender person's experience is their own and I fully respect that!! This is just so nobody's confused about my background when I talk about stuff like being a tomboy or potentially being a femboy 🙃

Oh and one more thing I figured out recently that I want to add here — I'm cistrans!!

So cistrans is basically the term for what happens when you're bigender (or multigender) and one of your genders aligns with your birth assignment but the other one doesn't. For me that means the woman part of my identity is technically cis, but the male identity I also genuinely hold makes me trans at the same time. Both things are true simultaneously. Hence cistrans as one word.

Which also means I fall under both the trans umbrella AND the nonbinary umbrella at the same time, which is. A lot of umbrellas. But it actually makes complete sense once you think about it — I'm not exclusively identifying as the gender I was assigned at birth, so by definition I'm trans, even if one part of me is cis. The cistrans label just describes that specific situation more accurately than either "cis" or "trans" alone would.

And yes I looked into it before using it — not a slur, not problematic, just a descriptive term that some multigender people find genuinely useful. Which I do!! 🙃

Oh and one more thing while we're at it — I also identify as catgender!! 🐱

For those who have no idea what that is: catgender is a xenogender where someone feels an extremely strong connection to cats or felines, either strongly identifying with them or wanting to incorporate that connection into how they understand their gender identity. It doesn't mean I literally think I'm a cat before anyone says anything 💀 It just means that connection to cats is genuinely part of how I experience and express my gender. It was actually originally coined by an autistic person to better describe their own gender experience, which honestly makes a lot of sense for me personally given my whole neurodivergent situation lol

And speaking of which — the reason I identify as catgender specifically is because I have an extremely strong connection to cats. Like genuinely, deeply, not just "aw cats are cute" level but actually identifying WITH them on a real level. And regardless of any gender stuff, I'm a cat person through and through and always will be. Cats just GET it and so do I 🐱

As for pronouns — cat/cats/catself exists as an option!! I don't require anyone to use them 24/7 and I'm definitely not gonna correct a stranger for not knowing. But if we're mutuals or actually close? Using them every now and then, whether affectionately or as a joke or just because you feel like it, is genuinely welcome and appreciated 😄

Now. I do have to address the elephant in the room. Yes, I am aware that Meowbahh also identifies as catgender. And yes that's genuinely annoying as hell because of her massive list of controversies — the slurs, the racism, the ableism, the Islamophobia, the absolutely terrible non-apology where she chewed food while saying sorry to "the disabled fandom" 💀 Because of her, a lot of people don't take catgender seriously and treat it as a joke or a troll identity.

But you know what? Fuck her for that. Genuinely. I refuse to let one messy, controversial, chronically-online disaster of a person take away an identity that is actually meaningful to me. Catgender existed before her, it'll exist after people forget about her, and I'm not abandoning something that genuinely resonates with me just because she decided to slap the same label on herself while being awful. My catgender identity has nothing to do with her and everything to do with me. 💅🐱

💖 Sexuality:

Pansexual + polyamorous = open relationships for the win. 🏳️‍🌈

📅 Birthday:

Feb 6th, 2007! Aquarius baby ♒

🎨 Favorite color:

PINK. Yes, it’s “girly.” Yes, I love it anyway.

🌍 Ethnicity/Race:

I’m white, born and raised in America, but don’t lump me in with the “lol typical American” stereotype. That ain’t me.

My biological parents are both from Ukraine, so technically I'm Ukrainian by blood, but honestly? I feel way more American than Ukrainian since I grew up here. It's kinda complicated but yeah - Ukrainian heritage, American heart I guess!

🚧 Boundaries (aka PLEASE respect these or I will ✨vanish✨)

Trauma dumps & venting: I don’t mind if you need to vent or trauma dump, just don’t turn me into the “therapist friend.” I seriously hate that. Reminder: I might also need to vent sometimes. Please don’t guilt-trip me for it—I already feel bad about it half the time, so don’t make it worse.

Guilt-tripping: Don’t manipulate me into doing or saying stuff I’m not comfy with. I’m not your emotional puppet.

Misgendering: Don’t call me the wrong pronouns even as a joke. That includes trolling or “haha it’s just a meme.” No. Stop.

Spam: I may be Very Online, but I do not appreciate spamming. Don’t blow up my inbox or replies. I get annoyed fast.

🧠 About Me & My Brain (aka autism, ADHD, depression, anxiety & all that jazz)

So, here’s the deal—I've got autism and ADHD (born with ’em), plus depression and generalized anxiety disorder. That shapes a lot of how I roll, so here’s a little heads-up on what to expect when you hang around me:

Tone tags are a must sometimes. Not all the time, because that gets weird, but especially when you say stuff that could be taken a million ways. Like, if you say “Hi (positive),” I might roll my eyes a bit—awkward vibes alert.

Deep dives into niche stuff incoming. I get super focused on fandoms and random obsessions that stick for ages. You’ll see me posting a LOT about those passions.

Jumping around like a popcorn kernel. My brain loves to switch topics fast, share impulsively, and just toss out random thoughts like confetti.

Creativity on overload. Expect spontaneous, inventive ideas and content popping up randomly, ’cause my brain never really takes a break.

Deep-diving mode activated sometimes. Sometimes I get stuck on one topic and flood your feed with all the related stuff nonstop. Sorry not sorry.

Over-sharing? Guilty as charged. I tend to share way too much info sometimes, like TMI level. You’ve been warned.

Editing freak alert. I reread and tweak my posts a lot before hitting “post,” ’cause I worry about being misunderstood or judged. I also apologize way more than necessary (that’s just me), especially for sexual or NSFW content.

🚫 Haters & Enemies — Just Don’t.

If you’re here to hate or cause drama—please get the hell off my blog. Seriously, go find something better to do. I’d rather you just leave me alone, but if you come for me, don’t expect me to be all sunshine and rainbows. I will throw that hate right back at you.

No kindness for the haters. Nada.

💖 Fans, Friends, Simps, & Fangirls/Fanboys —

If you’re chill, love my content, or just vibing with my online crew, you’re welcome to hang around as much as you want. Watch, comment, simp away — I’m here for it.

🕯️ Religion Stuff (aka Why I Might Go 🧍When It Comes Up)

Just a heads-up: I’ve got religious trauma, mostly tied to Christianity, so I get really uncomfortable around religious stuff—especially Christian content. That said:

I might be okay-ish with Islam or Judaism, depending on the context.

I do a bit better around Hinduism and Buddhism, they don’t really trigger the same ick.

I vibe the most with Satanist and pagan folks—not because I worship Satan or anything (I don’t really care about Satan tbh), but because y’all tend to be chill, and I like the general vibe.

I don’t really do religion myself, but I’m also not an atheist. I can get along with atheists though — and I probably vibe even better with agnostics, since they kinda get the “not sure/don’t really follow anything” thing I’ve got going on.

🗳️ Bonus Round: My Political Vibe

I get along way better with progressive folks than conservative ones. So if you notice me being super warm and friendly with progressives but a little icy with conservatives… yeah, that’s why.

You don’t have to agree with everything I believe, but if your values clash too hard with mine, we probably won’t click. (But if you’re cool and into some of the same stuff as me, I might just wanna follow you. 👀)

🚫 DNI LIST - Do Not Interact 🚫

Listen up y'all, here's who I DON'T want interacting with my blog:

🔴 Racist people - This one should be obvious. I don't care if you hate on white, black, Asian, or whatever race - I won't stand for it if you hate on somebody just because of their race and ethnicity. Making stereotypes based on race is disrespectful as hell and I will not tolerate it.

🔴 Sexist people - Doesn't matter if you're a man hating on women or a woman hating on men. Please don't interact with me if you hate on either gender or have harmful ideas like "all men are rapists" or "all women are fragile" and so on!

🔴 Homophobic and transphobic people - As someone who is pansexual and polyamorous and supports every valid gender and gender identity (including transgender and non-binary), I will not tolerate any of that hate just because of someone's sexual orientation and/or gender identity.

🔴 Ableist people - As someone who has autism, ADHD, depression, and generalized anxiety disorder, I don't want people who will treat me badly just because of whatever physical and/or mental conditions I have!

🔴 Pedophiles, zoophiles (those who have romantic/sexual attraction to non-anthropomorphic animals - you're NOT a zoophile if you simp for anthropomorphic characters), necrophiles, and those who are into incest - Get the hell away from my blog.

🔴 ALSO - DNI if you think having 'pedophiles/zoophiles/necrophiles/incest supporters' in my DNI is ableist. If you genuinely believe that setting boundaries against people with harmful paraphilias is discrimination, you're part of the problem and I don't want you here either.

Reason for that? Had someone recently try to guilt trip me for this boundary by claiming it's ableist to exclude people because according to them, "pedophiles and zoophiles and necrophiles who are anti-contanct are safe folks who are mentally ill" and tried to force me to remove my DNI so that every pedophile and zoophile and necrophile can interact with my blog (which I am not comfortable with). To be clear: paraphilias involving attraction to children, animals, corpses, or family members are fundamentally different from other mental illnesses because they involve potential harm to non-consenting parties. My DNI stays. If you have a problem with that, the door is right there.

🔴 People who are super against anything that isn't canon - Basically people who bash on non-canon stuff. Let people enjoy things, damn.

🔴 People who think rape, sexual assault, and sexual harassment are not bad - If you think any of these things are okay, you're disgusting and I don't want you anywhere near my blog.

🔴 Proshippers/comshippers/darkshippers - I don't support problematic shipping content, especially stuff involving adults with minors or family members with each other. That content makes me extremely uncomfortable so please stay away from my blog.

⚠️ Age preferences: I would rather minors under 13 or anyone 60 and older don't interact with me. This blog is not for anyone under 13, and I'm uncomfortable with elders interacting due to a phobia I developed from an incident with my Ukrainian grandma when I was 6 years old.

Final note: If any of the people mentioned in this DNI list interact with me anyway, don't expect me to be kind to you. You've been warned! 💅

💬 Personality & Creative Stuff

IRL, I’m more of an ambivert—sometimes social, sometimes not. But online? Total extrovert. I talk a lot, vibe hard, and love connecting with people (as long as you’re not a asshole).

Now, let’s talk art: I suck at drawing and animating (being real here), but I am trying to improve little by little. Since I’m not super confident with my art skills yet, you’ll see me using Gacha Club and other similar stuff a lot. It’s just easier for me to express my ideas that way, especially when I put effort into editing and making it look clean.

But where I do shine? Writing. I love writing. It’s one of my favorite ways to create and express myself.