UnderRated

Mysterious you find me to have caught your eye’s desire     

You sit back and look at me with letting your glaze lead you

Overanalyzing my every move, every smile and every laugh of mine

When you write, you wait for me to give myself away, all my little personal moves

Sometimes you think you might know who I am by just studying me

Then you realize, you still have no idea who your looking at

Mysterious, mesmerizing and surprising you to still find me

I'll live with it in silence

The site of you, your presence

That look you give me, with those hunting wanting eyes

Undressing, savoring and mindfully devouring me like your prey

I see the you and smell your lust and desire   

With the ache and need you have that I have trapped you

No escape you have, within your eyes I will make it impossible for you to leave

Has I have been hunting you and prey

We were one 

When did the shatter between us begin? 

That started to make us slit into two 

So many unanswered questioned 

Should I even care or wonder when we stop being the best thing after all I thought 

Being free is what I desired at times to be 

Finally feeling unloved 

I finally realized he didn’t know how or maybe care to learn how to love me 

But leave me with pain and an empty hole in my chest at the end 

A Craven at the end betrayal is what he knew best 

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Somewhere between my Delirium of my Deep Sleep

Images of you appear

Images of you always will be there

Confused and unsure

This seem all surreal

I see you, I hear you and I feel you still

Thoughts of you had always remained

Even though I do my best to refrain

I will always see you, hear you and feel you

Do you need me as much as I need you

Hold you, caress you, feel Me

Feeling you

Your sweet scent against my very own skin

Please don’t take me go

Don’t let me go

You will need me someday as i need you

And when you realize it

You will

Come to me  and Love

I’ll be here waiting for you

Do something, anything to be free

Free from the hurt and the pain

From mind games and false claims from imposters

Want not to endure

Want a way to become numb from it all

Worth it I say

And get in return

Peace of mind, a heart with love

Does that even exist anymore?

But to be free of most of it all

I would do anything, be anything to be numb of it all   

I’m neither sick nor demented

But yet there is something in me

These emotions don't fade, but wear me down

It’s Me, hidden in and it’s deep

Tormented by the past and the future that will never be, and new to be created still

I write the word in my mind, express them get them out as soon as I can

Why must tortured souls be tormented?

Eyes barely opened, tired and exhausted

Fighting it not giving in

I can’t, I won’t, I refuse

For you’re the only thing that keeps me from wanting to forget

As if surrendering to this exhaustion

Closing my eyes will make it not be true at all

As if closing my eyes will stop validating your very existence

I can’t, I won’t, I refuse