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So i know none of you give two fucks about me but i just wanted to update you on all my life because sadly I haven’t really been active here and if anyone even cares im sorry

So this year i went to college and i moved to a new house (where I actually made 2 friends that i think might be really good ones but we’ll see). From the outside I haven’t changed much i made a tattoo and i have a new hair color but that’s basically it. Mentally I’m still not okay, my therapist hasn’t helped me at all and on my last appointment she told me that I wasn’t depressed because I didn’t take any antidepressants so yeah I definitely think my choice of finding a new one is great the thing is I know im depressed but i barely have any time to think about myself because I’m always surrounded by people and that makes it slightly easier to live day by day but my urge to kill myself is still the same and the void inside me is still pretty much a thing.

That’s basically it. We’ll see if i can live til the end of 2020 (which i doubt).