7777skinni TW ED AND SH

i hate myself.

every kind word that’s been spoken to me doesn’t register.

it’s a lie i tell myself.

there’s nothing behind those words.

they’re just words with no actual substance.

one could praise me all they want- as if anyone actually would- it still wouldn’t change anything. it’s insincere. it’s lies. and above all it’s pity.

they pity me which is why they say what they say. it’s not how they actually feel. and i know that.

i wish they would stop with all of these false compliments.

i don’t deserve them. i never will.

it’s a trick. a facade.

i’m not who they think i am.

i’m breaking beneath the surface.

i’m drowning with the waves.

i’m letting myself sink. further and further.

the pain of living constantly pounding in my ears. it hurts. i’m tired. i’m so tired.

can it stop?

will i ever be better?

will i ever be happy?

will it ever end?

the ending is nowhere in sight.

far beyond the horizon.

*reblogs 2944388828282838 posts*

*closes tumblr*

*starves self*

-”Zoodle soup” (100 cal)

https://www.rebootwithjoe.com/100-calorie-vegetable-zoodle-soup-recipe/

- “Shirataki Noodles with Bean Sprouts & Red Curry” (42 cal)

https://mobile.fatsecret.com/recipes/shirataki-noodles-with-bean-sprouts-and-red-curry/Default.aspx

- ”All-Vegetable soup” (32 cal)

https://mobile.fatsecret.com/recipes/all-vegetable-soup/Default.aspx

- ”Cabbage and Tomato soup” (23 cal)

https://mobile.fatsecret.com/recipes/cabbage-and-tomato-soup/Default.aspx

- ”Zucchini Parmesan” (28 cal)

https://mobile.fatsecret.com/recipes/zucchini-parmesan/Default.aspx

- ”Balsamic and Olive Oil Brussel Sprouts” ( 82 cal)

https://mobile.fatsecret.com/recipes/balsamic-and-olive-oil-roasted-brussels-sprouts/Default.aspx

-“Fried Cauliflower” (60 cals)