My 2017

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March 28th, 2018 Off to work then off to home and again and again and again. When will I start to feel real again?

September 23rd This is what hard earned money wasted on a teenager looks like. It's been awhile since I've posted on here. You've missed an awful lot. My trip to Nicaragua. My graduation. The fights. The drama. Educo. Hoping to start this up again. The daily check ins. I'm feeling good. Which is a lot more than I could've said back when I was running this blog before.

February 22nd I went to a public hearing yesterday and learnt a bunch and helped get a motion passed to build more affordable housing for seniors in my neighbourhood. It was pretty good. I didn't accomplish anything at school today. There was a dumb drama thing surrounding matthew and a group chat this autistic kid tom made but I don't care anymore it resolved itself. Lauren was sad cause ryan and faeron stole a bunch of shit. I totally feel her. I would've been so pissed. Mary was feeling suicidal apparently and I tried to help her but Idk if I actually did. I want to learn how to help people better. I want more people to be happy.

February 21st Sleep deprived. Sensory overwhelmed. Just found out my ex boyfriend is thinking about moving in with the girl he was with before me. I'm crying in Nootka court. Do not miss this.

February 20th Had a really hard time concentrating at school. Hung out at Ryan's house with erik and faeron after school and messed around with some rubix cubes. Snuck out with erik later and got some cool ass photos.

February 19th Sorry for the shitty gif quality. I painted and watched house for the first half of the day and worked for the second half. Some of my friends went to a park and vaped and played guitar and I'm sad they didn't invite me. I Wouldn't have been able to go anyways cause I was working but still. Maybe it's cause my ex was there and he hates me. Whatever. At least I'm making money.

February 18th Was too lazy to fix the orientation. I saw the first flowers in a couple months poking out of the ground on my dog walk today. I have never taken much meaning from springtime as I know many people do, especially Christians. But seeing these flowers today almost felt like a relief. Yes, winter is over. Yes, January always passes. Yes, flowers still grow. Yes, time marches forwards. Yes, the earth will grow back when the frost melts away. Always and again and again.

February 17th Got drunk tonight at a beach. I miss doing that. It wasn't the same as it used to be. It was better. I should do that more often.

February 16th My vape is officially broken and I am very sad about it but here's a picture of a pretty place in Germany to lighten the mood.

February 15th Went to tongues of fire. Competed against Jeremy Frickn loveday? It was ridiculous.

February 13th. Family day. Got in to a huge fight with my parents about relatively pointless things. Erik came over and we vaped/played guitar then snuck out later.

February 14th Valentine's Day. Ate a lot of sugar. Went to school. Went to work. Rinse and repeat. Rinse and repeat.

February 12th Kate's party was today. Played hide and seek it was so exciting. After that everyone just got stoned and didn't talk. Kinda wish I left with larkin.

February 11th All I did today was mop mop mop

Went to a session on hallucinogens. They’re so great. I wanna do mushrooms at least one more time before I graduate. Had kind of a lame improv session. Our team isn’t very good at dropping hints about things. Went to an awkward shift at work where it was me, rachel, Danielle and then joeys whole family. Joey is the CEO of the company. It was fun regardless. It’s always fun with rachel around. Then on my way home the moon did this really cool thing but I couldn't capture it cause phone camera suck and it hid behind a cloud when I got home and got averys zoom lens. There were these two rings around it and one was red and the other was rainbow and it was like rainbow light just very beautiful.

February 9th. Very good day today very good. I went to an interview for a sibling study in the morning. Got to talk about family dynamics and trans issues and stuff like that and got a 10$ gift card for doing so! Went to the bay centre and ate fries then went to a ballet. It was so beautiful. I think the way I feel about dance is the same way a lot of people feel about art or poetry. After that i went to a training shift and was finally reunited with Rachel after months!! Was told I need to wear deodorant... whoops. Least I look cute Asf.