the fear of not feeling good enough is incredibly familiar and one that's not easy to get rid of, but perfection is not a sanction. the mistakes we make show our humanity, and life is just improving from them. we are doing alright, and we can do anything.

Worst thing I ever did in my life was try to play it cool to protect myself because all that ever did was attract people who also had their walls up or who were interested in people they wouldn't have to actually take care of

Whenever an ugly feeling arises in me, maybe resent, greed, insecurity, etc. I just have to laugh and think to myself, this is what being alive is and I don’t deny my capacity for ugliness, in fact I store my faith in it because that same awareness of my own ugliness is the place I go to when I am aware of my own beauty. I have all the time in the world to sort it out, that’s the thing with self trust. I don’t hide from others and I don’t hide from myself, where there is ugliness I observe it and I don’t turn away.

People who deny their own ugliness, turn away from it, find shame in it and then pretend that they aren’t ashamed are the ones with the deepest capacity for cruelty. Time to see yourself clearly and move forward anyways.

The slow mornings have been the most enjoyable lately. .