I learned some new words for myself...! It's nice having clearer language to distinguish myself especially when existing online and I think this will be a good place to start building my blog back up to something more authentic.
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To begin: my name is Eli! He/him, 90s kid, transgender, married, Jewish, cat dad
I am a person with CPTSD and an autobiographical memory; I have a hypervigilant system and I cope with my trauma with system shifts and age regression in ways that are not always conscious but always observed. I have multiple "ego states" I am constantly shifting between. I'd say existing in my brain is like standing where the tide flows between the ocean and shore, a giant lighthouse light installed in my chest. I can feel push and pull from the tide but I have to decide whether to walk to shore or into the waters- and that big shiny light is gonna stay on no matter how deep I go!
Because of this, my blog will extend through multiple themes, topics, and fandoms. It will not be very coherent; this is my personal happy scrapbook.
My blog is primarily SFW but it is not safe for minors; I do not want to have to regulate or censor myself should I decide to post more explicit things.
