Welcome To The Circus

im still here guys ive been here for a while i just had a rough couple of months. got diagnosed with anorexia recently and my son (cat) died so I got a tattoo for him and my bf and I broke up but its kinda okay cuz were still close and i have to live with my parents and work remotely over the summer so i can get ed treatment so yeah its been a ride. im still here lurking though

its literally so unfortunate that i used to watch my digital escape in middle school in my emo days and i am still so attracted to johnnie guillbert like that is gross, and i still think his music sucks

the new left to suffer song is not their best but i do love hearing taylor scream "i'd rather kill myself" cuz me too dude

"dark academia" is really horrendous, like i use goodreads and the lists they make are so abominable. im convinced no one has written a good book since 2010

weight loss is body horror. watching my body change visually was really weird and im still not used to it and it disturbs me a little. and people only ever see it as a good thing? like i never know how to explain to people that yeah i do sometimes think i look better but most of the time i look in the mirror and my brain tells me i look like a cancer patient

this morning i put on black glitter eyeshadow from a four color drugstore palette with my fingers while listening to HIM and i felt like i was part of a long tradition

i think i would cum right now if either of my classes got canceled today