For the; For me;

I really miss you, ya know. I wish you werent so difficult. Compromised sometimes. I told you I’d see you at odd hours, its not a problem now that I have a car. Its not like anyone fucks me as good as you can, but last tine you called me over you weren’t asking me over to have sex, which made no sense, all things considered. I dont want to believe you have no feelings for me when you keep saying you dont show emotions, what am I supposed to believe in then? Cause neither your emotions or words are clear to me.

So ill call a truse let you back in. But you cant leave me again. Cause no matter how much time goes by, youre the one i want oh no i cant hide. Now that youve returned i cant stop thinkin about you baby

Lost in the money. High on dope. Fell down to where you picked me up. High as fuck nothing can reach me now. Smoke out my demons. Alone in my head. Finally the storm dies down. Weed stopping the weather, and klonos to go to bed.

I feel your yearning i echo back with earnist wholesomeness. I see your lust, I answer with my touch. I know your heart, it makes mine kind. I feel your pain when you leave, I see your mind change on the train. I hear my heart thump when I see you again.

Give me a chance, and I will spend everyday making you love me. Never giving up, nor letting up. Trust me, and I will never do you wrong, avoiding everything that would hurt you. I want to be the one you can't get enough of, stuck in your heart and mind. The one you call when you get upset. I wish to love you through the pains of life and breathe life back into your happiness.

There’s an underlying truth in everything you say to me. I feel it in my bones, I feel it like it’s my own. I thought about you the other day is more of an I miss you. Remember that one time means I want to see you. Goodbye means talk to you soon. I feel you in my veins like I’m Brand New. Thought I was your sidekick but it’s just Man Overboard. I know how much you love them, I want to be your favorite girl. We’re like art, how our truths are hidden so easily. We hide like undertones but we know there is love close by. & the overtones get me by.

When I write in the city off the stop down the street from your house. Yellow, Red Green shining through my lenses, I always wonder if you’d come meet me, even just for a moment. I’ll hold your hand if you want, I just want to see you. The bus is always louder after rush hour. Sometimes there’s familiar faces and I wonder if I’ll remember them in a dream. I’ve had so many vivid one’s about you lately. If I’ll run into them and remember their face from somewhere. If any will ever be as vivid and familiar as yours.

I've been patiently waiting for a sign, praying for a sign. For something or a solution to this wanting to breathe your air while we kiss, wishing you would care. I'll never understand how you felt "you lost everything" when I never left. Right where you left me. Wishing wanting waiting for a presence like you're still with me. Wanting to fall asleep next to you and wake up next to you again. Wishing you would call but you never did.

At a 2 all the time, since we parted. Skyrocket to a 3 anytime I think about being with anyone but you. And from there it's typically a downward spiral into the oblivion of my mind. I catch myself doing things you used to do when you're not sure what to do or how to convey all the thoughts in your head. Ulnas and radias's crossed , resting on top or your skull. Makes me wonder whatt you picked up from me. I still say potatoe.

Sometimes I wish I was a bimbo, with incomprehension of reality and what life is really about. Sometimes I wish my pride and self love would let things go, deadly things and otherwise petty. Sometimes I wish you cared more, had me in mind more. Went to bed and woke up with thoughts of me and only me. But I am alas not stupid, and love myself far too much to be treated with such disdain.

Give me a look, watch me bite my lip, feel my hands tremble at the thought of you, but you don't know the lust that lingers. Watch my eyes scan you, your face, your eyes, lips, neck, shoulders. My eyes ablaze at the sight of you. Arms, arms, chest legs, face, ears, neck, lips, smile, smile for me. Confess a thought, an emotion, turn your head and look at me, gauge my reaction, gauge my emotions. but you don’t know the depth of my soul. Make a joke and laugh with me, but you don't know the depth of the happiness you've resurrected. I said I love you, you turn your head to ask me if I mean it, I say yes. It feels like cloud 10 being next to you. But you don't know the depth of my love.

First I thought I'd die without you. Lose my purpose and evaporate into thin air, never to be seen again. Standing in the middle of your storm the wind almost knocked me over, but I stood fast as to say I AM HERE AND I WILL NOT FALL FOR I STAND FOR WHAT I AM FIGHTING FOR. Now the storm is finally past and I'm standing in the aftermath, I see all the signs of a past lover things I cannot change. Now filed away beside my other past failures, the file cabinet is beginning to overflow.

everything falling right back out of my body. regergatating for the toilet. laying alone on the bathroom floor. alone grief sadness talking to nobody, music blasting, cat purring alone alone alone. it sets in again and I'm paralyzed stuck to the floor, stuck outside, stuck on the couch stuck stuck stuck panic sets in and I can't breathe, I can't see Paralyzation lets up and i give to the toilet I give to you, I gave to you everything I could. Still, I am alone alone alone