I dont even want to make it to my birthday. I can already feel the heartache.

Anyway i wake up every day lonely and alone. Want to kms every day. Sometimes it feels like i will drive my car off the side of the road and that makes me afraid to drive at all. Being actively ignored by people you thought were your friends, even when you literally live with them, is the most heartbreaking thing. I dont want to be here anymore. Just wanna die.

I’m fat and i used to be so skinny and now im fat and my clothes look awful and i hate pictures of myself i dont feel attractive i just feel ugly i never wanna leave my apartment

Idk if i dont lose 20lbs i’ll die

Kinda just want someone to hold me while i drunk cry abt how fucked up my personal life is

I haaaaate myself so muchhhhhhh