This Body Will Self-Destruct

my borderline ass: hey is everything okay are you mad at me you had a slight change of tone with me at 10:34:42am 1/30/2019

some of you have never been in the position of having a personality disorder that forces you to question whether or not you are being manipulative whenever you express any negative emotion forcing you to bottle everything up and it really shows

Even when everything is going good in my life, there’s this little tiny part that is just still unhappy and I can’t explain it… but it’s there. And I think it’s growing.

I keep saying I need to rest, I tell everyone I need some time. But I really mean that I need everything to stop, everything to leave me alone, so I can finally rest.

time does not attach you to people. they are not your obligation just because you’ve known them for so long. if they are mean to you, you don’t have to keep them around. if they treat you poorly, you are allowed to cut them off. if they hurt you, you are allowed to leave.