All this pain is an illusion.

i have free will and i'm choosing to use it to watch the same movies and shows on repeat until i know them practically word for word

"hollander" (this doesn't have to change, we can go back, we can just be hollander and rozanov and ignore the strings, we can pretend it's nothing more and never talk about it and I'll never say shane again, I'll never ask for more if this is all i can get) "hollander" (there's nothing I can say to keep this from crumbling but i'm begging you)

What I think a lot of people are grieving now is the future he lost. He had a chance to heal, to make amends, to right the ship. I think we all wanted to see that. He gave a lot of people great moments in their lives and he endured a lot. He was fighting hard for his own life. It is a deep sorrow that his struggle is over.

I hate being in between. Not actively suicidal, but hell how I want to die… I just want to vanish, disappear into thin air, I’m not strong enough to attempt… I wish I had though…

Literally nothing will make me more evil than just being sort of overwhelmed by Noises