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Born to have a hot heavy cock pulse and bob and drool between my thighs, forced to have this stupid pussy instead >:(

I'm finally getting closer to the me i'm supposed to be, but something still feels so so wrong. I feel this unrest which i don't know how to quench. A dysphoria of my very existence.

This voice dysphoria is shit if I’m going to be feeling like shit I should be coughing up blood as well

every time i look in a mirror, i feel like im having a panic attack

My dysphoria reads my posts in a girl voice wtf.thats str8 up evil dawg!

Black taint, creeping, stagnant, rotting, aching. Pain made manifest, yet unseen. It craves release, yet I do nothing to mend it. I am stagnant, I am rotting, I am aching. A simple call would begin the healing, yet here I still stand, doing nothing to do so. Another rot plants my feet, binds my hands, and make the former fester for longer. I see others release from this rot, I'm pleased for them, but I envy them too. The start would be enough, yet I can't even do that.

Feeling Claustrophobic in your own body<<<<<<<<<

Coping(going straight to bed, under the covers, distracting myself with my phone) with the horrors(body horror, ie having a body) right after every shower

I just have this oddly antagonistic relationship with my body that’s not healthy in the slightest. I just see it as a spiteful entity separate from myself that hurts me on purpose, even though I’m aware that’s logically impossible.