don't leave me alone

could we be bored? lay out on opposite ends of the couch, our legs bare in the sticky July heat, the whir of a box fan blowing kisses from the corner. could we be happy in our doing nothing; find bliss, wonder, in our repose? pick up a song between us and stretch it like a clothesline from the kitchen to the living room. could we be at peace in the quiet, watching the rain come in, finding a dusty puzzle at the back of the bookshelf? could it be enough, to be bodies at ease, knowing there will be days the clouds will gather, but having this, a steady beat, this breath of contentment to come back to?

YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO CARE!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO FEEL!!!!!! FEEL FEEL FEEL!!!! FOR THE LOVE OF GOD AND ALL THINGS GOOD AND PURE FEEL SOMETHING!!!! OPEN YOUR HEART! BE VULNERABLE! BE SOFT! BE SO FULL OF LOVE AND MESSY AND CRY YOUR HEART OUT!!!!!!! LOVE AND FEEL!!! FEEL AND LOVE!!! YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO CARE! IT IS OKAY TO CARE!!! TO LOVE, TO HURT, AND CRY! PLEEEEEEASE FOR THE LOVE OF THE WORLD, CARE. FEEL. LOVE. BE A MESS OF LOVE AND FEELINGS!!! WE NEED OPEN HEARTS AND KIND EYES WITH BEAMING SOULS!!!! PLEASE!!!!!

i wonder how you feel when you hear my name