This blog is my unfiltered personal journal and safe space, I do see the problems with that, but I don’t think it’s a real issue.

I don’t like friendships in which I feel like an entertainer, we should be equally entertaining to each other and it should come naturally, not forced.

I lose so much respect for people who choose blood diamonds over lab grown diamonds

I wouldn’t need weed or alcohol if I was in a loving relationship

I drafted such a long and boring essay, you’re welcome

Being high is so weird, like I don’t give a shit about anything when I’m high, literally nothing matters, and that’s a problem, because if nothing matters, then there’s nothing to do, also if nothing matters, then everything matters, and then it’s like, what should I do, there’s too much to do, also negative. Being high isn’t as fun as it used to be, honestly sobriety is so much more dynamic and I achieve more when I’m sober. Being high is only good if I plan to do something with the high, otherwise it’s just a wasted day.

Trying to stay sober today but I need someone to take away my intoxication stuff, I really don’t have good self discipline

When I get high I just think about deleting all my social media accounts, I’m too naked, gotta hide

I got hit by a car in a busy intersection an hour ago