let's sing together!

only hearts that can’t be seen are worthy of my gaze

even tho my voice is gone

the world keeps spinning in a wild haze

self painted visage

hidden in my heart

i grasped at that image

as it floated up to the sky

say “good mo(u)rning” at the time of a good bye

and to say good bye = "see you soon.”

and then as it came time for the sun to also go to bed

you were in a dream, inside my head ? !

and memories pile up

aaaaaaaaaa-

only the things i cannot see are my reality.

do you think that may be bad?

is it maybe a bit sad?

if i were to keep on searching for but still never find you

the world still will spin

my shouts get drowned in it

sounds of hesitation

beside irritation

the lucky item today is

a geiger counter, lucky day!

I’d say "thank you" when you pissed me off to no end

saying from "now on" = tomorrow then.

all that i gave up, once again

were all my necessities

you’re included in what i can’t see

it all keeps piling up…..

say “good mo(u)rning” at the time of a good bye

and to say good bye = "see you soon.”

and when it became  time for the sun to go to bed

you were in a dream inside my head ? !

I can't regret or look back at you

some day these feelings won’t be true

even if you

had told me from the start

that these words won't stay in my heart

and they'd fade when I go dark

I threw my heart up to the stars

because I hoped I'd know as far

as I wanted to go

Now my voice will never make a sound

it won't come out

and there's nothing left of me to show

I swear there was no hint of pain

in fact I was not even sad

there was just so much I had to give

it was just so hard for me to live

at the bus stop here again I will wait

to be here forever is my fate

and even now

i cant even speak out loud

and even when i try to scream

my body will not be found

Please don't look at me everyday

because my heart has broken from all of the pain

living like i’d already died

if only i'd gone back on that when i was alive

Even though I am dying

Is it supposed to hurt?

Was my soul supposed to fly?

Even though I am dying

Is this supposed to hurt?

hah?

oohh….

that said well

With all of the voices already from this earth

In life’s song, could I join my own?

No. even when I tried, from my death to birth,

I was kind but always alone

AAAA

I threw my heart up to the stars

because I thought I'd known where

I’d wanted to go

Now my voice will never make a sound

it won't come out

and there's nothing left of me to show

i'm sure that somewhere you’ll find strength to let me go

If all I’m ever going to be is a replacement for somebody else I’d rather be a rock with no heart in my chest placed upon the bottom shelf I’d have no tongue to speak, no missing piece in my story And in a world like that even you wouldn’t get to have known me

There are many thoughts that flood up my mind and take over how i talk all through the day and night and even tho they seem to always overflow I lie thru my teeth so nobody can know

i’m doing what i can, but then again, you, my friend, you seem to think I’m much braver than I am

why must that be? tell me!

To be constantly ripped apart cut open my heart and still manage to hold you I wish I could simply smile, say ‘it’s for the best’ and believe that that was true and now as my vision is blurred my voice cracks and slurs i want to relay and to say even a flood of miracles could never amount to the day that it was my name that I heard you shout

If you say that you want to stay and that you don’t want to wander away from what there is at the present, i wonder wont you come to resent it? there’s nothing but trying to hold fast unto what we want to do and make it come true although, we need to let it go dont you know

i can talk all i want and i say and i pray that i want good things to happen for you but im filled with cowardice how are you still so nice after i came and ruined your life? how can you still think after being on the brink and hearing me speak you dont see me as weak?

why must that be? tell me

so I’m begging you to just do what you think you should do since i cant seem to make it through i dont want these good times to end but the kindness you lend and how you can hold my hand…. if you even wanted to leave or just stay with me i cant ask anthing of you but hey dont do anything if you dont feel the same. but would it be okay for you if I call out your name?

from the day that I came, that day where i had my birth I kept on crying out, “erase all of me from this earth” then I ran as I began searching for who’d make me complete the one I want to meet the you who had found me

I hate this noise, the noise I cannot even breathe I've never felt a breeze like this before I was worried the moment I turned around the street corner

Oh God, it hurts, it hurts I'm getting strangled by the fingers of this lukewarm air you dont care in your cruel play you say "you'll leave it to me, okay?" ?!

ah, as you finally came to look my way ahh, the sky looked as if its tears were gonna give way ohh, it looks as if I've no where to run now...? why do i feel trapped, and that I soon wont be found?

"oh soon, yes soon, so soon, I'll be coming for you your dignity and all who you want to be we made a deal and now your fate is going to be sealed"

It's cold, so cold, I'm cold I've a sinking feeling the rain is sending me realing you smile, cold red and all your words are echoing inside my head

oo yeah aHHHHH

and now that you're gone

it's you I have grown fond

tho you're bitter in my mouth

and my chances have run out

but it's far too late

I've made my grand mistake

I want you all for myself

but im locked up on the shelf

"you're the one i never will let go of"

"you'll be by my side"

I can't give up on you because I'm still

hoping for those sayings to come true

"hi! hi!" won't you please for once  look at me?

I've been waiting for you; for your eyes to look and to see

Please please let me just hear your voice again,

for you to look my way, your mouth will open, and you'll say

"farewell my dearest beloved one"

and in the middle of this torturous hell

I can too be found as well

painfully stuffed in my shell

if i close my eyes and pretend

that you are still my friend

"It's like you never left"

in reality, you did.

"I love you ever so much I could die"

Yeah what a great lie!

I don't want to let go

but I could melt into my tears that are starting to flow

AO AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I tried to piece you together again

because in the end

you were what I thought I wanted

I didn't truly know you and who

you were and now you've broke in two

But I want to apologize--

I tried reaching for you

to fill your void

don't need someone like me

since I'm only just toy-toy

Please please just one last time

if you dont mind

Can i say it to you?

And then i promise that I am through-

"Farewell beloved, the one who had loved me,

I'm heading east, no one else knew a secret plan for me and you a place that just us two could go to be 

alone

"I'll love you where ever I go" "where you go I will follow" it isn't wrong to believe and play along? for you I want to believe it's true

On a day like any other in a house by any name You and I are in love in a way that none have felt the same You're all that I could want, my love, so won't you stay with me? with the way our love has come to be

The night is pouring over unto the skyline as thousands of stars and constellations are passing by it's everything I'd ever want to share with you from me

Knot up my shoes, I'll run to meet you very soon, you're what I choose.. I'll slip away quietly in the night, alright?

We use to think we could go far i reached the brink to where you are I know those times have all come and gone but i can still hope and dream on?

Like a fish swimming in a stream that wants to reach the sea singing words of love and longing to that cliched loving scene there's no need to fear or be scared so please dont run away please hear these words I could never say

~~~

So somewhere on this earth where your rays of light can reach a brand new day is dawning and it is dawning just for me why would I grow up when I've found my fairy tale ending I'd give you everything

i had always thought that when I'd grown i'd learn and would be shown how to become kind and then make it mine but no matter what i did, i'm still acting like a kid.

But I know that I want to protect your precious life even if i fade away from daylight and never wake. i will correct every single mistake .

and in the town where voices drown what's falling down a snow the sky has in store no one has seen before

and you're like the deepest scar that will be carved upon my heart for coming this far and I wouldn't trade that away for anything

So that time, that we met after school you gave me a blank stare

last sunday, it's not like it was cool that sunset sight we shared

and then that year that had endless tests one right after last

finally I met a melancholist like the you i knew in the past

I bet if that if I tried to run ahead now my bluntness would embarrass me and I'd be let down with nothing left to show

but i still want to come forward with my thought but then i worry if I will get caught it's better if you don't know

I just don't understand and don't think i can when did you steal my heart, and tear it apart. I just didn't notice at all, when did I fall? wait, no! I don't want to let you know.

You just won't look my way, and that is to say that it's not like i care, i dont care! at all!! "hey hey," that's not the way to get in fate's way with thoughts of you I'll stay up late

and tomorrow how will i know if i'm the same as I've been each day and to you act cold this is getting old and i have been acting so unlike me oh.

since you were in a dream of mine and all the while can't you just see i've been lying the whole time

because

I just don't understand and don't think i can how? why you stole my heart, and now here we are. I just didn't notice at all, how fast one could fall now I'm in love, damn it all!

lalalala

all these feelings that are waging war on your mind i wonder what kind of answer you’re gonna find for drowning my voice out are you gonna compensate me for all the times you were late and i would wait

“just look how weak you are” im falling hard and yet i dont you want to stop AH

I WANT to make a curtain call for this love since the big and small were taken advantage of

I’ll Aim for an end to these love lies if you’d hate me, that would be my grand prize YEEAHHH OHHHH OH OHO H OH OH

for a duo who cannot bear to be apart being together is what makes us happy but if we’re hating this bond of love that we share maybe  we reALLY are better off alone

if there was someone else that could take my place then maybe my happiness could  take a stand… so today I’ll play that “girls’” face-ade y'know the ones that always get out of hand

our egoselfishness keeps us just where we are this love we won’t address went too far.

I WANNA make a curtain call for this love since the big and small you took advantage of

I’ll Aim for an end to these love lies if you’d come to hate me, i think thatd be my grand prize

its time for the last goodbye cause I haven’t really been the real me this whole time i don’t want to get out of control

but I- can’t take- it anymore!!

yeah yeah yeah oh oh oh….

and the manga you loaned me a while ago it was boring and for that I’m so sorry

and all those songs you wanted me to like, it was like throwing dice and I’m so sorry

maybe you just dont want to think about me anymore maybe the sight of me is so bad it makes your eyes sore

and now I am falling i’m falling! now i’m falling as far as I could go

you sit, say not to hear my calling and act like you don’t know.

borrowing with no returning, doing with no asking- do you hate those things?

i can’t reflect you when i try to it’s gross that i just want to close my eyes

maybe the thought of me is giving you worse off headaches more maybe it’s because both of our hearts have been painfuly torn

and now I am falling i’m falling! now i’m falling as far as I could go

you sit, say not to hear my calling and act like you don’t know.

when did you decide here the end of you and I? all along? where did it go wrong?

I want to, i want to i want to

just see you

things will not get better today, since my facade has begun to decay

wickedness causes my heart to rot losing a sense of- who? I forgot!

come here, no get away, Stay! "I hid my heart away"

mayday! if you figure out it's me, you don't need to hang on in fact just leave me be

oh mayday! if you figure out it's me, would you pretend we're okay like we used to be?

say OHHHH

I'm nothing but just a lonely ghost

say oHHHHHHHHH

since everything I’ve said is full of holes

HEY!

although i meant to say no, my actions came out as "ready go!"

The more you wear the disguise then less of the lies will people recognize

weighed down by your sins are ya now? just ask for love in a small prayer out loud.

The more you fake it you start to realize not even you can see through the lies

this sense of guilt will stay... and turn my whole world gray!

i’ll play victim today

mAyday go and say what you may! cuz honestly i havent been so honest these days.

oh mayday slam the gavel, seal my fate! my lies have already dug out a deep enough grave

say oooooooooOOOOOOh

all my sins have me trapped, i’m dead and gone!

say OOOOOOOh

an empty void that only can sing this song hey…

I’d spent so long to improve what I lack in the mirror it wasnt me staring back.

but i just kept going till my head was swimming how i’ve lived this life full of sinning.

all i beg for is to be loved even though I’m filled with so much egoselfishness

do you think you could ever know the real me? this clown filled with immorality

mayday! if you figure out it's me, you don't need to hang on in fact just leave me be

oh mayday! if you figure out it's me, would you pretend we're okay like we used to be?

mAyday go and say what you may! cuz honestly i havent been so honest these days.

oh mayday slam the gavel; seal my fate! my lies have already dug me out a grave

Mayday go ahead expose me now! since everything I’ve built is burning to the ground!

hey mayday i’m sorry that you found out

the me you thought you knew is nowhere to be found!

say ohhhhhhh!

I'm nothing but just a lonely ghost

say ohhhhh!

since everything I’ve said is full of holes

say ohhhh!

all my sins have me trapped, i’m dead and gone!

say ohhhh! (etc.)

an empty void that only can sing this song

since all i said was a lie i can truly say that my hands are now tied

People are passing by

The clouds float in the sky

They’re laughing in my face since I’m so out of place

  And It’s not that hard to do

But can be difficult, it’s true

I could get on with life if I said I was done with all this strife

I wanted to deny

That maybe if I tried

That the me in your mind

Wasn’t a silly child

Or a pathetic hapless clown

 Ah, spin around, spin around, spin until you fall down

Ah, breathe it in, breathing in, I’m gonna drown

IS this all it? The sad ending of my tale without you

Weren’t this little clown’s feelings a tiny bit true?

 The earth is spinning still

Rotating and a tilt

It’s turning and spinning without any regard for me

I’ll try not to breathe

For a moment to be free

I’m stuck, frozen in place

I dont want to see your face

 It’s gotta be my fate

Or maybe some crazy chance

Guess it’s better that I don’t know,  and I hope your bus was late

But when I met you at the start

And for the first time saw you smile

My heart just melt, And now all this while you’ve become irreplaceable in my heart!

Ah, spin around, spin around, spin until I fall down 2x

Ah, breathe you in breathe you in I’m gonna drown 2

 Ah, these feelings, these feelings, these feelings

Are being torn apart

I’m just so scared, just too scared to leave my heart

But, even still, I know I need to give up on you here

Because you’ve made it so painfully clear

 Ah, now I’ll spin, now I’ll spin, I’ll spin until I drop

Ah, Try to breathe, try to breathe, but my lungs stopped

It’s alright, I always knew, I was just a clown to play