"we'll never change, and all 13 of us will be together."

i didn’t know liam personally, but even just watching him move about life being his tactile, steadfast, human-labrador self with boundless amounts of love to give, even if it meant taking on the brunt of others’ pain himself, as a bystander has been an honour and a privilege.

he had a talent—a true gift—and chose to share that with us. and through that talent, as a disabled high schooler who literally had trouble finding my voice and never fit in anywhere, i found a community. a home. somewhere i knew i could always turn, through the good times and the bad. in many ways, one direction saved me. there’s no “thank you” that feels big enough to encapsulate what he did for me and so many others.

all my love and well wishes to his family, friends and whoever was lucky enough to be in his orbit.

It made cry so much Gina.. this hurts so much!!!

Oh, my heart. And out of the five of them, I think Liam wanted it the most. So heartbreaking.

man, I already grieved One Direction for years as a teenager. can't believe I have to do it again as an adult.

One Direction is the first ever band I loved. I remember my sisters going ??? every time I blast their songs but ultimately loving them; I remember washing the dishes while belting out their songs; I remember my little brother going "rock me 🤘😜" as a toddler, not even knowing the song's implications and me laughing so hard;

my sisters and i have these huge age gaps and what connected me to them is music. their music AND my music. they loved One Direction, 5SOS, and BTS because i loved them too.

I remember participating the Directioners X Beliebers follow spree on Twitter; I remember jumping up and down my parents' bed as I watch my borrowed Up All Night DVD a million of times; I remember saving up my allowance for months just so I can buy their albums on my birthday (they release theirs every November);

I remember missing watching This Is Us on theaters because I was out for a camping, so I was bummed, but my mom surprised me with their magazine; I remember my classmate gifting me a folder filled with the printed lyrics of songs from Midnight Memories; I remember my classmate sending me Torrent downloaded copies of songs from Made In The AM;

I remember suffering from an undiagnosed mental illness and the dark clouds and how their songs gave me life; I remember the heartbreak and betrayal I felt when Zayn left (I was 15 and not as chronically online as I am today); I remember loving Infinity even though it's only the lyrics were leaked; I remember crying over History MV and the XFactor episode when they sang Infinity; and most of all, I remember waiting for 18 months to be over. :(

Today, Liam Payne from One Direction has died 💔. If you've been on my account for a while, you would know about how Take Me Home is one of my favourite albums and is a childhood comfort. I was in complete shock when I found out and I still can't believe it. I thought this wouldn't happen for a long long time.

One Direction was my favourite band growing up, they are my childhood. They were the first band that I liked and introduced me other boybands, like; the Vamps, Union J, JLS and Big Time Rush. I can't remember how I found out about them but my dad said I watched them on X-factor and it kind of started from there. I always wanted to go to one of their concerts, me and my best friend at the time (who was also obsessed with one direction) planned to go to their concerts unfortunately both of us were too young and by the time I was old enough they had broken up and I pretended to not like one direction as I thought it wasn't 'cool'. I know it's probably unlikely that they will reunite now but I hope that they would do like a memorial concert or something.